tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20515630302498775562024-02-19T01:49:11.295-05:00../ jbhFILE.com / Daily RantDaily blog of general status of circumstances made public in more detail at my personal website and domain: WWW.jbhFILE.COM.
Subjects and daily events are discussed quite casually here and nothing stated in this blog should be considered matter of fact. For the details of the circumstances that this blog further discusses, please see my main site, at WWW.jbhFILE.COMJoel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comBlogger137125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-42196428616026101802023-06-09T23:21:00.005-05:002023-06-10T00:08:37.138-05:00The Carnival Continues...<p>I'm a bit taken aback that I didn't think to publish here before starting on the most recent leg of my journey. This of course being the trek outlined at jbhfile.com and then replicated here at this blog and on a somewhat ongoing basis over time and weekly, daily or monthly ... whichever the case may be.</p><p>Suffice it to say, everything I've discussed here over the past decade or more (def more) is still alive and well, and considering the fact that I've recently started a new "job," it's become at least passingly/briefly necessary to make note of these developments here for posterity, personal protection or otherwise.</p><p><b>The Day Job</b></p><p>I've been working for the past few months for arguably the largest online provider of goods on the planet. Think two-day shipping and a relatively decent set of perks which include not only member/shipping discounts but also some fairly decent free movies.</p><p>My role is that of a warehouse worker. I'm surrounded by upwards of 100 to 200 other similarly tasked individuals every 10-hour shift and these folk, demographically speaking, cover the entire range of possibilities when one simply considers a simple metric of "that are of working age."</p><p>So, therefore, the opportunities for the so-called "investigators" discussed here and at jbhfile.com over the past few decades to play out (literal) daily theatrics and "skits" are many. And these happen, have happened, and will likely continue to happen daily and moving forward.</p><p><b>Sad Times (ie: "Publics not safe")</b></p><p>It's an unfortunate fact that these days and especially in regard to anything involving personal space, sexuality, and social demographics, that one must actually be constantly vigilant of one's own movements in very specific ways and constantly.</p><p>As I wrote many years ago in another blog post here titled "Blood in the Water," ... when dealing with a large group of other humans who have all been conditioned along what might be called a forced, group-mind sort of trajectory and specifically in regards to false narratives associated with some other, single person's behaviors or even potential behaviors, ... it doesn't take much, if anything really, to stir that proverbial group-mind-pot.</p><p>I won't reiterate too much here but as mentioned in the blog post referenced above:</p><p><a href="https://jbhfile.blogspot.com/search?q=blood+in+the+water" target="_blank">(S O U R C E)</a></p><p><i>"What might these very regular and normal social interactions mutate into in the minds of those who might have been made to believe any given number of horrible things about an individual as they observe these otherwise normal interactions? How might the general public (if under the spell of the rumor campaign) react to such an individual/target when he simply attempts to go about his normal social existence like any other citizen?</i></p><p><i>Well in short, it's fairly frightening, take it from me (but as mentioned above, it's gotten easier over the years); because, once the proverbial blood is in the water, once the seed has been planted in that "social mind," then even the most benign of public interactions, all of them in fact, can grow into literal and imaginary monsters in the minds of the observing public: mere glances become the apparent evidence of inappropriate attraction; simply pulling behind the wrong car when leaving from a restaurant might be interpreted as possible signs of stalking or predation; and, casual banter with certain individuals? A sure sign of possible sexual predatory behavior."</i></p><p>..</p><p>So in the interest of keeping things short and since I'm about to get ready to go to work.</p><p>I wanted to add this placeholder here because as alluded to above, it's truly sad but a fact that all it takes is one or two persons at the most to simply collaborate on a simple and agreed upon lie to immediately cast some other person in a questionable light. In my case, these metaphorical lights are resplendently bright and fueled by a seemingly endless supply of power.</p><p>So in public and in life in general, first I simply keep to myself. At 55 years of age and with at least 10 personal projects I'm always wanting to advance, this is the desired (and appropriate) trajectory for me moving forward in life this time around.</p><p>Secondly, I've very much with Keanu Reeves in regard to his own interactions with the general public. Just google the photos taken of him with his fans when so often he seems to be embracing one or two or even many individuals for fan photos and the like. The careful observer will note that in every single instance of such, Keanu is pointedly (and skillfully at that!) always sure to show his hands, intentionally but deftly extended into some other area of the photograph, clearly visible and clearly demonstrating that he is not touching anyone.</p><p>Keanu is smart, at least in this regard. I take his lead and then add to it.</p><p>And since my new work is indeed a very social one and I am indeed surrounded by all sorts of (one would hope) reasonably good people, I am at the same time being absolutely subjected to constant instances of "street theatre" and/or psychosocial theatrics which all revolve around the same weary topics discussed ad infinitum here and at jbhfile.com and which have been occurring for nearly 25 years now in my daily social life.</p><p>And as Keanu clearly understands, all it takes is one lie. One witness account of some contrived behavior on the part of some other person is all it takes to nudge that hideous ball/machine into rolling. And so I mind my spaces. And I do everything I can to not look at another person unless my job or the natural nuances of conversation and interaction call for it. I am not unskilled in these things and in fact, enjoy conversation and socializing but the particular environment I work in does not allow for much, if any of such, and in a way this is good. </p><p>This conscious effort to quite literally avoid any needless or unproductive personal attention (eye contact, non-productive and/or gratuitous social banter, etc.) with others around oneself in a regular social circumstance began long ago when taking on a strength training regimen at a local gym. And it's been supremely interesting to practice and get better at. </p><p>I'm still amazed at how deliciously difficult of a thing it is to actually do! I would def recommend it as a personal, developmental challenge to anybody really. I've gotten many times better at it over the years but it remains a fun process and one I'm far from perfecting. Factor in pointed and daily theatrics, quite literally and actively scripted to supposedly illicit certain internal or otherwise nervous responses in a targeted individual and it becomes exponentially more challenging to succeed.</p><p>But circle back now to the one lie. It's always a possibility and so therefore this brief bit of writing is a public acknowledgment of such and on the chance that such might occur.</p><p>It's really not that big of a deal but here is a very recent example of the types of "theatrics" or "scripting" I see played out every and with myself as the subject. Just the other day while working, a certain individual, oddly a gay, younger man casually passed me from behind and quite deliberately ran his hand up the inner areas of my rib cage and nearly from torso to armpit. It was deliberate and clearly intentional. I also know it was clearly theatre and not some naturally aberrant quirk of this young man's behavior. </p><p>I'd have preferred it to be somebody else, though. I don't know, maybe Kate Blanchett or Ann Magnuson lol. Maybe then it might have elicited the expected (or even possible lol) response that the organizers of such ruses might like to see but if there is one thing I've found is that said organizers will never attain that point of satisfaction. These persons are obviously compelled by something having its origins from within their own personal experience or psyche and not at all within the realm of possibilities regarding my own inner state or potentialities and after nearly three decades of such, it's fairly clear they will never be satisfied.</p><p>So circle back again to the one lie. </p><p>I would concoct a loose syllogism if I had more time and in fact, have to suppress the desire to do so lol.</p><p>Anyway. More later. I'm actually quite pleased I recently remembered this blog/public account and that it was still available to quickly note thoughts like this. But I had (perhaps dumbly) forgotten the necessity of such...</p><p>~J</p>Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-68912629822959430122022-09-04T09:41:00.000-05:002022-09-04T09:41:10.088-05:00From a Dream...<p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;"> 09/04/22 – 05:00am</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Now a new scene, also totally different…</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Here I am flying. I am hurtling along just above the downtown city rooftops at an extraordinary rate of speed. I am thrilled by the feeling of flight and amazed at how closely I skim the rooftops with their graveled compound surfaces and walls and borders. The terrain which I speed over and around is all modern city rooftops. There are new construction structures and large roof-mounted air conditioning units arranged randomly throughout the course I fly.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I am amazed at the agility with which I navigate these objects as I smoothly zip forward dodging this structure or that, banking deftly left and then right, pitching quickly up or down in order that I might not strike any of the various and typical structures common to city rooftops. I fly within inches of these objects as I skillfully swoop this way or that, left or right, up or down, to narrowly avoid impact.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">In this fight, this high-speed, free-floating gauntlet-like course that I traverse, all of my movements are smooth. There is never a jerk or violent change of direction. I fly through this rooftop cityscape as a pro and one who is in complete control of one’s movements.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Throughout, I constantly stare in wonder at how such a thing is possible as I am moving at a great rate of speed (perhaps 100+mhp?), and impacting any of the structures I so closely navigate would assuredly mean death or maiming at the very minimum. But I continue without incident. The hard edges and right-angle corners of the air conditioning units fly past, oddly not “as a blur” the way things seem to do when moving at such a velocity. On the contrary, all of these structures, the rooftop stairwell doors, AC units, ledges, wiring, and electric boxes are rendered in absolute clarity as I bank and swoop among them.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Everything there is dark or light browns and greys and grey blues, the colors common to an environment comprised mostly of industrial but well machined outdoor equipment. There are flat, clean greys and darker, more blue-grey surfaces. There are brown doors flying by with flat, cleanly polished aluminum grey door knobs. The rooftop surface is either dark black and grey asphalt or asphalt covered with small brown or tan stones. Out and around me as I fly through these structures, extends the city proper and it is huge.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">The city beyond the walls of the rooftops extends outward in all directions and I am aware of it but not in such clarity as I am of my immediate surroundings. But it is there and it is looming. It recedes without end outside of my site and towards every peripheral horizon.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Throughout this brief but exciting moment, I am both thrilled and slightly afraid. I am reminded of those enthusiasts in waking life who wear their “wing suits” and intentionally jump from the tallest of mountain peaks, at the edge of the breathable atmosphere at times, only to plummet back down to earth in their wingsuit.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">These wingsuit enthusiasts make a point to hug the mountain wall in their descent as closely and as precipitously as possible, at times flying within a few feet of the mountain face or swooping through the mountain’s natural bridges or arches or overhangs. Among that crowd, such danger is sought out and the degree to which one can flirt with demise as they make their descent is the same degree of admiration that they in turn receive among their peers and especially from the random onlooker.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Suddenly, as I fly, I somehow realize or think that I am a drone. I mean, one of the four prop, electric machines so popular these days and that have made such a very real and major impact not only on recreation but especially and more importantly in industry, production and film making.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">It’s another conversation but the impact that drone technology has made since being readily and dependably useable has been so great and across so many areas of life and work that I sometimes refer to there being a “pre drone era” and a “post drone era,” such is the lasting change and impact I feel these machines to have made (entertainment, recreation, film making, surveying, disaster reconnaissance, construction…the list of positive contributions made by the tech is endless.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">But back to my flying scene…</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I realize then that I am not wholly in control of anything here and in regard to my movement among the buildings. As soon as the thought of drones and wingsuits comes to my sleep-life mind, I realize then that I am not, myself a drone but I am somehow attached to one, even fused with one and that some other force compels and directs this drone-me-self along these rooftops and flits me dexterously among the many obstacles that occur along our course.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Here again, another waking-life moment comes to mind. My view of the surroundings, the course I take through the rooftops’ ever-changing topography, the objects and structures I zip through and around? It all feels and looks exactly like the pilot’s view seen and displayed so often on television and as part of the very popular “drone racing” competitions that are occasionally available on most cable networks. That analogy best describes my flight and my perception of the same. Of special note is the speed that the drones travel in those races, the fact that the very point of the race is to navigate structures at the highest speed possible, and that the perceived motion of the vehicle, from the pilot’s “camera eye” perspective, comes across as almost out of control but still, just barely, controlled enough to not make an impact with any of the surroundings.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">In the same scene, I am, in degrees, more and more acutely aware of the drone as an object separate from myself, and in fact, it then becomes completely distinct from myself and I am required to actually affix my arms and legs about this object as we hurtle along! I cling there then like a crab, almost employing what might be called a full body bear hug of sorts, this being the only means of my now staying connected to the craft.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Then, without warning, we have shot up and out of the close confines of the rooftops to begin a straight, rapidly accelerating, and vertical ascent through the sky and up towards the upper atmosphere! My speed increases dramatically, like that of a rocket leaving orbit. I am heading straight up in the sky, ever-accelerating and I am more and more aware that the only thing keeping me attached to the now rather small vehicle which propels us is my own arms grasped tightly about it! I am otherwise in no way fastened to the object, now miles above the earth and still increasing in speed.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I am then quite concerned. I am not fear stricken or panicked in anyway way. I am merely worried that at such a speed and height, I may not be able to retain my grasp on the small object and possibly plummet to my demise if we encountered turbulence or some other event that might slightly jostle me or bump me in a way that might result in my losing purchase on my tiny craft.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">The object to which I cling is then clearly noted to be a small cushion or pillow of sorts! It measures approximately 2×2 feet square, the same as a common “throw pillow” or pillow that one might place as both adornments and as a functional headrest on one’s couch in a living type environment. I do not find this odd but I am more and more bothered at the size of this small vessel/pillow and my difficulty in maintaining a sure grip on it. I constantly find myself rearranging my arms so as to better my grasp on the thing.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Then, miles above the earth, I am then hurtling straight back down at an even greater rate of speed. I do not remember the transition from ascent to descent but simply find myself descending.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Then there is a third party present as I plummet towards the ground. This person is more so there as an unseen narrator than he is as an actual, visible person. He is commenting on my descent, much the same way an airline pilot would make regular “cabin calls” to the passengers with periodic updates regarding their flight.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I do not recall his words precisely but he speaks in a plain manner, neither friendly nor threatening but simply informing. He seems to be aware of my concern regarding the close and ever-approaching ground as well as the impact that necessarily awaits. At that point, I think, “How could any object traveling this fast and already so close to the ground, stop itself? It’s an impossibility of physics!”.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">And the narrator-voice comments almost in reply, saying something like, “Yes. That is what you will now come to know. You will know exactly what it’s like to fall at that rate of speed and you will know what it feels like to reach the ground.”</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">With the man’s last words, I am not afraid but rather calmly concerned but, strangely, also curious as to what it will be like to impact the ground at that rate of descent (supersonic, it seemed) and I’m actually a bit excited as to whether it will hurt or be unnoticeable. I wonder if I will simply pass through the ground or perhaps instantly evaporate, this latter possibility being the most likely and in line with my amateur knowledge of waking-life physics.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Then, perhaps the oddest and most distinctly remembered moment of the flight is the actual moment when we meet the ground.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Here every science fiction novel I’ve read comes to mind. I mean the sort of books that envision technological futures that have seen the development of scientific methods and are based on undiscovered principles so far advanced as to be outside of our current, real-life knowledge of physics and the space within which we physically live and especially in how we are able to currently bend such to our will.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I think of these works of fiction because what happens at the point of my being a mere three to four feet from impact might only be described in such a work of science fiction. I mean to say that what happens next is certainly the “stuff of dreams” and or scientific possibilities that might one day be realized but which are still hundreds or even thousands of years from being developed.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">And as I reach the ground, still traveling at a supersonic rate of speed, there sets in motion a sort of physics-defying sequence of events that somehow gently and in otherwordly degrees, lessens my speed and I land safely and without injury. During the microseconds-long moment of impossible arrest in my motion, I am keenly aware of it being just that, a complete impossibility.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">As my fall is arrested and slowed, just mere feet from the ground, from 1000+ mph to resting gently on the ground, I feel as though some sort of force field type technology was the only means via which such a halt could be made without tearing an individuals body to bits in the process; as mentioned, such an event is outside the bounds of physics and therefore would require very special tech indeed (magic even?) to achieve.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">It’s as though there is a dense, unseen, protective buffer that eases my body in a form of near instantaneous deceleration that is comfortable, effortless, and smooth; I can actually feel this force at work around every part of the exterior of my body like an invisible repellant layer of sorts that somehow cushions me from the forces of gravity and velocity that would otherwise, basically, cause ones physical body to completely evaporate in such a scenario. Again I recall countless science fiction novels that I have read, faster than light travel or otherwise, where technology is employed to protect the frail human form from being harmed in the process and when exposed to such violent and unbelievable adjustments in speed.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">Here an analogy of sorts comes to mind as I struggle to describe that strange and impossible moment of instant deceleration and the bodily sensation experienced at the time.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I am reminded of the invisible but sure force one can experience in waking life when attempting to join the positive surface of a strong magnet with the positive surface of another strong magnet, that invisible but repellant force that prevents one from doing so. With the magnet analogy, there is also the fact that the degree of repellency increases in proportion to the closeness of either magnet surface; it is not a hard stop but a gradual but swiftly occurring resistance one experiences with the two magnets and this is exactly how it felt in those microseconds that it took for me to go from a subsonic descent to a calm, safe, and resting state on the ground. It is perhaps the highlight of that entire flight scene.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">I realize I did not smash upon the earth’s surface and am unharmed. There is no other imagery and here the sleep-life ends and I wake, happy to have not had a repeat of the sleepless night before and glad to have something to write down…</span></p><p><span style="font-family: trebuchet;">[end]</span></p>Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-69165838063825119742016-01-04T19:16:00.000-05:002016-01-30T15:50:55.129-05:00Welcome to 2016 (and to insomnia) ...<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">So 2016 came through without a hitch here in Houston; personally, I stayed in New Years eve, sans alcohol and was in bed by 730pm (only to be startled awake around midnight by all the neighborhood gunfire).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I've made no resolutions as I don't really believe such are effective but I have set my course towards a more healthy lifestyle. My weekend habit of booze and video games has been replaced by more productive work (planning a new resume, job searching, home repairs, etc.) and though never really deviating to far from it's four year, ongoing course, my regular and important schedule of physical training, both weight training and running, is being analyzed and refined towards a more serious, goal oriented bent.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">And then along comes this INSANELY *CLINICAL* case of fucking insomnia...</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I'm not talking about the popular form of the affliction that so many folk claim to experience (and do) ... the random or regular losing of a few hours a night to tossing and turning, brooding or otherwise just not being able to sleep. I'm talking about seriously life threatening bouts lasting for upwards of 48 hours or more of quite literally, NO SLEEP whatsoever.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I've never known anything like it and have no explanation for why it would be occurring. I do not consume caffeine after noon, generally on any given day of the week. I certainly don't partake of any illicit or otherwise recreational drugs or stimulants and for the most part, across any given week, maintain the same daily and/or weekly schedule.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It began occurring about six months ago, one or two days a week. Some weeks not occurring at all and then the following week, coming near nightly. As time has gone by and progressing up to the current day, it has magnified in intensity and occurs just about every week, at least four nights a week; oddly, the other nights, I might sleep rather okay, perhaps losing a few hours but coming from a 48 hour bout of insomnia, a 4 hour nights sleep is like paradise to the mind and body.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This, of course, has no connection at all with my ongoing efforts made public in jbhfile.com but it's something personal and recent that is greatly affecting my well being and so thought it worth writing about here on my more casual blog.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I've traditionally, as a youth, young adult and now a middle aged man, had no problems with such disorders; I have always slept well and in fact, over the past 20 years (barring the past six months) have developed very tried and true meditative practices that have allowed me to put myself to sleep in as little as five minutes. Lately, though .. as this strange thing called "insomnia" has set upon me, these meditative practices do nothing to help.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I've tried all of the over the counter options for assistance and of them all, Diphenhydramine, an antihistamine (the main ingredient in Tylenol PM and the like) has been the only one that has been at times effective in helping me with the problem ... but it's sporadic at best and one builds up a tolerance too it quickly. The only other options, of course would be pharmaceutical grade sleep aids and I'm simply not going to explore those as I loath the idea of introducing such toxins in to my system.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">But it's vexing to be sure. As I type, I have not slept in over 37 hours. I just finished a day at work and was hard pressed to simply pay attention to the matters at hand. I work in a very hazardous, dangerous and potentially lethal environment and this sort of debilitation is far and away the worst imaginable for such daily activity.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I've recently had discussions with a family member regarding the possibility of pursuing advice from a specialist if the situation does not better itself over the coming months; of course, upon visiting such a person would come mention of prescription drugs and I would flatly decline such an option as, again, I am wholly against the use of such potentially hazardous chemicals. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Antihistamines like Diphenhydramine (aka Benadryl), I have been taking my entire life and know full well my tolerances for and reactions too and so I am not averse to the use of such but I will not go down the road of prescribed chemical experimentation. But perhaps some person specializing in the field could tell something via other means (blood tests, etc.) and so we have discussed it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It's such a strange and horrible thing, insomnia ... affecting my physical training regimen (which is profoundly important to me) and also my work (which is mundane but necessary) ... and my hope is that it will disappear as quickly and as unexpectedly as it appeared ..</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">So coming in to 2016 as a new and hopefully great year ... I wanted to get that out on the intrawebz as one of the really strange, terrible .. but still "new" phenomena that has recently cropped up in my life ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Happy New Year and sleep well!!!</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-65109505707457552372015-12-19T19:40:00.002-05:002015-12-24T20:34:02.266-05:00Hardship and hard lessons and harder trials...<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Man it's been a long time since I've written anything here!</span><br />
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The past few years have seen a slow emotional and mental evolution within myself that sort of makes having spasmodic freak outs and the subsequent knee-jerk publishing of blog posts related to such, sort of unnecessary.</span><br />
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This is such a <i>fine, fine</i> thing.</span><br />
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I can't tell you how amazing it feels to actually be able to inwardly note, with precise and solid indicators (like marking a child's height on the wall), how much I've grown in regards to the management of my own mind, my thoughts, and especially my emotions.</span><br />
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This is a personal process, something perhaps only I am aware of or can speak of, that has every reason to be called "heroic" ... if only in a <a href="http://www.thewritersjourney.com/hero's_journey.htm" target="_blank">Jungian/Joseph Campbell regard</a>.</span><br />
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Read some <a href="http://www.soulcraft.co/essays/the_12_common_archetypes.html" target="_blank">Carl Yung</a> if you need more clarification (even better <a href="http://www.innerquest.com/josephcampbell.html" target="_blank">Joseph Campbell, cause he makes it <i>almost</i> easy to understand</a>) as I will surely not be able to explain that bit of reference to psychological mythos ... personal trials, challenges, victories .. and finally bringing the fruits of those victories back to share with others who might benefit from them.</span><br />
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I know it might be a bit vague, but I mean some thing *very* specific with that last bit...</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">So here is a distilled version: </span></b></span><br />
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If you suffer hardship and hard lessons and harder trials in this life of yours and if you choose to then sputter out and die? By your own hand or the hand of others? (both are constantly, very real possibilities, I know) ... If you are actually killed, made to go crazy or otherwise expire, by your own hand or that of others? Then there is no shame inherent in either case, and you should lose no sleep in the contemplation of either. Said plainly? "It's all good! You'll be planning a come back before you know it!" ...</span><br />
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If you suffer hardship and lessons and trials and then come to understand the nature of such? If you then, against ridiculous odds, choose to study it over many years and come to at least *some* degree of understanding of it? Should you chose to own it? And if you then bring that knowledge back to those who were present at the beginning of your hardship, or even humanity in general? With the full intent of sharing it? Then that is what Joseph Campbell would call the successful realization of a "hero's quest" ...</span><br />
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(from the video below) : "He/she has to come back ... or his quest isn't really finished at all"</span><br />
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Ironically .. as so much of my recent years seem to be .. here is a little video/song I wrote/made around 1996 or so ... a *long* time ago .. talking specifically about this idea ... the Jungian idea of the archetypal heroes quest ... I even reference Joseph Campbell (a popular "town shouter" in support of some of Jung's ideas) ... except, I call him "JC" ...</span><br />
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Regarding the psychology of a Jungian hero mythos?</span><br />
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The hero must always return to share some wisdom of his or her travails with the rest of the world; otherwise, the quest isn't really finished at all and the one thing said "hero" had <i>quested</i> for would be lost forever.</span><br />
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Think about it like this: if, in your travels and various difficulties, your myriad challenges and fights? If among such victories and failures you should find some life altering, some humanity altering discovery? And if you chose to not share it with the world in a way that impacts the life of another human being? Then what good is that discovery? I mean, other than a purely selfish and personal gain? Then what good is it? Cause then you would be jumping from Jung to Nietzsche and nobody really wants to do that now do they? LMAO ...</span><br />
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It's not even something I can describe adequately ... even with my formidable arsenal of metaphors and ghetto book knowledge!! ...</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">All that said..</span></b></span><br />
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The fact that my past 20 years have played out almost as a mirror to the idea expressed in the above video is quite funny.</span><br />
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I've had the choice of expiring or not expiring and I've always chosen to *not* expire (and on some occasions, I had no choice in such matters as it really was at the hands of others and at least <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html#1" target="_blank">on one particularly horrific occasion</a>, I genuinely <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html#1" target="_blank">did expire</a> but I came back ... <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html#1" target="_blank">true story</a>) ...</span><br />
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I've been through hardship and hard lessons and harder trials ... and I decided to persevere (though there were moments of real trauma and doubt and there always will be) ... and I have decided to bring something back to share with others. Though I will be selfishly selective who I chose to share those things with ... cause I'm picky like that.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b>An Unofficial analysis of The Hero's Journey</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I wanted to post something that I found online which is just fucking <i>*uncanny*</i> when considering the course of my own life over the past 15 years .. not that I think I'm special or that I feel superior ... but more so because I've been through really horrible, really violent things and have come out the other side, having learned invaluable truths along the way and because of said things; I am not saying this is how everyone might come to understand higher things ... but more so, that it's the way that <i>I discovered such</i> ... and I am grateful for such training ... regardless of the trauma, and quite literal "near death experiences" perpetuated by the various assaults against my person along the way. All is forgiven ... (though I still don't trust you who have been involved, or any one associated with you,<b> <i>at *ALL*</i></b> ... and I will avoid all of you if at all possible; mark me.).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The following is just <i>uncanny</i> to me because I can map certain events from my life over the past 15 years to each and every "waypoint" along the way of this "syllabus" ... in remarkably accurate consecutive order ... and no, I will not explain. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But things get fuzzy and unsure around point #9 ... which is relieving in a certain regard because, just as long as we are believing in voodoo? At least I'm way more than half way through all this fucked up shit ... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So here is the list I was talking about (it's Jungian, look the dude up if your curious, or better yet, read Joseph Campbell; I don't have the time to pontificate. Shit man, I read all this dude's shit when I was 20; now that I'm 48? I'm not about to stop and explain. But this here bit is a great introduction to his idea of the Hero mythos:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i><b><span style="font-size: large;">The Hero's Journey Outline</span></b><br /><span style="font-size: x-small;">(copied from this page right here: </span></i><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>http://www.thewritersjourney.com/hero's_journey.htm)</i></span></span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The Hero’s Journey is a pattern of narrative identified by the American scholar Joseph Campbell that appears in drama, storytelling, myth, religious ritual, and psychological development. It describes the typical adventure of the archetype known as The Hero, the person who goes out and achieves great deeds on behalf of the group, tribe, or civilization.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">1.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>THE ORDINARY WORLD. The hero, uneasy, uncomfortable or unaware, is introduced sympathetically so the audience can identify with the situation or dilemma. The hero is shown against a background of environment, heredity, and personal history. Some kind of polarity in the hero’s life is pulling in different directions and causing stress.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">2.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>THE CALL TO ADVENTURE. Something shakes up the situation, either from external pressures or from something rising up from deep within, so the hero must face the beginnings of change. </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">3.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>REFUSAL OF THE CALL. The hero feels the fear of the unknown and tries to turn away from the adventure, however briefly. Alternately, another character may express the uncertainty and danger ahead.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">4.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>MEETING WITH THE MENTOR. The hero comes across a seasoned traveler of the worlds who gives him or her training, equipment, or advice that will help on the journey. Or the hero reaches within to a source of courage and wisdom.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">5.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>CROSSING THE THRESHOLD. At the end of Act One, the hero commits to leaving the Ordinary World and entering a new region or condition with unfamiliar rules and values. </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">6.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>TESTS, ALLIES AND ENEMIES. The hero is tested and sorts out allegiances in the Special World.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">7.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>APPROACH. The hero and newfound allies prepare for the major challenge in the Special world.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">8.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>THE ORDEAL. Near the middle of the story, the hero enters a central space in the Special World and confronts death or faces his or her greatest fear. Out of the moment of death comes a new life. </span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">9.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span>THE REWARD. The hero takes possession of the treasure won by facing death. There may be celebration, but there is also danger of losing the treasure again.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">10.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span> THE ROAD BACK. About three-fourths of the way through the story, the hero is driven to complete the adventure, leaving the Special World to be sure the treasure is brought home. Often a chase scene signals the urgency and danger of the mission.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">11.<span style="font-size: 7pt;"> </span> THE RESURRECTION. At the climax, the hero is severely tested once more on the threshold of home. He or she is purified by a last sacrifice, another moment of death and rebirth, but on a higher and more complete level. By the hero’s action, the polarities that were in conflict at the beginning are finally resolved.</span></i></div>
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-70148513313878684312015-12-04T20:32:00.001-05:002015-12-24T17:32:39.233-05:00Changes have come and they are a come'n....<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">My life circumstances changed rather dramatically about three months ago ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">My roommate of the past 9 or so years, also a near life long member of a certain long standing political and intelligence group that I've been heavily involved with for the past 13 years, recently passed away. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">He passed of somewhat natural causes; he was in his late 50's. I will not go in to the complications that brought about his demise.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">And recognizing the fact that I have not felt inclined to author any worrisome (or otherwise) bits here on my blog over the past year or more is evidence of the fact that my life, especially in regards to my ongoing living arrangements with this fellow (and our mutual acquaintances), has become increasingly more defined as something that could almost be called "normal;" it's certainly been vastly more enjoyable over the past five years because of my friendship with this person: I have worked the same daily job for nearly seven years. I have pursued my ongoing passion for high end audio listening gear, headphones, building custom computers, writing, reading, etc ... and for the past four years, I have been committed to a daily regimen of physical training, both strength training in the gym and especially, many miles logged trail running at Houston's Memorial Park mountain bike trails and can honestly say that I'm in <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10153823129909068&set=a.441137314067.245978.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank"><b>the best physical, emotional and mental condition</b></a> of my life; this latter bit regarding physical disciplines cannot be stressed enough as something that has become central to my ongoing happiness in this life. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">That link just above is to my personal Facebook page, BTW ... where, by intention, I make all content, at all times, totally public ... feel free to browse about, you'll find lots of porn and humor and nonsense ... and also some fairly serious shit in my <b><a href="https://www.facebook.com/TheGodsofVictory/notes?pnref=lhc" target="_blank">"Notes" section</a>;</b> pardon the half naked photo, BTW ... but I'm quite proud ... four years ago I was well nigh obese and weighing over 230 pounds, today I go back and forth between 162lbs and 164lbs and maintain about 15% body fat; it's absolutely *centering* and therapeutic to pound my body into submission on a daily basis ... be it running six miles in the woods or spending two hours strength training in the gym ... it's a positively irreplaceable and productive habit and is one of the most important and fun things I currently get to enjoy in my life. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">His passing creates a few fleeting concerns for me, of course, and exactly related to all the drama and movements around me so acutely illustrated in the whole of my main website, <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">JBHFile.com</a>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It is precisely because I have had a trustworthy friend and confidant over these years, some person that could absolutely testify to my daily behaviors when at home or otherwise not at work, that I have felt way less bothered by the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_setup.html" target="_blank">very real movements</a> that were made against me in the past: IE: "No, Joel was not smashing windows out of cars on the street last night cause I was home and up all night and would have seen him come and go." ... Or, "No, Joel didn't sneak in to the neighbors house and <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/mementotm.html#3" target="_blank">steal some woman's undergarments</a> cause one, I know he's not some repressed freak and two, I was up all night and would have seen him come and go.". (Don't scoff, this very last imagined scenario has already been attempted once in the distant past). I mean to say, that considering there have been and probably still are, quite influential and determined folks trying to cast my person in a less than wholesome light via false incrimination and the like ... it's made a huge difference to share a home with a trustworthy and unswayable friend ... and the lack of this person in my life, as of now, is why I write.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif; font-size: large;">So I'm living alone in this big ass house for the next few months...</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Just three months prior to his passing, he had bought a new house in West Houston, where he and I had intended to move (from the other home we had shared for 7+ years). Ironically and sadly, the weekend we were to move, he collapsed in his room and would eventually succumb to his illness about a month later.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">That said, and because the house had been paid for, his siblings (who inherited the house) have allowed me to stay in it on a rental basis through til March of 2016.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">This is unbelievably kind of them and the gesture is not lost on me ... but it does create a dramatic bit of new circumstance for me regarding those persons/groups so often referred to in JBHFile.com who I'm sure would still very much like to manipulate my life in to some circumstance under their jurisdiction.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Said plainly, I'm alone in a nice house on a street densely packed with families and professionals (it is a typical, rather nice middle class street) and the opportunity for nefarious actions against myself, those that would undeniably benefit from the fact that there is no other person living with me, are made 1000x more enticing to orchestrate).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I'm not too worried about this and I'm certainly losing no sleep over it ... but long standing and quite ingrained protocols require that I publish this bit in advance of my enjoying the next few months in this lovely home:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Pretty dope, huh? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It's super nice. My recently passed roommate had the entire interior re worked: new flooring and paint throughout and it's just pristine.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">The truth is, had I my druthers, I would always rather live alone. I am a solitary person and prefer to spend any and all free time I have doting over my various interests and hobbies. I am a "tinkerer" at heart and never have enough time to see to the various pursuits I've chosen to be involved in (and no, that would *not* be amassing huge stock piles of underage women up-skirt videos) ... (humor, remember it) ... </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">At one time and <i>certainly</i> today (because I know very well the nature of those who have set themselves against me), the desire of certain "forces"/agencies has been to cast myself in a sexually nefarious light. To do this, said agencies have used ongoing wrongful incrimination attempts which, across the board, have attempted to slot me in to some contrived circumstance that would seem to indicate that I am exhibiting some cliche' behavior associated with the gross and popular psychological "profiles" of such persons one might witness on any given night and on any given criminal investigation sitcom.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">And just considering the absurdity of the above paragraph? It should be said...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I'm 48 years old and have *nothing* but a <i>wealth</i> of ridiculously wonderful relationships behind me ... both those serious and bordering on life long commitment and those frivolous, recreational and sexually playful; I have not been sheltered in regards to such things. Not that it's anybodies business, but more so as a demonstration of the fact that I am not some closeted recluse lacking in sexual experience (though I really <i>am</i> a recluse and proud of it, but certainly not sexually closeted) ... I have to say, among those serious relationships and those not so? I would estimate that I've been with at least 40 romantic partners (I am Heterosexual, BTW) since I lost my virginity at the age of 15. I mean prior to year 2001, that is ... when all this ridiculous and political and gross shit hit the proverbial fan.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">It should also be said immediately following that sort of gross public statement above, that I have chosen to remain <b>celibate</b> until I have made some public resolution of these circumstances (namely, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/legal_foipa.html" target="_blank">a provision of the Federal Bureau of Investigation documents</a>, quite well known to exist by not only myself but many others who have acted as informants to the investigation, that will prove publicly that at least a degree of what I have written and ranted about over the years, is true). </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">And it's true .... (other than one encounter with an "Old flame" a few years back) ... I have been completely celibate since year 2001. I do not date. I do not ask women out and, should a woman ask *me* out, I politely decline (yes, this has happened and it hurt). This commitment to celibacy is not the least bit problematic for me. At this point in life I am completely enthralled by the pursuit of my own personal betterment, physically, emotionally and also intellectually. I have very little time to myself outside of the pretty horrible day job that I work weekly (family company) and so when I have a few hours to myself? Honestly? I would vastly prefer to be alone. And besides, just regarding simple sexual needs? I can quite effectively see to those myself; I have no qualms with being a "DIY Guy" ... not in the slightest. And so far, no hair has grown on the palm of my hand. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">But all humor aside, a commitment to celibacy is essential as I've already seen two potentially great relationships with two really great females, completely <i><b>ROUTED</b></i> by the shit storm of social insanity outlined in my main site, <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">JBHFILE.com</a> ... one ruined by rumor and slander and one ruined because the woman in question had been coerced into attempting to manipulate me and I found her out (both horribly unacceptable) ... and I'm simply not going to go through it again. Thank god <a href="http://hegre-art.com/explore" target="_blank">for internet porn</a> is all I can say ,... </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I will write more about this in the next couple of days; this is a very loose, rough draft that it pains me to publish as it's most likely chock full of spelling and grammatical errors but since I've been living in this home, alone, for over a month now, I wanted to get these new circumstances out and into the ether while I had a few moments to write at the bar down the street from my house ...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">OH YEAH!!! Almost forgot ... not that it's too related to this post but I have another blog wherein I have, quite literally, recorded every single days events over the past three years; it is not entertaining reading but it is *very* fucking thorough ... and it's especially important now that I am living alone....</span></div>
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Bertrand Russell loved pontificating on his personally skewed views regarding popular mass psychology and especially how such views intersected with what he would refer to as the "governing classes" (he was heavily influenced in his thinking by the likes of Freud and Pavlov, both quacks in their own right and it constantly comes through in his writing); in these various notably published works, some books, some peroidical entries, he would go on to mark himself as one of the most horribly imperialist and downright horrifying "anti-humanist" thinkers of not only his own time but of all time, period; he was never apologetic in this, either.</div>
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Take the most horrific of Hitlers eugenic ideologies, the most diabolical of Goebbels manipulations on the unsuspecting minds of the public and combine them with a general mood of social and professional acceptance among the vast majority of today's so called "intellectual elite" and you will know, in a very simple but accurate sense, who and what Bertrand Russell was and what he still so actutely represents. Oh yeah ... just consider the fundamental and core belief structure of the long standing British monarchical system and there too, you will find a very simple understanding of what drove the mind behind the following quotes, these being taken directly from two of Bertrand Russell's published works.</div>
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Consider the implications of his words below; and then take a long hard look at how today's media outlets are so carefully structured in regards to the availability, continuity and specifically the <em>nature</em> of the messages that we are all bombarded with on a 24 hour basis (radio stations, cable networks, news networks, local television, newspapers, popular magazines, billboards, music, the backs of taxi cabs, etc.); think about the persistently published content that this propaganda machine is endlessly concerned with (issues of racial hatred and racial fear, issues of religious conflict and religious fears, the general and constant buttressing of the manifold "enemy images" we see being developed at all times: <i>be headings!, burned alive!, shootings! Russia did it! North Korea did it! China is certainly behind it! If not China then maybe your neighbor!</i>) then consider how these messages, like an intellectually cancerous seed corn, have become rooted in the minds of just about all popular social structures, from schools to office buildings; from the general labor demographic to churches and synagogues and mosques; even the typical family dinner table has become a means of magnifying, protracting and propagating these messages.</div>
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Upon studying up on Bertrand Russell, it becomes chillingly clear what the psychological and social stance of the current day "ruling class" is and what this so called, "class" is most interested in regarding the general population; it's so neatly lined out here in the following two quotes, one from a 1930's publication and one from a much later book Russel authored in the 1950's; both bits acutely demonstrate Russell's obviously <em>Nietzschean</em> and even more so, <em>Aristotelian </em>ideas in regards to mass social and psychological dynamics (as opposed to a more humanist vein of thinking, possibly best illustrated by the Platonic tradition in philosophical thought).</div>
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This first bit is from a 1951 book by Bertrand Russell, called<em><span class="fbUnderline" style="text-decoration: underline;">The Impact of Science on Society</span>... </em></div>
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<em>"Physiology and psychology afford fields for scientific technique which still await development. Two great men, Pavlov and Freud, have laid the foundation. I do not accept the view that they are in any essential conflict, but what structure will be built on their foundations is still in doubt. I think <strong>the subject which will be of most importance politically is mass psychology</strong>.... Its importance has been enormously increased by the growth of <strong>modern methods of propaganda</strong>. Of these the most influential is what is called 'education.' Religion plays a part, though a diminishing one; the press, the cinema, and the radio play an increasing part.... <strong>It may be hoped that in time anybody will be able to persuade anybody of anything if he can catch the patient young and is provided by the State with money and equipment.</strong></em></div>
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<em>"The subject will make great strides <strong>when it is taken up by scientists under a scientific dictatorship</strong>.... The social psychologists of the future will have a number of classes of school children on whom they will try different methods of producing an unshakable conviction that snow is black. Various results will soon be arrived at. First, that the influence of home is obstructive. Second, that not much can be done unless indoctrination begins before the age of ten. Third, that verses set to music and repeatedly intoned are very effective. Fourth, that the opinion that snow is white must be held to show a morbid taste for eccentricity. But I anticipate. It is for future scientists to make these maxims precise and discover exactly how much it costs per head to make children believe that snow is black, and how much less it would cost to make them believe it is dark gray. ...</em></div>
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<em>"On those rare occasions, when a boy or girl who has passed the age at which it is usual to determine social status shows such marked ability as to <strong>seem the intellectual equal of the rulers</strong>, a difficult situation will arise, requiring serious consideration. If the youth is content to abandon his previous associates and to <strong>throw in his lot whole-heartedly with the rulers, he may, after suitable tests, be promoted</strong>, but if he shows any regrettable solidarity with his previous associates, the rulers will reluctantly conclude that <strong>there is nothing to be done with him except to send him to the lethal chamber before his ill-disciplined intelligence has had time to spread revolt. This will be a painful duty to the rulers, but I think they will not shrink from performing it."</strong></em></div>
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<em>"Rulers"</em> ... <em>"ordinary men and women"</em> ... <em>"holders of scientific power"</em> ... <em>"governing class"</em> ... <em>"scientific dictatorship"</em> ...</div>
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Over and over the same terms, the same obvious disdain for any sort of crazy notion like "the greater good," ... or that "all men are created equal" ... or that all citizens of our once great Republic are endowed by the Creator with "unalienable rights" ...</div>
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And perhaps the best closing comment I can come up with is pulled directly from the very same document a few of those last few quotes were taken from ... our very own Declaration of Independence; and I think it's perfect counterpoint to the near inhuman tone of Bertrand Russell's gross musings, almost an antidote of sorts really...</div>
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<em>"That whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government" ...</em></div>
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">jbh</span>.</span></div>
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-39245068078716942592014-06-22T07:09:00.002-05:002014-06-22T07:09:56.020-05:00The same as it ever was (at least going back 15 years or so) .. Things regarding <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">JBHFILE.com</a> are about the same as always ...<div>
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The FEDS regarding this tryst are still bashful about providing proof of an investigation and their many and varied psychotic minions still follow me about on a daily basis. I'm really not sure what they are trying to pull...</div>
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It's all good, though. Shit man. I've even come to enjoy the attention..</div>
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Rock the fuck.</div>
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.joel</div>
Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-17265626321642068242014-04-26T18:26:00.000-05:002014-05-17T19:39:45.798-05:00My body resounds<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I enjoy difficult things.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If it presses back as I press forward? Then I have come to understand this as good, as a lesson and proof that living is truly worth real human effort.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I enjoy problem solving. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Not so much math, but otherwise elegant, graceful means of finding some sort of solution to some sort of conundrum. This happens all the time and every day in my very plain, waking moments and could be so simple of a thing as braking to let the car in front of me change lanes (which I always do and which always feels so fine).</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Also, not adding my voice to ongoing social dramas makes a real difference. These dramas happen frequently in my life and it's very challenging to simply observe and not interject my own angle. This could also be seen as problem solving of a sort.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I take care of my tools.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My daily work is the most mundane of any daily work ever imagined but I nonetheless obsess on my tools, my gear, the process, how I can make any and every moment of that very real and very physical labor that much more efficient.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've found this makes a real difference, this knack towards self observation, minding myself and holding myself accountable. If I cannot observe, love and challenge myself? Then how in the world can I contribute such things to some other? God forbid I should marry some poor woman before first resolving these things! Or, hopefully if I did, she would be toothy and wise and allowing.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I have developed an affinity for pain.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My mind is a muscle and, other than abs, is the most difficult for me to train. Learning to really use my mind, hurts like fucking hell. Should I light upon some new idea? Should I have an epiphany that I want to perfect? Then here come a hundred other intrusions to push me away from it. The League of Rejects(tm) is what I call this ugly influence, the tendency of one's own mind to always try and undo anything and everything that the mind is positively set upon achieving. "Everyone hates the prettiest in the room" is how the saying goes .. and it's true. If I'm to turn inward and utilize mind? If I'm to make a real example of myself? Then the naysayers incapable of the same, will always be there to hate. My task is to ignore them, which is paramount to impossibility. But I toil on, still...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My mind is my greatest ally.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>"There are spooks up in our minds, all of us; do not let them push you around!"</i> --anonymous</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My mind is greater than my body but strangely, more fragile. It requires such concentration to develop that, at times, I want to simply be body. But that would be disingenous and foolish and fatal, too.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My body resounds like a coil.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My body is old. It grows so by the minute, (as do all of ours) .. it carries with it the memories of such triumphs, such tragedies and such traumas! It harbors so much earthly love and learning that at times it blinds me to think back on all of it. Full of potential, danger, history and quiet strength. My body thrums. It's almost vibratory or cyclical this physical thing I'm trying to get at, it's fundamental and I reckon can only be felt with a certain sort of balance in one's days: t</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">he right amount of sleep is important; the right amount and proper types of food, sex, play and otherwise recreation. Careful attention to the needs of the mind (as the mind should always rule the body). Physical training, be it lifting, dancing, running, fencing, wrestling or even surfing, for that matter...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Because the body, like any other animal that we would deem to control, should be trained. And it should always be ruled by the mind: economy of movement, grace, a humble dispostion and introspection. Emotional accountability. And, at all costs, introspection.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My body resounds.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-------------------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">jbh</span>.</span>Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-1986489126364545802014-03-01T16:39:00.001-06:002014-03-01T17:54:58.019-06:00A man should not fear his work...<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've written before (many times
actually) of how the sordid movements against me over the years have
pretty much destroyed my historic and traditional career in visual
and software interface design. In fact, by far the greatest effort
made on the part of the “investigators” and early on, was to
prevent me from gaining any gainful (if I may) employment in that
field (really, anything to do with computers as I'm also very skilled
in networking and hardware disciplines in general).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Back around year 2001, when I was
leaving my last important design position (Art Director at a
<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html#4" target="_blank">prominent Houston design firm</a>) and while seeking new employment, I
had a funny but telling experience. It's sort of indicative of just
how badly they(tm) were working to prevent me <i>from working</i> and
it was also, very much, an effort to quite literally loose my mental
hinges.
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And it worked, freaked my shit real bad
to be honest and eventually <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/entry6.html" target="_blank">I would crack</a> under the sort of daily
experiences like the one I'm about to describe:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I had just been hired at another design
firm, also a fairly prominent group here in Houston, and after
leaving my initial meeting with the owners/management … and as I
was walking down the stairs to go to my car, a plainly dressed guy
came up the stairs and passed me and as he did so, he muttered under
his breath … <i>“Don't get too comfortable in your new job.”
</i>Any normal civilian would have
said, <i>“Excuse me? What did you say?”</i> … but I was acutely aware
of the movements around and regarding me and had been for some time
and so I knew all too well why the comment was made. To have inquired
would have assuredly garnered a response of the sort, <i>“I'm sorry
but I didn't say anything.”
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Believe
it … true story.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway … before I waste a lot of
breath on old stories that really aren't too much about what I want
to get at with this bit, I'll stop.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b>Work that's not work...</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But suffice it to say, my professional
background is in software interface design … also, visual design in
general. </span></div>
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<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I enjoy all sorts of visual design, from book covers to
brochures to posters to custom DVD productions for my niece to t-shirts to even general text layout as
evidenced in my own site <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a> <i>(pretty much the greatest text
based site I've ever personally designed and built)</i> ,... but by far,
software interface design is my main love. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The task of gathering
together some strange new groups various processes and problems and
coordinating with a team of similarly passionate professionals in an
effort to craft an <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=97077479067&set=a.97075709067.86677.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">elegant solution</a> via mathematical logic and <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=97077279067&set=a.97075709067.86677.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">visual interfaces</a> is pretty much akin
to the most enjoyable and rewarding sort of “play” for me that I can imagine (it
<i>was</i>, anyway); I never once thought of it as work and would never stop
doing it … even after I left the nine to five … I went to bed
thinking about it, woke up thinking about it and could not wait for the
next significant milestone to be reached as any given project
progressed. And upon completion of each and every project, it felt
like I'd just reached the summit of some new and monumental peak; it was and is a transcendentally enjoyable process, this task of creating something beautiful and functional, basically from nothing. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The fact that people were paying me
upwards of $60 dollars an hour to do the work was sort of beside the point … I would have done that shit for free, to be honest, and so the huge pay checks were
quite literally, “<a href="http://www.nancykiefer.com/site/Blog/Entries/2010/11/25_GRAVY___Raymond_Carver.html" target="_blank">gravy</a>.”
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And, as I'll eventually get too … I really <i>am</i> currently doing it for free … and as I find the time and the
clients I find interesting enough to commit too. Not so much software design, but at least <i>visual </i>design of a sort. But more on that
several blocks of text down …
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b>A man should not fear his work...</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All that said and as a direct
consequence of being the victim of a hugely sweeping and constant
smear campaign (they call it an <i>investigation</i>, LOL), I've been
<a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10152169621824068&set=a.96825764067.86519.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">fixing flats tires for 12 dollars an hour</a> for the past 8 years. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No
shit. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I do it every day and it sucks the proverbial fucking ass. It's brutally physical
(imagine flipping over 400lb tires all day), hideously dirty,
incredibly dangerous labor (most of the work is on <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10152169621824068&set=a.96825764067.86519.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">huge tires forfork trucks and the like</a>). It's truly the bottom of the labor-pool
barrel; not as any slight against them cause I've found some of them
to be strangely stand-up guys … but the majority of the guys I work
side by side with are ex convicts (from murder to robbery to drugs,
you name it). It's the only job that these guys can get. And, for the
past 15 years, it's been the only job I can get as well.</span></div>
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<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I make daily attempts to manage my emotional reactions to the work because it really is something horrible to have to wake up looking at each and every Monday and the tendency to become angered or feel sorry for myself is, admittedly a real factor (I'm human). And in fact, in my better moments, I've actually managed to see the work as some sort of personal and challenging daily lesson in how best to manage my self and especially my emotional reactions to having to endure horrible things; being prone to self observation, being a person who is genuinely bugged when he observes his self acting and behaving idiotically or childishly, I've really at times found the work beneficial as a learning device and in regards to how best to manage my ever developing self. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All that sensitive shit said? </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">At 46 years of age, though in super fucking good physical shape (<a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151627032459068&set=a.96825764067.86519.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">yes, I can brag</a>) ... I genuinely have <i>very</i> real fear reactions every time some new task is given to me to complete because invariably it will involve tremendous physical labor, heat, sweating, tremendous physical labor, being covered in chemicals and grease, tremendous physical labor, constantly busted fingers and other body parts, and other, generally horrible things like tremendously physical labor. I am one of the only two guys at our company who can go out on "road calls" (the others don't have drivers licenses because they are either immigrants or ex-cons) ... and I swear, every time our fucking phone rings (it's broadcast on an external speaker) ... my heart leaps into my throat and adrenaline spurts in to my veins cause I know it's some Port of Houston facility calling to have me come out and do some god fucking awful, horrible thing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If a man fears his work, then he is obviously in the wrong line of work; this is something I repeat to myself constantly and as a mantra some particularly horrible days ... it doesn't help much but it at least keeps me constantly aware of the fact that I'm far better and more utilized as a human resource when employed doing the things I love. Meh... </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This current and horrific labor that I see to on a daily basis stands in such <i>utter</i> and <i>complete</i> contrast to the sort of work I was doing before that at times I can't help but feel I'm acting in some sort of cosmic, dark comedy of a play (and in fact, I know it to be the case that I <i>kind of really am</i>, but that's not for this blog post). In my previous and traditional profession as a design professional, me and my fellows would literally <i>fight </i>over who got to do any given task/project; it was that important and that fun to us. Hugely competitive and hugely rewarding. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Some funny shit is that if you look at
the “about” section on my <a href="https://www.facebook.com/TheGodsofVictory" target="_blank">ridiculous Facebook page</a>,
you'll see an employment listing that looks something like this:</span></div>
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<li><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>1995-1996</b> – Lead interface designer
for (insert some design firms name)</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>1996-1997</b> – Lead interface designer
for (insert Houston's only major newspaper's name)</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>1997-2000</b> - Assistant Vice President
to Treasury Solutions/Art Director/Lead Interface designer (insert
name of the largest bank on the planet)</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>2000-2001</b> – Art Director/Lead
Interface designer at (insert largest digital book repository/archive
on the planet)</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>2001-2002</b> – Art Director at (insert
major Houston software development company/Ad agency)</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>2002-2014</b> – Fixing flats for 12
dollars an hour; it sucks fucking ass</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Oh, I can laugh at that now, <i>thank god</i> …
but time was when it really hurt. And that above list is pretty much verbatim
from my <a href="https://www.facebook.com/TheGodsofVictory" target="_blank">stupid ass Facebook page</a>. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As a brief aside ... I hate Facebook. I just use
it to post filth, <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10152376909069068&set=a.441137314067.245978.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">pornography</a>, <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10152719620664068&set=a.10151720416224068.469136.564194067&type=1&theater" target="_blank">religiously blasphemous tirades</a> and
otherwise to try and piss my more family oriented friends off. I actually play
a sort of game to see how many people I can get to “friend” me
and then see how quickly I can get them to delete me. It's so fucking
fun and so I guess, in that regard, it has some worth. Oh yeah, as
weird as every one I know might find it … I post <a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10152082038469068&set=a.10151720416224068.469136.564194067&type=3&theater" target="_blank">lots of very serious stuff</a> about my ongoing effort around <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a> and my
ongoing attempt to publicly prove an investigation of myself has,
indeed, existed over the past 15+ years. I also publish lots of personal writing under <a href="https://www.facebook.com/TheGodsofVictory/notes" target="_blank">the notes section</a>.</span></div>
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been doing a bit of pro bono, free design work. Lately it's involved
doing book covers for a really cool, non profit, small press publisher called
Nostrovia!. They've published some of my poetry in the past (I
actually won a fucking writing contest!) and so, knowing my professional
background in design, they invited me to assist with some design work. The
covers are for digital books that are published in .PDF format and
ultimately are uploaded to online sites like Isssu.com, and I can't
even begin to describe how refreshing it has been to be involved with
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me with about 12 books at once and so with hugely limited
free/personal time, I've had to pretty much crank it out in “turbo
design” mode … the ideas/conceptual work isn't that deep because
of these time constraints but I get to use some personal photography
and have complete creative license in so far as how I might choose
to illustrate any given set of poems (they are published in what is
known in the writing scene as, “chapbooks.”). Further, I am doing
all page by page content presentation and layout, as well as a bit of
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I did everything you see here (except where noted/credited) ... layout, photography, typography, compositing, etc. The tools used are primarily Adobe Photoshop, Adobe Illustrator and Serif Page Plus (this last one, a really simple but very effective page layout program similar but far inferior to Adobe Indesign).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This is one of my favorites cause it involved the most production work. I shot the little bits of paper with my cel phone (believe it or not) and then composited the cover together in photoshop using layers of the poetry overlayed with various other blending/collage techniques. Turned out pretty cool. Reminds me of the color scheme/design approach used on the walls of a lot of the Starbucks coffee shop interiors, I've seen (LMFAO. I also include here a couple other shots from the same book showing how the content pages follow the theme set by the cover. The vintage porn photo is from a public domain photo repository of images over 100 years old, bit of trivia there ... :</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Here is another of the larger publications; it's obviously an Elvis themed bit of writing (check the poem on the content page; the girl is good). The Elvis image was found at a public domain, newspaper repository. I did the faux-halftone effect in Photoshop. Turned out nice. Burnt orange, in all it's variants, is my favorite color; I actually have to police myself or I'll use it in every project without even knowing it. Also included a content page below:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This is a pretty straightforward bit of cover work. I was pressed for time and so had to let a dominant photo carry the mood/message of the cover. The image of the building is something I randomly shot in downtown Houston many years ago. I found it in my closet and thought it went nice with the mood of the poems and so used it. I totally love that photo. So stark and direlect. Also included is a content page showing a photo illustration for one of the poems. The photo was sent to me by a photography friend of mine who lives in Holland. She shot it specifically for this project. I fucking love collaborating:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Finally, here's a logotype I did as something the publisher can begin using throughout it's published works and as a means of developing an readily identified brand. Following the first photo is an example of the various ways it has been presented throughout the various books:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The forces at work here, those that have been set against me over the past 14 years, at least in a <i>temporal</i>, <i>corporeal</i> regard ... are formidable (and <i>no</i>, local East Houston Law Enforcement Goons, I don't mean you, god bless you ... your just doing what nature made you to do .. and in a way, that's a really positive thing); but, this? This shit I'm dealing with? And you thinking that your dealing with me? This whole queer drama? It's something else entirely and it has it's beginnings in folk and forces way behind and above your own, admittedly, persistent stumbling. I mean no insult by that. It's simply true...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Compromising the idea of principle and truth for the sake of comfort, sex, monetary gain, a new car or job or anything else ... is simply not an option for me. I have no clue why this is. I had a fairly typical upbringing in a fairly typical middle class home. I attended public schools. I broke hearts and had my heart broke. I had sex by the age of 15. I got in to trouble and I redeemed myself, afterward. I made straight D's in High School. I made straight A's in college. Pretty normal as life courses go. But when faced with the prospect of accepting a bribe? And contrary to what 99.9% of my long standing and traditional so called friends would choose?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The irony is that I'm surrounded by persons who embody the precise opposite of this idea; many of them <i>are</i> and <i>have been</i> informants to the ongoing, and so called, "investigation" of myself over the years; and many of them are folks who I once thought of as friends (and who I now know to be simple, and oh-so malleable tools).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As for the powers set against me? The so called "social leaders" and "political figures" who wield their influence and power so abusively? Theirs will not be a lasting influence. And I personally believe that that very same power will perish with the flesh of those who are currently waving it about like some fat</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> brute with a stick. But that's just me waxing poetic and so who the fuck knows?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And this group I refer to above would be local religious whackos. The call themselves "christians" ... but I'll refer to the group, from here on out, as "Xtians" ... cause it's shorter, faster to type and I think the big X looks cool and is a literal "cross" metaphor of sorts. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Sure, there's a very real (and also nasty/deranged) group of so called "psychological professionals" who have been active participants in the ongoing investigation against me ... and in many ways, these people are more horrifying than the Xtian religious whackos because at a certain level, these so called, "professionals" in the psychological community have very real authority over ones life should one ever find oneself in a court of law regarding one's <i>supposed</i> behavior. And reprimanding me to some such court setting is precisely what the more ambitious organizers of the investigation against me have tried very hard to make happen over the past 1.5 decades.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But this post is about christian whackos, of which there are many here in the lovely bible-thumping South. And I am wholly repelled by their psychosis. I think their mythology is pretty cool though ... some great stories and lessons in there ... but it's the folks who believe it as fact that are particularly treacherous ... and trust me, I've seen great evil done by the hand of such religious lunatics. Long story short? They embody a philosophy, whether spoken aloud/owned or not, that says: "Great evil/harm can be done if a greater good is served." And what and how they come to believe as "greater good" is the scary part ... and it generally, in a most ironic fashion, has everything to do with buttressing their own selves and the religious systems they adhere to rather than being something truly necessary and good. A truly insane bunch.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Seems somewhere along the way, perhaps <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/03/simple-people-will-believe-things-simply.html" target="_blank">arising out of my father's social circles</a> that have been involved as informants to the investigation over the years, perhaps for some other reason, this sort of "fundamentalist" ... glazed eyed Xtian psycho became movers in the operations against me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I would guess it's because it's one of the most available very large groups of persons who could be easily persuaded in to organizing against a single other person who some "authority" such as the FBI or local police might quietly claim is a potential child molester, pedophile or other sort of sexual deviant ... cause if anything gets the psycho Xtian's worked up, it's sex. Not necessarily deviant sexual subjects such as predation, rape, pedophilia, incest or worse ... but just SEX, in and of itself, freaks these people out (which is a shame cause they'd probably benefit from having more of it). It's also a very large group of persons, who once organized, also wield considerable local resources in regards to time, money and a willingness to spend their days harassing a person they have been made to believe needs "saving." Oh, shudder...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway ... I'm going to write a whole lot more about this group of whack jobs in the near future, especially about <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">one particular such whacko</a> who has, literally, been <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">stalking me</a> for almost a decade and who, just this past Xmas sent me a fucking 8lb goddamn comparative study bible to my day job. </span></div>
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<br />Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-65759646793398621022014-01-03T18:55:00.001-06:002014-01-04T07:05:30.739-06:00Some dude trys to get me to mail him copyrighted material (even offering to PAY me for it) ... LOL ... <span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As mentioned in a very <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/09/criminality-and-mp3movie-downloads.html" target="_blank">recent and previous post</a>, I occasionally download MP3's from various online resources ... some times movies too. I mean, the sort you don't have to pay for. Read more about this statement, and in great detail (also, how it factors into the circumstances around jbhfile.com and why I have to publish such): <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/09/criminality-and-mp3movie-downloads.html" target="_blank"><b>Criminality and MP3/Movie downloads</b></a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As already written about, this is infrequent at best and is far out shadowed by my near daily purchase of the same sorts of media from Amazon, local brick and mortar shops and otherwise. But will, occasionally and on a whim, find something I'm interested in online, from torrent sites or any number of media-centric blogs, and just to check out and decide if I want to actually spend money on it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm talking about a guy who randomly private messaged me on <a href="http://head-fi.org/">Head-fi.org</a>, a very popular audiophile oriented web forum devoted to the discussion of high end headphone based audio gear. A forum I am a very long standing and somewhat prominent member of; I have thousands upon thousands of posts there and have been a daily, contributing member for over seven years now. My user name is <a href="http://www.head-fi.org/u/59852/s1rrah" target="_blank">"s1rrah"</a> (Harris backwards and with a numeral 1 for the "i")</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So this guy private messages me...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">He starts out with lots of lavish and flattering praise regarding <a href="http://www.head-fi.org/t/609965/review-mhdt-labs-stockholm-dac" target="_blank">certain hardware reviews</a> I've written there, <a href="http://www.head-fi.org/t/609965/review-mhdt-labs-stockholm-dac" target="_blank">and one in particular</a> ... a review done for MHDT Laboratories and their very excellent Stockholm Vacuum tube digital to analogue converter (DAC).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">We begin talking about this bit of equipment (I'm going to post the entire text of the dialogue once I get around to completing this blog post); at some point, I mention that I have about a 20,000 file collection of MP3s/FLACs that are on constant rotation (most of which are ripped from my own CD's thank you very much) and it doesn't take him any time to say something to the effect of:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><i>"Dude! You think if I mailed you a portable hard drive you could copy your entire collection over to it and mail it back to me!? I assure you, you will be well compensated for this!"</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Now I must admit, at the time of the original discourse, I was rather inebriated (Saturday Dec. 28/2013) and really just considered him a fellow music loving freak like myself and I said sure, though no compensation was necessary as I'm not in the business of peddling music; but it's true that me and my local friends trade CD's, share records/files all the time...pretty standard procedure as it is among most music listening humans, and my first inclination was to simply consider this more of the same.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>(the evening passes and Joel sobers up and begins to consider the night's previous dialogue)</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Immediately all the flags and bells and whistles start waving, ringing and blowing. I re read our dialogue and I notice a couple interesting things:</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The guy is overtly praising and flattering, as though (in a Psych 101 sort of way) attempting to "lubricate" my responses to upcoming questions by somehow filling me with pride or narcissistic self love of some sort. Or otherwise, to somehow manipulate my affections for him via such silly praise. <i>(er...thanks guy, but I know I'm a pretty decent writer already and I'm full of myself enough without the flattery)<br /></i></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Once I bring up having a pretty decently sized music collection, the guy immediately asks if he can mail me a portable drive and if I can mail it back.<br /></span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">On two separate occasions, the guy expressly mentions that he will <i>"pay"</i> me for this and that I will be well <i>"compensated."</i></span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Suffice it to say, I politely messaged him back that same following day saying that I didn't' feel it would be a good idea based simply on conscience and that I'd hate to either one, lose my civil liberties for taking part in something so blatantly illegal as such a mailing and even worse, perhaps, lose my good standing with the <a href="http://head-fi.org/">Head-fi.org</a> forum, where it is explicitly stated in the Terms of Service that:</span><br />
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<i>"The Head-Fi Web Site, Head-Fi Forums and any other Head-Fi user participatory areas shall be used for lawful purposes only. No material shall be posted on or transmitted through the Head-Fi Web Site, Head-Fi Forums and any other Head-Fi user participatory areas, which violates or infringes in any way upon the rights of others, which is unlawful, threatening, abusive, defamatory, invasive of privacy or publicity rights, vulgar, obscene, profane, indecent or otherwise objectionable, which encourages conduct that would constitute a criminal offense, gives rise to civil liability or otherwise violates any law."</i><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I am going to write more about this bit of correspondence but wanted to get something down on the blog as, at the very least, a statement of awareness and perhaps a placeholder for further writing as I'm certainly not in the habit of selling/peddling music to person's, friends or otherwise.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I think I made my friend Juan (an illegal immigrant who was just learning how to operate an MP3 player at the time) pay me 20 bucks to find him some AC/DC tracks once a good bit back; but that certainly wasn't me charging for the music as much as it was my time spent in trying to hunt it down for him (cause it's a pain in the fucking ass). LOL ... but that's the only single thing I can think of in my entire life that could even remotely be viewed as such.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it remains....</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it remains that I am very much aware that the persons behind the ongoing (and still non-officially-publicized "investigation" of myself are quite desperate to "get him!" (me) for something, <i>anything</i> and especially anything involving computers and/or the internet.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And this whole thing just reeked of a classic bait operation. Subtle, caught me on New Years weekend when I was quite happy with my drink at home, but still and especially in retrospect, it reeks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so I've given the guy the word that I'm not cool with it (and he's already said that he might be through Houston soon, as he "has relatives" here and that we could get together and copy it that way) ... LOL ... that's not gonna happen either, friend.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(more on this later and as I have time to write)</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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<br />Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-74468703037990697482013-10-26T09:56:00.001-05:002013-11-01T04:06:09.786-06:00Facebook, Females and Phone Numbers<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've been a member of Facebook for a few years now. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's fun to play around on and sort of stupid/inane at the same time ... but still a fun place to emote, be nonsensical and also, very much, try to offend folks (I love pissing off the Xtian people by posting all sorts of offensive and super blasphemous stuff about jesus; they are such an insecure lot as special interest groups go that I just can' help but fuck with them). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Many of my family friends are currently active on that social site, also other folks who I don't really know in "real life" but who, nonetheless, have made themselves known to me via my existing relationships with other family members and traditional, long term friends.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>(and BTW .. since a large part of my involvement with Facebook and other social media sites is to further propagate information regarding JBHFile.com and the circumstances therein, a large part of my Facebook page is kept public. Photos, notes, etc. are all public. So if your curious about the freak who authors this blog and JBHFile.com related information in general, then feel free to visit my stupid ass Facebook page:</i> </span><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b><a href="https://www.facebook.com/TheGodsofVictory" target="_blank">Joel's page on Facebook</a> )</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This post is sort of pre emptory as it's been known to me for some time, and against all logic or past indications of the same, that the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_nature.html" target="_blank">whackos running the investigation</a> against me have pined longingly over the years to some how cast me in a light that seems to indicate aberrations of behavior in regards to my relationships (real or imagined) with women.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Think classic and inane psychological profiles: an obsessive stalker, repressed sexually and prone to act out inappropriately towards objects of affection, showing uninvited and/or unwanted instances of attraction towards females who are obviously not appropriate (married women, much younger women, etc.). And always, these sorts of supposed aberrations of behavior would meet some pre requisite that also would need to cast me in a light that could be called exceptionally worrisome or potentially "escalating."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's really the most basic of TV sitcom psych-thriller tripe that the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html" target="_blank">idiots running the investigation</a> have attempted to align me with and I've written about such many times over the years, but of late, recent rumblings have prompted me to revisit.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Here's my Address and Social (and phone number)</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The following isn't the real point of this brief post but it is a good introduction to why this post is necessary...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A long time ago, at my day job, where I have it on countless and dependable authorities that friends of my father (many in law enforcement) have acted as ongoing and persistent informants/operatives in the investigation against me, ... a certain very attractive young hispanic lady either feigned or had an actual phone conversation wherein she quite loudly proclaimed her physical address, phone number and social security number (you can read about this long past incident, <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/05/heres-my-address-and-social.html" target="_blank"><b>here</b></a>). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">At that time, it raised my eye brows because of the previous mentioned points above, the truly psychotic wishlist of the investigators to force me in to some criminal slot of being potentially dangerous towards women (which is pretty hilarious considering my somewhat lengthy and really awesome past history of relationships over the past 30+ years) ... but also, because the time and place that the young woman so <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/05/heres-my-address-and-social.html" target="_blank">loudly voiced these facts</a> was just completely unusual: in a security guard office, with she and I the only persons inside, and me sitting only a few feet from her. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It just didn't add up and knowing what I know about the simpletons running the investigation and especially their simple goals involving myself ... I decided to write about it.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Facebook and Phone Numbers</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so ... similarly but not nearly as dramatic, another such instance has occurred recently and specifically in regards to my activity on Facebook...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'll be brief because one, this entire post is simply based on personal internal musings and not so much anything I know factually and two, because it's old and tired subject matter and it bores me to write about it (although, it's nonetheless important to do so).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A certain friend of my sisters, on Facebook ... who happens to also be an extremely attractive hispanic female, who I only know via Facebook (and my sister's real world relationship with her), recently ... and strangely, publicly listed her phone number on Facebook. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I found this strange, immediately ... not so much due to <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a> or myself .. but simply because really hot, 20 something female models (she's a model, btw) simply aren't in the habit of publicizing their phone numbers or otherwise personal information on public social forums ... I mean, unless they are just stupid as fuck and this young woman, I assure you is not stupid in the least.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Actually, she seems to be a rather intelligent chick. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Like I said, she's what most guys would consider painfully gorgeous, a model (think erotica/pin up) and also, she happens to be a pretty good friend of my sister. My sister, as well, has acted in a professional regard as this woman's make up artist and hair stylist, being involved in more than a few professional shoots and also, casually over the years.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Personally, I would very much like to link to some of their jointly produced work here in this blog post because it's really nice work and as young women, I am really proud of what both of them have managed to accomplish in that profession (modeling/photography/makeup/hair/etc.) but I certainly won't link to such as I'd rather not directly involve their efforts with my circumstances around jbhfile.com and I as well do not like referencing persons by name here or on jbhfile.com as it's simply proper public etiquette to not do so.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That said, recently this chick who I don't really know just randomly posted her phone number to Facebook with something to the effect of "feel free to text me," or the like. Which, to my mind and especially knowing what I know of the investigators ... throws a few internal checks...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And really, just to avoid regurgitating old ideas ... it's the same as it's ever been...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Cel phones are easily manipulated. Any number of methods could be used to send ellicit and/or inappropriate texts or even images to this young woman's phone and at the same time link it to my own personal number. Crazy sounding but true and it's easily done using wireless technology.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Although I'm not in the habit of sending questionable (or any) content to women of any age, it's nonetheless important to state these things here and publicly on the very slim chance that said information (this woman's phone number) might some day be used against me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Further, and although I don't send pictures of myself to other persons ... I have, on many occasions used my cel phone to take images of myself. I am, after all, about two years in to a rather intense physical training regimen and taking bathroom shots is occasionally par for the course in regards to noting monthly progress and the like. I've done this and will do this going forward. And this is stated as those photos could easily be intercepted by others (I've emailed them to myself for purposes of editing in photoshop) via various methods ... and too, about a year ago, a cel phone of mine was stolen and some of such regular content could have existed on that particular phone.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's a shame that I must go through an otherwise normal social landscape, having to consider these foul possibilities, but in the end, it is very true that I must.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>Regarding phones and texts (and images) </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've actually only used a cel phone for the past few years or so. Prior to the past few years, I felt the circumstances around jbhfile.com to be far to volatile and un predictable to even own a phone. But, over the past few years I've felt comfortable enough to own one and have even come to enjoy using it (a Samsung Note) as the alarm clock app is fucking awesome and it works great as a mobile hot spot. Otherwise, and just frankly, I hardly speak on it or text on it at all (other than for work). As an illustration, I have a 500 minute a month voice plan and typically use only about 15 minutes of that or less every month. Fucking funny; my rollover minutes are way up in the thousands upon thousands.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And I certainly don't have any regular conversations with chicks ... another unfortunate by product of being the subject of a politically driven smear campaign but one which I'm not too bothered by because hey, I've certainly had more than my share of fun over the years and prior to all this idiot-driven haranguing; and, as mentioned in the past, sex just isn't a priority ... (and there's always <a href="http://www.femjoy.com/" target="_blank">Femjoy</a>, should I feel the need for such plain, gratuitous, enjoyments and I'm perfectly capable of delivering them myself).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So to the woman who is mentioned in this past post, if you happen to ever read this ... sorry to have to discuss you in this light. I know I didn't mention a name but should you read this, I hope you understand that though strange seeming, in my situation, such public musings are highly important. Otherwise? Keep making killer stuff...your awesome!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>And just speaking of phones and "sexting"</b> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Of late I've personally been the recipient of certain phone transmissions sent <i>from</i> women and to myself, that could be said to be <b>VERY</b> sexually explicit (and honestly, a little creepy in so far as my own standards are concerned, although most other guys would find it rather welcome and have actually told me they can't believe I haven't "gotten with that!" already, etc.).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The particular texts/images that were sent to me were not invited by myself ... but were just sent randomly as the woman in particular, an old friend of mine who has always been fond of me, is vocally unhappy in her marriage and has been making quite obvious advances on me as (I suppose) a possible suitor, once her divorce is done.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This particular woman has actually sent me rather pornographic content ... videos and photos depicting herself in all manner of sexual activity from straight up dildo masturbation videos to a variety of random and sexually explicit photos of herself. As mentioned, I'm a bit repelled by this in regards to actually considering a relationship with such a person ... although, just plainly speaking and sexually, it's certainly not lost on me. But in so far as considering a real relationship (which I'm generally and most historically interested in)? Not so much...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Of course, I have never returned such sexually explicit shots of myself...though she's hinted at that...but even in my more drunken moments of revelry on the weekends, when our exchanges have generally taken place, I still was not inclined to even ponder such (creep city!). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I was really taken aback by all of it (the photos/videos, etc.) that she sent; and I suppose I might just be a tad naive regarding such things and that it might simply be a rather common occurrence among folks our age and of our mutual experience. She seemed rather amazed when I told her I'd never "sexted" or sent images of myself to a woman ... or that I hadn't "role played" or you name the other strange sort of sexual protocols that, apparently, some folks take part in and that I've only really heard about through books or movies. LOL ... maybe it's just stuff that people who have been married for nearly two decades find themselves seeking out ... I don't know, to "keep things interesting" or whatever ... but still, I've never exchanged racy photos or "role played" ... or a couple other things she mentioned (what the fuck is role playing, anyway?! <i>"You be the cowboy and I'll be the librarian?"</i> Or fucking what!? Seriously, me and my chicks have always just fucked like crazy and never really had to work to keep things interesting but that's another blog post...)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway, I've made it clear to her on a number of occasions that I'd appreciate her refraining from such in the future as she's married and it just sort of creeps me out and I also can't help but put myself in her husband's shoes (being a dude myself and all).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But in the light of the basic subject of this post, I thought it might be beneficial to speak briefly about this weird correspondence.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For the record, she hasn't sent me any more pornographic material ...</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Otherwise?</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Otherwise things are pretty peachy here in Houston, Texas. I've been working daily and also making fairly significant strides in my personal training (running/weight training). I really don't do much else (not counting movies and video games) and this is as it should be.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Oh yeah, my recently created and related <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">daily journal blog</a> is chugging along as you might expect, on quite the daily basis. ;-) ... I've about <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">seven months worth</a> of daily entries now and it's just freaky and boring as hell to go back and read the daily posts.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I always dreamed of living a simple, quiet life and other than the non-verbal haranguing I have to deal with daily and nightly around jbhfile.com and the idiots involved in such, other than having to author occasional and repetitive/redundant blog posts like this one, by all accounts and according to the past seven months chronicled in my <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">JBHFile.com/DAYs blog</a>, I have soundly achieved it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I am proud to say though, that in seven months, I have had at least two or three actual and physical social engagements with persons other than those that I work or live with ... which, though not that important to me, is sort of a relief to see when considering a seven month period of time.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's intriguing as hell as, in the first significant portion of my social existence this go round and in this life, up until about age 34 (when the jbhfile.com shit hit the fan) .. I was <a href="https://www.facebook.com/TheGodsofVictory/media_set?set=a.96836104067.86525.564194067&type=3" target="_blank">HUGELY social</a>, in coffee houses and bars daily, out nightly with friends at shows or their/our respective houses and in fact, some sort of random, physical/social engagement was generally a daily occurrence. I called several people every day just to say, "Hey, what are you doing" and they would call me too. There were always social plans, always something "coming up" ... always a new place to be and people to be around.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so I find it kind of cool to be so comfortable now, after 13 years of constant physical (and otherwise) assaults on my person ... calm in fact and quite naturally happy really, with just my own company for the most part. And it's downright queer (not unpleasantly so) to note that in nearly <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">7 months</a>, I've only had perhaps three actual social engagements with persons outside of those I work with or live with (all surfing related). Just queer as fuck, really ... and again, sort of neat. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And if anything,<a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"> keeping track of my days </a>over the past seven months has very much allowed me a window into this novel change in my adult life and it's also a good thing to <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">have on record</a> should the idiots running the investigation try once again to place me somewhere that I was not, or should they attempt to force a claim that I was doing something I did not or even should they attempt to say I made phone calls or sent texts that I never made or sent ... it's just a good thing ... so if your bored and want to read the daily life of a guy who does just about the very same thing, every single day of any given year, then <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/" target="_blank"><b>CHECK IT OUT HERE!!</b></a>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway, more weird later ...</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-86663901815541364252013-09-06T08:51:00.001-05:002013-09-06T12:14:09.068-05:00Criminality and MP3/Movie downloads<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A couple posts back <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/08/writing.html" target="_blank">I made a rather forward statement</a> that many of the actions of the investigators and directed towards me have been and are what <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/08/writing.html" target="_blank">I would call criminal</a>. And, in most cases, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html" target="_blank">violently criminal</a>. It's funny as that particular post has, in just the few days it's been published, rocketed way past any other post <i>ever</i> published on this blog in regards to page views. Which tells me that that the investigators are not only notoriously egotistical, but they are also, apparently, a bit sensitive.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But regarding that post and my comment of criminality...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">To covertly dose a supposed investigation subject <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html" target="_blank">with PCP</a> so you can then corral that person in to a living circumstance more conducive to the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html#1" target="_blank">peculiar desires of the investigators</a> is not only hugely violent but also, violently criminal.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">To covertly drug a supposed investigation subject with some sort of "date rape" type drug slipped into his drink at a bar, so that person will behave in a less than lucid or even downright psychotic way in public, specifically so that person can then be corralled into a circumstance more conducive to the peculiar desires of the investigators is not only violent but also, violently criminal.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">These sorts of very literal and violent assaults have been perpetrated upon my person on <i>countless</i> occasions, some occasions for which I've gained proof, most of which, I have not.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The extent of my own criminality</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As mentioned countless times, the investigators have stretched <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="_blank">this ongoing charade</a> out over a period of going on 13 years now. All the while making public claims that I partake in a laundry list of pretty severe, criminal behaviors, among them being: production of child pornography, viewing of child pornography, stalking underage women, that I'm possibly a molestee in danger of <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/a-cult-of-molestation.html" target="_blank">becoming a molester himself</a>, a home invader, a stalker of ex girlfriends with certain indications of <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_04.12.07_dialogue.shtml" target="_blank">possibly becoming violent</a> in the future, a rampant user of pharmaceutical drugs, a known and regular marijuana user, a notorious hacker and lastly, a person prone to severe bouts of memory loss wherein many of the above listed criminal activities might have taken place.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Really, it's quite outlandish the extent to which supposed "law enforcement" folk have gone in regards to falsely and forcibly defaming my name throughout just about all of my Houston social strata.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But the fact remains, the investigators are in a pickle as none of the above are true and yet they've spent 13 years, very effectively seeding entire communities and social strata with the notion that I am, indeed, partaking in such activities. And short of succeeding in some fictitious, criminal set up of myself (wrongful incrimination) around some or, <i>any</i> really, of the above? The only recourse, if they don't <i>force</i> any of the above circumstances on me, is for them to look really silly in the eyes of the communities that they have worked so hard to brain wash regarding my supposed proclivities.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Of course, the bottom line is that if any of that <i>were</i> true, they could have easily "moved" on me many years ago. I mean, I'd have to be some kind of genius criminal mastermind (think Lex Luthor) to be doing any of the above consistently enough to garner the attention of law enforcement and still not be able to be "brought in on charges" or even, suspicion. It's actually quite ridiculous.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The point here is to state publicly that I lead a rather crime free life as a citizen of Houston, Texas and here in the United States ... other than the very infrequent downloading of free MP3 music and/or the occasional MKV movie.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Occasional MP3 and movie downloading</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've mentioned in several past blog posts that I will <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/01/illegal-mp3-downloading.html" target="_blank">occasionally download MP3 music files and/or a movie</a> here and there and without paying for them. This is a rather common practice among internet users, nearly rampantly so, and compared to most of such users ... my activity in and around such things would be seen as minuscule at the very least (ie it happens, at most, infrequently).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I also spend a great deal of money purchasing the same sort of digital media; in many cases, the only reason I eventually purchased such content was the fact that I had first freely previewed it via some online resource or other. In fact, I and many others online consider it a great boon to be able to check out certain music or movies and decide if it's something I like or not and use this as a basis for ultimately purchasing (many artists, including this writer, believe this to be a positive thing too).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's true, I do this...not frequently but occasionally...once or twice every two months or so...and technically, legally, this could very much be defined as <i>criminal</i>. Violently criminal? No. Life threatening in the criminal way that covertly drugging a citizen with potentially lethal substances can be defined as such? Not even close. I would say MP3 downloading, comparatively speaking, is more akin to jay walking or pulling through the parking lot of a convenience store to get around a particularly traffic clogged intersection and the like (fairly non consequential but still, technically, criminal); while the covert drugging of a sovereign citizen with potentially lethal substances could possibly be defined as attempted murder or willful bodily injury or even attempted manslaughter.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But regarding the fact that I will occasionally download free MP3's or an .MKV encoded movie? I don't have a problem publiclyl admitting that and having said it, I'll continue to enjoy this unique benefit of online activity.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Just get him for *SOMETHING*</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But for the investigators, as they grow more and more desperate ... as they become more and more "reactionary" and vindictive, angered at the fact that I'm pretty much just a normal Joe(l) going about his day to day life under some pretty extensive and ongoing outwardly induced duress, it's certainly not beyond the scope of their insanity to attempt to use such trivial activities against me. I mean, somehow attempt to confront me around such activities as MP3 and/or movie downloading.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I in fact have it on direct communication from certain of the past <i>"numbered informants"</i> to the investigation that I remain in contact with that this is something that is <i>very much</i> on the list of possibilities (or at least compounding matters once some more worrisome and falsely contrived series of circumstances were created by the investigators).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">These mentioned contacts, persons who in the past acted as numbered informants to the investigation and who have long since bowed out for reasons of conscience are the very same persons who alerted me a few months back that the investigators wanted to <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/04/my-bedroom-is-target-maybe-well-see.html" target="_blank">stage a contrived burglary of my home</a> for the sole reason of removing my access to my computers and music equipment.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But suffice it to say, barring some more serious and <i>supposed</i> infraction on my part that would be used to introduce me to conversations around such (MP3 downloading), I can't see how this would transpire as, like I said, the practice is about as common in regards to online activity as is, say, drinking milk on a daily basis.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Six Strikes</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Internet service providers, in fact, monitor for such activity and will alert a user as to the illegality of said actions should those actions be detected by the provider.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In fact, there is now a rule in place stating that such service providers will actually warn a user of such infractions <i>up to six times</i> before ever taking any other action such as limiting said user's access to the internet or even contacting law enforcement authorities.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This measure,<a href="http://www.businessweek.com/articles/2013-02-27/should-you-fear-the-six-strikes-anti-piracy-rule" target="_blank"> the Six Strikes</a> Rule, should be indicative enough of how prevalent such online activity is as it's a fairly generous policy if you ask me and personally, I think it's appropriate.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I mean, you don't see any "Six Strikes" policy in regards to physical assaults (like covertly drugging someone) ... and you certainly don't see any "Six Strikes" rules around manslaughter cases or willful bodily injury cases (like using potentially lethal drugs in covert druggings of some person) and thank god for that cause who wants to give violent offenders six free tries to cease their obvious and compulsively harmful actions against their fellow citizen? Not I for certain, not I.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Like I said, I think the six strikes policy is a good one and very much so commensurate to the crime; to go locking up the random internet user, for downloading a record from Pirate Bay would just be insane.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But to warn such a user, up to six times even, is sort of commensurate to the deed (giving the rampant criminal downloader plenty of opportunity to cease and desist, if you ask me).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Myself?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've never received any warnings of transgressions. Like I said, my actions regarding the downloading of such media are minuscule at best when compared with most users who partake in such and so I'm sure such use never even raises any flags on the service providers side.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But that's the general scenario ... the service provider is the entity that generally polices such activities as compulsive downloading of copyrighted material and if things get frequent enough, they will either contact the user with up to six warnings (per infraction) and then, barring the fact that the warnings had no effect, might in fact contact law enforcement.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But law enforcement entities themselves?</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">They just don't make a habit of policing a user's internet usage in regards to such things; they would in fact, need a search warrant of sorts to even do this. And so, if such activities as occasional downloading of copyrighted music or movies ever <i>did</i> arise via communications between myself and law enforcement? <i>Then it would most certainly indicate that they were first, policing my internet usage for far different and I'm sure, quite more nefarious reasons.</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And as stated below, if such is the case ... and as I've been attempting to do for 13 years now, I'd very much like to know what those reasons for surveillance are and address them personally if at all possible.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Music and Movies</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All of the above said, I am quite proud to reiterate that I am a <i>very</i> frequent purchaser of digital media such as musical records and movies.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I have an extensive DVD collection, hundreds of CDs/records and am a daily user of Netflix, Aereo and Amazon's streaming movie service. Just last month alone, I purchased at least six movies via Amazon streaming (an incredibly affordable and effective resource, BTW). And, every month, I am purchasing more and more hard copy DVD's and musical CD's.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Just check my internet log files!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That was a joke as you really shouldn't have access to my internet log files, I mean, unless you have a warrant, in which case I'd be very interested in finding out and addressing why it was ever issued in the first place ... but I <i><b>did</b></i> just remind myself of an upcoming future post here at jbhfile.blogspot...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In the near future, just because I really have nothing to hide regarding internet usage, be it reading CNN, working on my various websites/concerns, reading overclock.net or head-fi.org or even the occasional MP3 download or Saturday night porn viewing (I'm a big <a href="http://www.femjoy.com/" target="_blank">FemJoy</a> fan, BTW super hot erotica) ... I will be finding <i>some</i> way to script a copy of my internet log files to a publicly available folder on the jbhfile.com FTP server ... just so anyone and everyone, especially law enforcement, will have an even easier way to surveil til their heart's content.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And besides, that's a bit challenging and I'd find it fun in a technical sense, to make it happen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Till next time, kiddies.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-51460590381504970572013-09-04T20:39:00.000-05:002013-09-04T20:50:20.395-05:00Feels like stealing<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">More on the writing front...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As I slowly fill content in to my <a href="http://leojharris.wordpress.com/" target="_blank">newly created writing blog</a>, I occasionally come across older bits of work written very early on in my awareness of being under investigation (and especially when I was experiencing some of the more violent assaults on my person that were/are related to the ongoing investigation discussed in <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/">www.jbhfile.com</a>).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This is one particular bit that I just recently dug up, written around 2002 or so, when I had not made much way <i>at all</i> into developing the coping mechanisms that would ultimately, and over the years, mature into some fairly respectable and necessary internal skills which, in a very literal sense, have saved my life and mind over the years.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I found it interesting to read; looking back on things like the following is both startling and heartening to me as it makes immediately clear where I was and of how far I've come...and that I must continue.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Feels like stealing</span><br /><i>by Joel Harris</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">To stand here</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">with the sun on my face,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">if but for this second,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">to feel good,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">momentarily even</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>(but a second!)</i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">is like running off</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">with what is not mine,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">a snatching by one</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">not deserving;</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">to stand here</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">with the sun on my face</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">feels like stealing.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">And yet I know that I am true.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Through the grossness</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">of it all, the heaving and</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">covert paralysis of the thing,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I am true and I have been.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">So if any pair of lips</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">should be afraid, or when lips</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">refuse the honest line,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">when honesty is simple archetype–</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">a handy shell,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">a husk to wrap around a time;</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">then my friend</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">you will know what</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">has set upon you.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">You will know that it will be</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">their turn then</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">to go and stare</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">into the calm lake,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">to think for some time</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">on treachery, malevolence and bile–</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">and for them, to know</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">the forthright and the forward,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">the direct line and</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">what it shamelessly</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">and always guarantees.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-------------------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-------------------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">jbh</span>.</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-58100315400863536622013-08-31T21:48:00.002-05:002013-08-31T21:48:09.754-05:00Writing.<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Circumstances around <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">JBHFILE.COM</a> are about the same as I've ever written; which is to say, things remains the same and I still fight every day and I still have as a mission to prove to my family that I have, indeed, been the subject of an investigation over the past 15+ years and that I'm not even <i>slightly</i> mentally ill at all (which is the favorite tactic employed by the investigators...that is, to convince my family and everybody else for that matter, that I'm somehow "nutzo" or schizo for claiming to be a subject of an investigation all these years.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">C'mon ya'll. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">You got a problem with a citizen? You've made accusations? Well the least you can do is let that citizen defend his self, right? I mean, just regarding principle and ideas and <i>"justice?" </i>... what could be more appropriate?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But I digress as it's not about me actually being anything criminal or nefarious ... it's all politics at this point ... and I happen to know this as fact but there's no way to communicate my knowledge to you (unless your strangely gifted, in which case you already know the truth) and so, again, I digress.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But this post has nothing to do with <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">Jbhfile.com</a>.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Rather, it has to do with <i>writing</i>. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Writing ... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The one thing that has quite literally kept me sane over the past 20 years and that I simply cannot stop doing. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Even if it had nothing to do with an idea. Even if the letters and the words they formed made no sense at all ... I'd still find myself soothed, calmed ... by the rapid motions of my fingers over a keyboard. It's very strange...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I remember taking a freshman college course in typing and how fascinated I was by "learning the home keys" when first beginning (I had never typed before) ... cause I knew that once I had really learned the <i>home keys</i>, once those keys and the motor reflex motions of my fingers knew those keys as muscle memory and especially, all the <i>surrounding </i>keys, then I'd be on to something.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I didn't know what it was at the time, but I knew it was important; I knew it was something I had to learn...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so I took that class and I stayed in it until my fingers new the home keys as a thing of muscle memory and until I stopped vocalizing every letter of a word and instead was vocalizing the word itself as I typed ... and then ... I dropped the class straight away ...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Cause even then, at age 19, I was doing so much writing/typing at home (on an <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/IBM_Personal_Computer_XT">IBM XT</a>, btw) that I knew I'd be a master within months and that the class, itself ... past teaching me the fundamentals ... was really sort of unnecessary. And so I dropped it. At that time, grades and schooling were a real big deal to me, and so it was not without much trepidation that I dropped the course ... but my logic was sound ... and so I dropped. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Then ... at home ... I became a master of typing. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And today, I'm generally tested at about 120 words per minute and with very few errors (unless I have a really bad hangover, in which case the numbers are horribly diminished) </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so I just wanted to post a bit of word about a little <a href="http://leojharris.wordpress.com/">Wordpress blog</a> that I've recently created wherein I will be attempting to post most of the notable (at least to my mind) bits of prose that I've uttered since 1994 or so. There's a <i>whole fucking lot of it</i> and most of it is totally unedited one off's and so it will be slow going getting it all published.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it's important to me cause all of such writing exists either on aging CD ROMs or other magnetic media (hard drives and the like) and I worry about losing it. The way I figure, WordPress (and Google and what not) have far better back up scenarios that I do here at home and so if I get it all on line ... then it might last longer.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So anyway ... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Here's a link to my new <a href="http://leojharris.wordpress.com/">WordPress writing blog.</a> </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's really refreshing in a sense as it has nothing at all to do with the comical law enforcement goons, or the Xtian whackos and otherwise who parade around after me like stooges every day here in Houston (really ya'll ... you look super fucking stupid ... both to me and every one else watching who really knows what's going on) ... like I said, why not just come on out of the closet with your purported "claims" regarding my supposed behaviors and let me address them and/or defend myself? Then we can all get on with our lives (you've taken 13 years out of mine, already) ... (and you'd better have some good reasons) ... but why not end the thing? The fact that you all are unwilling to do this simply makes you look more criminal. And trust me ... <i><b>lots</b></i> of folk are watching ... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway .. (I almost got vitriolic and ugly there) .. LOL ... my writing blog ... that's what I was writing about ... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Read it...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><a href="http://leojharris.wordpress.com/"><b>IN MADNESS THERE IS LOVE</b></a></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-------------------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-------------------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">jbh</span>.</span><br />
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<br />Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-14149608380996159252013-05-10T11:39:00.000-05:002013-05-10T11:39:19.703-05:00In case you were wondering...<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">what Joel does every day? Well he's here to tell you that if your so without a life that you find yourself actually reading this blog (or otherwise surveilling me?), then heres yet another, more mundane, more granular outlet available to you regarding all-things-Joel and all things <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a>.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's the little bit at the end of my las<a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/04/my-bedroom-is-target-maybe-well-see.html">t lengthy blog post</a> here that I briefly discussed, the bit near the end about beginning a daily and public accounting of the main highlights of any given day of my living, a daily journal if you will.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The point of this daily accounting is to simply have on record what I do, where I go, how I spend my time ... to demonstrate the things that are most important to me on a weekly basis; and, depending on your own personal circumstance and history, this might seem a bit odd since all this is on blogspot and is public ... but considering the fact that the persons behind the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/">ongoing investigation</a> of myself (which is more so a plain attempt to <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/mementotm.html">remove me from my current and long standing living arrangement</a> and work and preferred lifestyle and into one that more suits the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html">whims/desires</a> of the investigators.) </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And since the primary means of achieving this, on the part of the investigators, has been very real attempts to <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_setup.html">wrongfully incriminate</a> me and thereby force me into some sort of legal process which would bind me to a certain and unavoidable course through the legal system? That considered? I felt it beneficial (and admittedly, sort of fun) to create another blog, wholly dedicated to simply chronicling my ongoing days.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Regarding this new journal/blog, I've decided to call it "<a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/"><b>jbhfiledays.blogspot.com</b></a>," as it fits well with the other site names and it somewhat accurately describes the published content (ie / my days and how I spend them).</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As opposed to adding it to this existing and long standing (oft times long winded) blog, I decided to simply create a new blog with it's own blogspot domain and all as the postings come daily and are really just plain-speak overviews of what I did, where I went, who I saw ... etc. ... for every given day of my living.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So this is a simple little <b>"jbhPSA"</b> regarding the creation of that above discussed bit of daily accounting ... and hey, it's not always drudgery, some times I'll even <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/2013/04/041813.html">snap a glamour shot</a> (like the one of me in the mud and rain a few weeks back) and include it in the days entry so as to better punctuate the boredom with something visual.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And hey, pictures, daily accounting's facebook posts, whatever ... anything and <i>everything</i> is helpful when at any given turn one might find himself having to explain his whereabouts, demeanors or daily inclinations.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So far? I've rather enjoyed reading the entries to date (just a month and a half or so). I had no idea I worked out and ran so much. Shit man, this fitness shit could end up being an issue that I might have to work on in therapy for fuck sake.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And also, since I <i>purportedly</i> am afflicted by some sort of strange and possibly neurologically based propensity to <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/mementotm.html">memory impairment</a>? I mean, this according to the proverbial, "They(tm)." I'm also very relieved to see no entries that include activities such as home invasions, stalking of ex girlfriends, the doing of drugs or soliciting of prostitutes, hacking websites, stealing money from family members, driving around with various forms of contraband in the trunk of my car or otherwise anything sinister or that might cause me concern/trouble later in life.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No ... (so far anyway) ... nothing worrisome present... just a lot of work, a whole shit ton of physical training, some ale on various Saturdays and the occasional movie, sitcom or video game in the later hours of any given day.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Check it, yo:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><i><a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/">jbhFILEdays.blogspot.com</a></i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">-------------------------------------------------------</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">jbh</span>.</span><br />
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<br />Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-32433493962989303982013-04-18T17:21:00.001-05:002014-01-03T18:53:21.484-06:00I lead a charmed life...<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Yes. It's true. One can still find humor and fun in pretty much the most inhospitable work environment ever imagined. And so I did. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif; text-align: center;">04/18/13 ... at Seaboard Marine-Jacinto Port ... on the Houston Ship Channel ... $15 dollars an hour in all it's goddamn sweaty glory!! Shit man,... I didn't know my cel phone could take such good photos. Fucking freakish ... (well, I admit, Photoshop was involved, but just Levels/Resizing/Sharpening) ... </span><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikdS9HGrwMYJF45yWDUJp1EvXDri3QvSF-fllE5dHdV8qPF_jSNWGpBVlbJ07FZirXIXmw24J-wOcHhcKNUq_jAZF46lzXOj-ugGMeac2-TmqxbJLl9TOP2wno2iZ-FlTFywj1OcXXyJk/s1600/charmed.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="640" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikdS9HGrwMYJF45yWDUJp1EvXDri3QvSF-fllE5dHdV8qPF_jSNWGpBVlbJ07FZirXIXmw24J-wOcHhcKNUq_jAZF46lzXOj-ugGMeac2-TmqxbJLl9TOP2wno2iZ-FlTFywj1OcXXyJk/s640/charmed.jpg" width="480" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: xx-small; text-align: start;">04/18/13 ... at Seaboard Marine-Jacinto Port ... on the Houston Ship Channel ... making the big bucks!! Goddamn, didn't know my cel phone could take such good photos. Freaky...</span></td></tr>
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-80201993669842079122013-04-11T19:27:00.001-05:002013-04-12T18:24:25.190-05:00My Bedroom is a Target! (well, maybe, we'll see...) <br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As is my typical and historical wont, I
make it a habit to jot down thoughts here regarding anything that
occurs locally and in regards to my daily life that I might even
*think* as a stretch, may possibly be associated with my
circumstances described in jbhfile.com. And especially if involving mere hunches or even direct communications I have or receive which could
or may involve outright harm to my person or property.</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This will be one such jot...one such
public utterance which, though not necessarily being preventative
regarding some of my concerns related to myself and my property, will
still give me the opportunity to say, "I told you so!" if
indeed some event plays out as I'm about to describe. And, it will also seem quite coincidental if it actually occurs since I'm writing about it now and it hasn't happened in the sum total of 18 years that my roommates (and I for the past 8) have lived here (more on that idea, below).</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And always keep in mind with this blog,
though often times what I write comes on the heels of very direct
communication with certain confidants of mine who have, over the
years, kept me informed of certain possible actions against myself,
this is not one such. More so, it's simple arithmetic on my part,
simply the connecting of figurative and possible dots, if you will.
Though in truth, I've authored a <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2009/01/they-wanna-steal-your-gear-part-2.html">couple posts</a> in the past related to
the sort of subject matter I will discuss here, which, in at least
one case, were/was <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/09/they-wanna-steal-your-gear.html">based on actual communication</a> with certain of my
long standing confidants.</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Hit him where it hurts the most</span></b></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've written in the past that one of
the tactics the investigators have wanted to use against me, simply
to cause duress/trauma in my life, is <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/09/they-wanna-steal-your-gear.html">theft of personal property</a> that
could be said to be my most valued possessions...or at least the
items that mean the most to me in a personal, artistic and
recreational regard: a hand built, custom computer workstation (and
monitor) which cost me some five thousand dollars to personally and
painstakingly build and with which I craft <a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/s1rrah">my many home brew videos</a>
and <a href="http://archive.org/search.php?query=%22the%20gods%20of%20victory%22">music productions</a> that I've authored over the years; as well, my
room is full of thousands of dollars worth of high end headphone
listening equipment, amplifiers, DACS (digital to analogue
converters), Grado headphones, etc. And as I've written in the past,
these few personal items I have toiled, literally for years to
obtain, and which would also quite literally be irreplaceable if
lost, have been a simple, “Lets hit him where it hurts,” sort of
item others have desired to divest me of. All this simply to cause
personal duress, personal grief over much loved items being
compromised.</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Again, here just think typical <a href="http://classics.mit.edu/Tzu/artwar.html">"The Artof War"</a> type movements, wherein any and all actions against an
enemy that might cause emotional or physical trauma, anything that
could be called extremely demoralizing, is beneficial in an offensive
regard and in so far as beating that opponent down. And just as an afterthought and regarding that text (The Art of War)? It contains some highly profound and simple bits of tactic; I highly recommend reading it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b>Here is why I bring this old topic back
up...</b></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So today I arrive at work to find that
my father and brother's home (my brother lives with him) was
burglarized while we were at work yesterday (Wednesday 04/11/13).
This was immediately odd to me (and to them) due to the fact that the
burglars only took two <b><i>media </i>devices</b>, a large flat screen TV
in the living room and another large flat screen TV in my brothers
room. The odd part is that, during this entire invasion, the burglars
left the 10 or so shotguns and rifles that these two like to keep
laying about, completely unmolested. These guns are out in the open,
laying on the floor in the spare bedroom, leaning in the corners of
their own rooms, shotguns and a variety of rifles in absolute plain
view. Further, my brothers wallet, on the same bureau where his
stolen TV was sitting, full of his money and credit cards, was left
unmolested.</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Considering the fact that my father and
brothers home has no burglar alarm installed and that the neighbors
reported no knowledge of seeing anything amiss at the home, it's
completely unbelievable that said burglars, obviously having plenty of time to see to their business, would leave all of such
items untouched (especially the wallet).</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">So how does this throw my internal
switches?</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In the past, any time I have been
informed of some possible action against my person, there has always
been some event close to my family of similar nature, which I assume
was to plant the idea in their minds that <i>“such things can happen
anywhere and to anyone!”</i> You know, on the chance I argue foul
play, then some seed of normalcy, if you will, will have already been planted in
the minds of those close to me (this is somewhat of a classic tactic
of the investigators over the years, softening the minds of any few
close support persons I might have, especially family, so that any
ramblings of mine might be interpreted as <i>“just being crazy”</i>).</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For instance, in the past year or two,
in the weeks before I received word that the investigators and their
goons were conspiring to dose me into a publicly damning behavioral
display and then <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2012/04/allow-me-to-introduce-you-to-your-new.html">argue that it was due to fitness supplements</a>
combined with heat stroke, etc. (see the link) … my sister had just
weeks earlier explained to me how one of her close bar tending
friends had been recently hospitalized due to a brain
malfunction/aneurysm supposedly brought on by his use of, you guessed
it, fitness supplements. I heard this from my sister just a couple
weeks before certain confidants of mine informed me of the ploy that
was to be played out against me, also involving the supposed
influence of fitness supplements on my brain. This of course
positively reeked of this need to sew in the minds of those close to
me that such a thing <i>“happens all the time!”</i> … and that any
attempt to argue foul play on my part would be met with the expected
response of, <i>“well shoot, Joel! It just happened to a friend of
mine,”</i> … or, in regards to theft of my property? <i>“Hey, the same
thing just happened to us!”</i> ...</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It really is a pretty simple and
psychological/social bit of manipulation that could actually be
effective if playing out along the sort of lines I just described.</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And the fact that just two relatively
inexpensive items were stolen from my father's home, two items quite
easily replaced by a person of his income and savings, only makes me
<i>more</i> leery of this possibly being just such an attempt to
“plant seeds in the minds of the surrounding populace,” or
otherwise cast similar actions against myself in a light less likely
to be seen as an actual attempt to strike out against me,
specifically. I mean, especially if considering the known fact (at least by me and a few others who can't be named publicly) that many of
his long standing <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/03/simple-people-will-believe-things-simply.html">law enforcement friends</a> could be behind such
motions as they, of course, and even though having a hellbent desire
to completely demoralize me, would nonetheless not be too interested
in causing <i>him</i> any real and lasting hurt from the personal
invasion. And were my own personal media devices stolen in some
feigned natural event in the next few months or even more? It would
most certainly be a “real and lasting hurt,” as I simply would
not be able to replace them.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b>My personal gear</b></span></div>
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<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It should first be said that my housemates
have rented this three bedroom home for going on 18 years; further,
I myself have resided here with them for over 8 of those years. And,
in all of those combined 18 years? Not once has the home been
burglarized.</span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So on the chance some action targeting
my own personal property and equipment (or theirs) should occur in
the near future? I think it would seem quite coincidental that I
should have written this tract just months or even a year or more
before, considering the past near two decades being completely bereft of such events. Hell, it would almost be Nostradamus like if
you ask me, whether others would see it that way or not (which, they
most likely wouldn't but still...). Yes, even here, that was a lame
attempt at humor.</span></div>
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<table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUYT3cFNLIc7CyZrBvGOxxYEnMn0v-4xSf5HxsfdDQjcreYCSR5cz677cHp51hvTIDoUYae4iXVePjSpkV4dUJmFnOR9guF2qw8e_YoVQYtPal5BaBY2_Vgc6hH67Sn56_KLgpYCzjQDM/s1600/monitor.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUYT3cFNLIc7CyZrBvGOxxYEnMn0v-4xSf5HxsfdDQjcreYCSR5cz677cHp51hvTIDoUYae4iXVePjSpkV4dUJmFnOR9guF2qw8e_YoVQYtPal5BaBY2_Vgc6hH67Sn56_KLgpYCzjQDM/s400/monitor.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Samsung 850D / PLS "quad hd" 27" monitor and also a Ray Sam "Raptor" valve amp<br />
and a MHDT Labs "Stockholm" valve DAC (in the upper right, blue blinds<br />
hanging over the very vulnerable window looking out over our back yard.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
<br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But, the gear I discuss, that I'm now
concerned might be the target of some operation in the next month,
two months, three months or more? That I'm admittedly, a bit paranoid
about getting robbed?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Such gear is terribly important to me
and such gear, furthermore, has been awfully hard won, requiring
more than a several years, in total, to raise the money towards acquiring.</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All of the following resides in my
bedroom (which is really like my own little home). It should also be
said that though we have a decent home security system, my room has
<i>no motion sensors in it</i> (those are in the main living areas of the
home) and also, my room has a large, <i>highly vulnerable</i> window facing
out to our backyard fence (a window made even more vulnerable due to
the fact that I have a window AC unit installed).</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For the record, on the back of these
recent concerns, we are having a motion sensor installed in my room
and we are also taking out quality renters insurance... but more on
that below.<br /><br /><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRMNlZ42_8YC9VZZOK0wN9UGDm8jEBwJy5Nd31n10M_EensIBZyI9JTXt8eS1sfh4yTPBdgFI55dkAVJLkKtWAwvidrte859C3Gr_bj09xVUE-srnBUqh3XPhO6rf-gmEXwr14XF5-M5c/s1600/system.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="300" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjRMNlZ42_8YC9VZZOK0wN9UGDm8jEBwJy5Nd31n10M_EensIBZyI9JTXt8eS1sfh4yTPBdgFI55dkAVJLkKtWAwvidrte859C3Gr_bj09xVUE-srnBUqh3XPhO6rf-gmEXwr14XF5-M5c/s400/system.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">View of computer internals showing dual GTX 670 video cards, 16gig<br />
of Mushkin RAM, various installed storage drives, cooling gear and the like.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>
</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The computer system is the main item I
am concerned about: I use it for editing video, viewing Netflix,
watching blu rays, writing, publishing to my various online concerns,
gaming and such; it is a machine I personally built from scratch,
having bought every single component separately and constructing,
testing and troubleshooting the entire thing myself. It is <i>not</i>
an inexpensive machine. In total, considering the various </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">cooling </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">apparatus' (necessary because I overclock it), the </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">two</i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">
very expensive video cards (for use in a “SLI” configuration for
gaming performance) the CPU and especially the four or more hard
drives I have installed, the machine cost me approximately $5000.00 to build.
Furthermore, in regards to the most important use of this machine
(video/audio editing and gaming), I should not have to upgrade for at
least three more years from the date of this writing.</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've
been a computer geek since my teen years and can say it's the most
bad ass thing I've ever built; it would be crushing to lose it.<br /><br /><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto; text-align: center;"><tbody>
<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipJWZWL0w-FNbLAeWgjYQF-4OKPb5hgGr8rWWFWQSou47VU1OGR8SQhX-ph3N_2DZqIXIyhu5cbY9oX2AwPz9FzqtJ2OYwi9ndp9ZbiJd25KIfi9P7wM92JZaI2SksKuEBtU6nzmWS7yc/s1600/raptor.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="285" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipJWZWL0w-FNbLAeWgjYQF-4OKPb5hgGr8rWWFWQSou47VU1OGR8SQhX-ph3N_2DZqIXIyhu5cbY9oX2AwPz9FzqtJ2OYwi9ndp9ZbiJd25KIfi9P7wM92JZaI2SksKuEBtU6nzmWS7yc/s400/raptor.jpg" width="400" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Ray Samuels "Raptor" valve amplifier, Grado GS1000 headphones and<br />
a MHDT Labs Valve DAC<br />
<br /></td></tr>
</tbody></table>
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Further,
my most vulnerable of personal spaces contains on the order of
$4000.00 worth of high end, headphone listening equipment, including
certain headphones which cost upwards of $1000.00 as a single item.
Again, as with my beloved computer system, it would be devastating to
have these items yanked out my back window or otherwise, some time
in the next few months. And, as with the computer, and perhaps even
more so, these items, in sum, have taken me more than a few years to
obtain.</span></div>
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<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Humble
means</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I do
not make a great deal of money, grossing perhaps about $35,000 a year
total...and considering my other financial obligations, $10,000 worth
of personal equipment would be near impossible to replace, short of
the process taking a good half decade or otherwise having to borrow
the money, which I simply would not do.</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Further,
these are, literally, the only items I personally own and which I can
say would be hard to replace. </span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Everything else in my possession
combined, wouldn't even come close to equaling the dollar value of
this gear. My car? It is valued at far less than the equipment in my
home and were it stolen? My company would no doubt take care of
assisting me with the replacement as it's essential towards my being
able to work. And otherwise, I'm not a home owner, have no savings
(short of maybe a thousand bucks, at most, in the bank on a month to
month basis), no investments, no stocks, etc. I have nothing but the
equipment in my room; and, expecting to lead a fairly quiet future
life, not expecting or desiring to really do more than write (novels,
commentary, short stories, etc.) and expecting to continue my
interests in audio and video editing/capture? The equipment in my
room, granted, in so far as “worldly possessions” are concerned,
could be said to be about all that I've got. And, it would be a
terrible affront to have them violated as I now have become concerned
might be the case.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So
despite how this particular public declaration of concern might
sound? I feel compelled to express it. No matter what any person outside of myself might think of the writing? I still feel compelled to write it. Again, as mentioned, if only
for the very real likelihood that such an event (the theft of my
property) might seem <i>incredibly coincidental</i>
in light of this publication and especially considering that my housemates
and I have 18+ years behind us in this home with no such event <i>ever</i>
occurring; again, this particular blog post would almost seem
Nostradamus-like in it's accuracy and timing. Who knows? Perhaps if said equipment is lost, I can simply spend the rest of my days as a quiet and reclusive prophet of sorts? (oh, the humor) ... </span></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Further,
I have written in the past that it has been a <i>well known</i>
desire of those behind the so called “investigation” of myself
(which I have always referred to as more of an “assault” on myself) to use
such blatant and targeted theft of the very few things I own in this
life and which are therefore of paramount personal value to me as a
means of, quite literally, turning the emotional screws, of causing
simple and extreme emotional duress. You can read about such past
postings <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/09/they-wanna-steal-your-gear.html">HERE</a> … and also, <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2009/01/they-wanna-steal-your-gear-part-2.html">HERE</a>. And considering these person's have
in the past nearly caused my death with <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/02/following-text-is-copied-from-harm-to.html">violent PCP overdoses</a>
(covertly administered, read about it <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/02/following-text-is-copied-from-harm-to.html">here</a>) and have seemingly taken
great joy in very effectively ostracizing me from my career and every
traditional and long standing social support mechanism I had
developed here in the city up until around 1999? To simply smash a window
and take a guys prized possessions would be a mere drop in the
bucket of the offenses committed by the so called "investigators" thus far...</span></div>
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</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />
</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">What
I'm going to do going forward</span></b></div>
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</span></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In
light of these concerns, I've already discussed with my roommate (the
lease holder) about installing an additional motion sensor in my
personal room (since it's easily accessed from outside currently and
in a way that would not trip any of our existing three sensors
elsewhere in the home). This will be happening in the next week or
two; such is already in motion.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Further,
we are going to be taking out renters insurance in the next few weeks
so that any loss might, at least in part, be covered and so that some
semblance of recompense might occur (considering deductibles and the
like, this is generally about 50% of the loss but in so far as I'm
concerned, any thing would help); this as well, is already in process.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So
short of this being a personal public statement? It at least shows
that such concerns are simply real and worth considering to the
others I live with and that we have some what of a collaborative take
on the solving of these sorts of issues. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I
certainly did not discuss with them that my concerns are
investigation related (though they are aware of my near decades long
effort/fight and for all I know, might be regular readers of my blog) … but they do agree, in light of the strange events
at my father's residence, that it is something we should be better
prepared for.</span></div>
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Oh
yeah … Lastly ... my car</span></b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Lots
going on of late and I'll be posting a couple more articles this
month that also have to do with the compromising of personal spaces
(namely my car); it involves my personal vehicle and how it was in
the possession of certain social circles that are, at least by proxy,
associated with known informants to the investigation over the years.
And, how this could have resulted in any number of “modifications”
to said vehicle being made and, more likely, the simple copying of
keys to make later access to said vehicle a simple affair (for any
number of reasons, theft, planting of contraband, etc.). But that's
another somewhat lengthy bit and I'll save the details for an entire
post in and of itself...</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And
just for the record and somewhat associated with all of the above?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've
since decided (and vocally around those circles) to sell that same car and invest in something a
bit more secure and, just because I want to upgrade, a bit larger and
more capable in regards to things I like to do, like surfing and
driving through deep sand and carrying boards and the like (all of
which my little Sentra that was “with the enemy” a bit back, just
isn't too fit for in truth); I'm considering a Subaru Outback cause I think their sexy as all get out in their pure functional design.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This
vehicle upgrade will of course require me to save a bit of money over
the next six months, as well a sell my current car and if “the
enemy” really did make some modifications to my Sentra? If they
really did copy keys in hopes of using such to gain access to my
vehicle over the next few months or longer? Then diverting my
attention (and possibly my income) with a home invasion involving,
admittedly, personal items I'm far more fond of than my ugly little
car … could be a perceived (and simple) idea on the part of “the
enemy” to prevent me from getting rid of said vehicle; though, I'll get rid of it regardless of any theft of my personal property as replacing the vehicle is, by far, the more important concern.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But
that's just a gross hunch/thought, not necessarily attached to any
real circumstance and in that spirit, I'll be discussing it further
in a coming blog post.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Try to
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-61785647446626458262013-04-10T20:24:00.000-05:002013-04-10T20:24:40.783-05:00Fire from the gods ... <span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Something </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>every single one of you</b></i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> should seek out and read, that you should absorb and make a part of your selves. And, otherwise? Come to know ... </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Because it is true...</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I will say nothing more about it; and if you cannot understand the reading? Initially? Then perhaps in a couple years, a few hundred...perhaps a thousand or more? You will. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it remains true the same. Metaphor. Allegory ... the very reason we are so blessed as human beings... the reason we persist.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In short? It's about a thief, who, ironically enough, was bound by morality to thieve.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I am only the messenger:</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-69889446157586124522013-04-04T09:45:00.003-06:002013-04-10T20:25:27.057-05:00Journaling is Fun! And in this case, absolutely necessary...<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I live a fairly public life.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That said, I'm at the same time not much of the typical "socialite" or "party guy" and nor do I have many (currently, anyway) friends who I spend regular, daily time with, doing the sorts of things I most enjoy doing: surfing, writing, building computers, going to rock shows, working out/training/running, competing in computing benchmark competitions, overclocking computers, recording music, shooting video, studying politics and literature and the like; I do most of these things, at home or out in public, but most times by myself.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I also eat out at restaurants on a very regular basis as well (too much, actually cause I really like Sushi and it's expensive as fuck three nights a week) and again, 99.9% of this time is by myself (unless a book counts as company because I've always got one of those or my laptop). I'm also at the gym at least five days a week.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Similarly, and for the past 13 years or so, I don't date or seek out the affections of women I might fall smitten with (and, just being honest, I fall smitten near daily; I enjoy flirting just like most persons and I certainly do flirt, but in no way does it ever move beyond that); this has not always been the case as, prior to 1999/2000, when all this shit hit the fan, I was a rather regular guy in so far as relationships are concerned, having a few significantly important, long term relationships and quite a few of the "recreational" variety. I <i>am</i> approached by women occasionally and obvious affections towards me are made very well known (even outright, playful invitations) but I always digress from involvement; such things just can't coexist with my personal circumstances as they are. This is not a big deal, by the way as, like I said, I'm totally in love with my own company (happy narcissist and kind of proud of it) and sex...said plainly...is simply not a priority of mine as it seems to be with most other males I know (certain of my friends simply cannot comprehend that I was completely celibate for 12 years straight). I could write a whole blog post in regards to this topic of relations and sex and partnership but that's for later.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">1 can be the happiest number too, you know</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All of this is to say that I'm a regularly public and social person in so far as being seen out and about around my city, and that during these times, barring the very rare exception, I am always enjoying my own company, sans any other human accompaniment.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For the most part and firstly, this is because it's a natural state for me, being happy in my own skin, enjoying my own company. There's a reason why my long standing and traditional surfing friends and otherwise have referred to me as "solo Joelito" over the years. ;-) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Secondly, the circumstances I've been involved in over the past 13 years have somewhat required this of me as, most folks (my pre 1999/2000 and traditional social circles and the like), after hearing the sorts of things I'm supposedly involved in, or that I'm supposedly the subject of some investigation, have long since very adroitly distanced themselves from me. In fact, I have it on direct verbal confidence of others over the years that in some cases such old, traditional friends were directly approached and told to actually <i>cease</i> any interaction with me (by law enforcement spooks and the like) ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And it's all good...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I feel fortunate to have grown since childhood into an adult who predominantly enjoys being by his self as it's made circumstances that would be hugely bothersome to most persons, totally endurable and even enjoyable to my own queer nature; I'm in fact happiest when alone. My mind can roam free and I can move from interest to interest to interest without being encumbered by a wife, girlfriend, some family member, best bud and (thank god) any children who might be requiring my attention or otherwise insisting that I see to some <i>thing</i> other than <i>exactly</i> what I personally care to be doing at any given moment. It's quite liberating and indeed selfish (as is anyone's right to be); I enjoy this somewhat solitary living and, I aim to maintain this personal stance/situation for the remaining days of my life here, whether I'm ever successful in proving the ongoing attentions to myself and actions against my person are real or not.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That said...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Other than my housemates, whom I trust absolutely and who know <i>full well</i> of my circumstances around <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a> and whom I've lived with for well nigh 7 years (or more)? And other than my co-workers (mostly family members), most of which have been brainwashed by their <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#2">very real pals in federal</a> and local law enforcement into believing that all my ranting about an investigation and misdeeds done to my person over the years are simple (and so tragic!) manifestations of an ill mind? There just aren't many other associates of mine that could speak of my daily personality and/or character in regards to the regular, waking social life I engage in, nearly 17 hours a day, every day (which leaves about 7 hours, on a good night, for sleep).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But I should qualify here, I mean, regarding my immediate family; among my siblings, there has been no outright <i>denial</i> of me, or otherwise, no expression of disbelief. They are all approximate of my own age and have grown up in the same time as I; and so, admittedly, versus my parent's antiquated sort of thinking? My brother and my sisters have minds a bit more dexterously inclined to accept the <i>seemingly</i> fantastic (thank you Hollywood!). In fact, my sisters, and one in particular, were <i>essential</i>, early on, in helping me to get through some of the drama and harm that was being done to me and during the beginning moments of these things. And so, I do not generalize with that family bit, not in the least.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My parents though?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My father has certainly been coerced by his immediate and long standing East Houston social circles, even his fiance (as she's the mother of one of the Houston Police Department guys who has been active/involved in <i>"investigating"</i> me). My mom? Unfortunately, she's incapable of genuine rational thought as she's been so "flat lined" emotionally by her use of anti-depressants over the past 25+ years that she simply can't see beyond the Happy Haze(tm) created by such medication; any attempt to foster some sort of critical thought in her is generally smoothed over with a smile and a hug, like she's just casually patting the wrinkles out of a carpet or bed sheet (bless her heart). For instance, even after the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html#2">second time I was covertly dosed with PCP</a>, and as I tested myself in her presence, back in 2001 or so, with a pharmacy supplied "5 panel" urinalysis (at the prodding of a <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#4">certain friend</a>, bless him), even when said urinalysis showed a clear positive for PCP? Even then? She just smiled and patted me on the back, "Oh, that could be from all kinds of things," she said. I still have that 5 panel urinalysis card, too. Funny the things we hold on too, huh?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But other than these folk? My housemates, co workers and immediate family? There just aren't many persons (close, personal friends) to attest to my regular behaviors in public.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And, considering that the most prevalent and ongoing tactic model of those behind the investigation is to somehow, and legally, relegate me to a completely different living circumstance, a new home environment, a new job, possibly to a new state or city, even...and considering that the de facto and traditional method used as a means of realizing this goal has been (and <i>is</i>, since it's never been successful) to forcibly and wrongfully incriminate me around circumstances that involve questionable behavior and even more importantly, <i>supposed tendencies towards memory loss</i> and especially <i>sexually deviant</i> behavior? Then not having a typical close-knit, daily group of friends/confidants who spend significant amounts of time with me every day could, potentially, make arguing my way out of such a forced incrimination circumstance somewhat difficult.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so, in large part, this is why I write here on this blog somewhat regularly; it's a way of putting myself "out there," so to speak, of conversing in a manner that's recognizably intelligible and as a way of constantly making the public aware that, well, <i>I'm aware</i>.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">But a Daily Log Might Help</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As I will be writing about soon, my personal vehicle was recently in the possession of certain social groups that I have known to be working as active participants in the ongoing motions against me (<a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/03/simple-people-will-believe-things-simply.html">my father's East Houston social circles</a>); I'm going to author a short blog post about this as it should go on public record for sure, but in brief: I had some body-work done on my year 2000 Nissan Sentra which involved it being at a business associates (a body shop) of my father's for about a week. I initially protested this choice of repair shops but since our company was paying for it and since I just wanted to get it done, I eventually just went along with it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This of course being critical as any number of things could have occurred during that time. Any sort of manipulation of that personal space of mine (my car) could have occurred which, a week or even a year from now might in some way be beneficial to those <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_setup.html">wishing to manipulate my life</a>: keys could have been made to later gain entry and plant any sort of contrived evidence, surveillance equipment could have been installed, GPS devices, etc. All of that being quite outlandish and a bit of a stretch if taken out of context of<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/"> jbhfile.com</a> but knowing what I've been through already and to date? Knowing well what those behind the investigation <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/mementotm.html"><i>still</i> desire</a> in regards to manipulating my future? It's not outlandish at all...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But I'll write more about the car thing, later...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My point here is to further compound the fact that<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm.html"> these motions against my person</a> continue and that, unlike the normal, unconcerned citizen? I in fact must reserve some small percentage of my consciousness, daily, for continual concern, to be always aware, always a bit on guard if you will...or at the very least? All the time prepared to deal with the sorts of circumstances I know the investigators would like to manufacture in my life.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This isn't to say I'm "hyper-vigilant" (as your typical psychiatry-whore might lust after describing it), or that I'm obsessive or compulsively bothered by such knowledge, as I am not. It's simply to say that unlike most persons, I have things going on other than naturally rhythmic living, unconscious and frivolous play time, and a otherwise normal and unmolested working life. And so I have to take subtle, small but persistent measures here and there to compensate for this. The blog you are currently reading and my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a>, are perfect examples of this.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A daily, <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/"><i>public</i> journal</a>, for instance, is something I will be implementing very soon and in some way, it will be attached to each passing month visible in the right hand menu of this blog. This as a means of personally and very, very briefly chronicling the loose moments of each of my days and as time goes by.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For each month, it will most likely be a repeating entry, entitled something like, "Today" ... or otherwise, some simple descriptor. I'll simply edit the same entry each day, adding a new date header, with a very concise description of that days events <i>(woke 4am; gym till 7am; work and home by 4pm; home and crashed by 9pm ... etc.)</i>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Or, alternately (and this might work better as it won't so clutter this particular blog) ... I may form an entirely new blog dedicated to only those sorts of daily transcriptions... perhaps something entitled <a href="http://jbhfiledays.blogspot.com/">jbhfileDAYS.blogspot.com</a> ... hmmm, has a sort of ring to it, no? ;-)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This certainly won't be a diary but it will be a fairly precise, if brief accounting of the days events. I've done this sort of thing in the past (though not publicly) and in truth, it's sort of enjoyable to end a day in such a fashion as I get a fairly healthy overview of what I've done and as well, can think about where I might like to change/improve.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">But I won't be writing just for fun...</span></b><br />
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I'll be doing this for obvious reasons...but, it will not be for fun or recreation or because I just wanted to make something.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">No, there will be purpose (if but simple) in my daily accounting of actions.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so, pause with me now if you will, suspend disbelief, flip internal switches which relegate the function of such and consider for a moment a rather <b>fantastic scenario</b>:</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Say a month from now, I go to a restaurant and have a few drinks. Say I'm sitting at the restaurant one minute and the next minute I'm waking up in a holding cell of an incarceration facility, with no memory of the space between when I left the restaurant and when I woke in the holding cell. Say I'm then approached by some member of that facility I woke in who explains that I was apprehended by a beat cop while attempting to solicit sex from a prostitute and that my pants were around my ankles and that I'd even attempted to assault this person in some way? Imagine that I'm then told that a search of my vehicle revealed that I had several different types of controlled substances under the seat or in my trunk? Pharmaceuticals, heroine, PCP, cocaine? And that to make matters worse, questionable pornographic content was also found and some sort of feminine affects or artifacts that would need to be explained? And even more horrible (and this is actually a known desired ploy of the investigators but more on this in another blog post)? And even more effective in so far as casting me in a worrisome light? A light that would absolutely seem to indicate the "potential to do harm to himself or others"? Say a gun was also found in my vehicle?</span></i><br />
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<i>Now it should go without saying, I don't solicit sex from prostitutes and any person close to me over the years, especially family members, should be able to attest to my rather vocal disdain of men who are so impulsively driven as to actually (the idea is incomprehensible to me) pay for sex. I don't hold disdain for prostitutes, not by any means. I myself have prostituted my body, when very young and addicted to drugs and needing money (it was actually my girlfriend at the time, similarly troubled, who put me up to the act); the details, though known by several of my close friends are not important here. And so having some history in the world, knowing a bit of growing pains and pain in general, I certainly don't hold disdain for those ladies (or men, even) who might find it necessary to so sustain themselves.</i></span><br />
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<i>Similarly, I don't do drugs. Though I had a well known and publicly recognized cocaine addiction for about a year (that's all it took to do me in) as a 15/16 year old and though I actually did a little jail time for such shortly thereafter, I have never revisited said substance and nor will I ever. Nor do I partake of pharmaceuticals of any kind; I find such drugs completely abhorrent and frightening in their addictive qualities. I have at least one family member who does drugs and could even be said to be very much under the addictive control of such and I pity them, but I personally? I have a very firm and personal moral stance around such things and, not since around 15 years of age or so, have I or do I indulge in such. I drink alcohol somewhat regularly, perhaps one (some times two) days a week but generally at my home. I don't regularly smoke weed either and am certainly not in the habit of purchasing such.</i></span><br />
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<i>And I certainly don't drive around with a gun in my car and nor do I own one or even slightly feel compelled to have one; I simply have no interest in such things. But it's true that in so far as a fantastical and imagined scenario is concerned? One which has as an absolute objective the casting of an otherwise normal citizen in a worrisome light? Nothing would be quite so effective as drugging said person into a crazed and incomprehensible state and then feigning to have found that person with drugs and a gun in his car (just consider the current and outlandish political climate around such things currently and as I write).</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But continuing ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All of that was to simply (and not too expertly as I'm writing fast and don't really care much to edit) create an imagined scenario, one that, in light of what I've been involved in, is not hard for me to imagine playing out. Hard for you, as an outsider/reader but certainly not a stretch for my mind (which is fairly sound, BTW) ... ;-)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But should something resembling the above illustrated, false and fantastic sequence of events actually occur? What then would I do? What the fuck <i>could</i> I do? What would I say?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My only defense in such a situation would be to indicate my past 13 years of work around<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm.html"> jbhfile.com</a> and this blog. Also, the fact that I've documented my days well up until that point (via the implementation of a public journal I am discussing here), with at least a few family members and friends who could attest to the truth of my days and said documentation.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Of course, at that point, the obvious and cliche and expected argument would be some sort of mental illness on my part and that <i>"this fits all the classic profiles"</i> for text book schizophrenia and the like; it goes without saying (though I said it) that this would be the immediate rebuttal.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Hell, even if I said I had been drugged at the above imagined restaurant that <i>"someone must have slipped something in my drink,"</i> ... the organizers of the thing would claim that blood tests had been done and came back negative (or they were in the process of being done and would ultimately <i>come </i>back negative).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Again, this would be outlandish as a plain thought; but, as discussed many times, the political origins of this thing arise out of very real and legitimate <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#2">local and federal law enforcement entities</a> associated with my immediate family and to manipulate a drug screen wouldn't even begin to make a figurative dent in the resources these groups command. The results would come back negative (of course) and they'd simply argue that I'd had a violent and psychotic break brought on by the two or three drinks I might have had at the restaurant I was patronizing (two or three drinks consumed over about three hours, which is generally how long and how much I consume when I go out with my laptop to sit and write).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And of course, as mentioned, when and if I took it to the jbhfile.com or jbhfile.blogspot.com level, were I to indicate these works and point to them as a possible basis for my claims of the above scenario being manufactured? The proverbial "they" would again immediately argue some sort of mental illness as the basis' of my indications. And further, <i>ultimately</i>, the very writings themselves visible in jbhfile.com and here on this blog, would eventually be argued away by some tool of the pschotherapeutic/psychiatric community as a vast and elaborate imagining of mine, a <i>"manifestation of his psychosis,"</i> and that it is <i>"indicative of just how troubling his condition is."</i> And, I could even see an argument being made, in that light, that the immediate removal of such content from public availability would be <i>"the first, best and most effective means of setting Joel on a course to recovery."</i> Believe it. Shit man, I don't just make this shit up you know... ;-)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But in the end, <i>they</i> would be arguing that because I can't prove something, because I can't, in a matter of fact manner, demonstrate to others that such things have transpired? Or simply because those persons (several former and actual numbered informants to the investigation) <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#4">who have actually and personally confided in me</a> certain things related to the ongoing actions against myself cannot, for other very legal reasons, come forward and vocally back me in a civil suit, that this then gives them the right to cite <i>"mental illness;"</i> and that is simply not a claim of right that can be reasonably made.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But once in a legal setting? Once one such (as the above imagined) scenario plays out and once I am at the mercy of a court proceeding? Then no protestations on my part would matter as, though I for the most part hold our judicial system in a very high regard, though I feel it's practitioners (district attorneys, judges, and even a few lawyers) are doing an invaluable service to our system of democracy and our constitutional ideal, I nonetheless must admit that when the outright snake oil of popular psychiatry enters the proceedings? Then all bets are off as, unfortunately, the judicial system really <i>has</i> come to believe <a href="http://www.oldthinkernews.com/2011/01/how-education-psychology-and-cinema-should-destroy-free-will/">"that snow is black"</a> in regards to the claims made by the practitioners of that inane, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqaptRYjhq4">unscientific and self serving fraternity</a> (psychiatry). By the way? That "snow is black" reference, just above? It's a direct quote from one Bertrand Russell, whose philosophy I personally and completely despise. I think the man an imperialist dolt, and his public thinking echos that claim. Just a bit of trivia...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But that horrible and imagined situation/illustration above is just that, a terrible and awful pondering and it has not occurred and so I don't want to dwell on such things (though I just did, if but briefly and albeit, necessarily).</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And so all of that was to say this...</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Yet in the event some thing like that <i>does</i> play out?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I would at least have a somewhat intelligible and coherent decade long trail of writing and data to point to. I would at least have housemates and co workers who could testify to my otherwise normal social behaviors before finding myself in such an out of character circumstance as illustrated above. And, I would at least have a daily log of my general daily actions...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'll be implementing just such a daily log in the next few days.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I apologize to any of you who have signed up for the email alerts as changes are made here as you'll be getting them daily; you could simply unsubscribe if it gets bothersome. But then again, the more I think about it, the more it seems appropriate to form a completely secondary and separate blog to handle such daily, brief descriptions as the course of this one is somewhat set at this point.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Updates to come...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Yours in the strange and unbelievable,</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span></span><br />
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<br />Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-71734679744574401332013-03-03T11:42:00.001-06:002013-04-10T20:25:50.191-05:00Simple people will believe things simply<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Pretty much the only place I get fucked with regarding the ongoing idiocy made public at <a href="http://jbhfile.com/">jbhfile.com</a> is at my family business,...my daily work.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This is mostly because I really don't do anything else: I hardly ever go out to bars or "out," or otherwise; I get up around 4am and work out at the gym two days a week; I run another 3 days a week on my lunch breaks from said above mentioned job and I go straight home after work and either play Skyrim for an hour or two (mad fun) or watch a movie or some TV show on Netflix (I'm a huge fan of the sitcom "Medium," by the way cause I have a crush on Patricia Arquette and fancy myself occasionally psychic as well ... and plus, it's pretty damn good TV.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But I just don't do much; my life over the past 13 years and the circumstances around the ongoing actions against me have required this of me and for the record, I kind of dig it as, I've always, even since childhood, been a recluse of sorts...vastly preferring my own company (writing, reading, building things, making music, listening to valve amps) over most regular and so called "normal" social circumstances, and/or the company of others.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But anyway, work is where most of the local <i>goon squad</i> from the areas Sheriff department and occasionally Police department, have been staking out their little operations against me; these operations <i>operating</i>, supposedly, under the notion that I take part in a laundry list of purported criminal activities ranging from <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html#7">pedophilia</a>, trafficking in controlled substances, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html#4">hacking computers</a>, stealing my fathers bank account information <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html#3">to sign up for online porn services</a> and other supposed <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_03.06.07_dialogue.shtml">major and fraudulent purchases</a>, stalking underage women, thieving folks property from cars we work on and even <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html#5">ATM stings</a> have occurred, of the sort where a person just before me leaves their account open (think <i>"Would you like to make another transaction"</i> type stuff). Follow those links if you want to read the sundry details...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And just regarding that area of Houston that my father's company resides in...East Houston? The "industrial district," which is comprised mostly of vast chemical refinery installations, shipping and port facilities, steel mills, machine shops and a whole fuck of a lot of BBQ joints?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'm not a part of that community, I mean that area of Houston...short of working at my father's company; it is not a traditional haunt of mine. I did not grow up there, go to school there or otherwise have any relations with people there growing up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it <i>is</i>, historically, that area where the most ugly and violent actions against me have occurred (druggings and planted evidence and these sorts of things) and where the vast majority of any ongoing actions against my person (<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html">to this end</a>) are still, occasionally played out.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This all began back in early 2000 when I had a very <i>real</i> nervous breakdown surrounding these events and when I actually had to live with my father for a year or so simply to make it through life at that time; this is when the "good old boy" networks, comprised of community watch groups and local Sherrif/law enforcement goons began planning the myriad of varied and somewhat violent set-up attempts that have occurred and that may still occur.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My suspicion as to why this area (East Houston) has become the literal hub of most of the actions against me is that in order to actually remove me from my current home, in order to slot me in to some court mandated process taking months or even years to see too, would be to turn a significant family member against me in a legally binding way, someone whom, should I fall under some supposed duress, would be looked to in a decision making regard and to <i>"get the proverbial ball rolling,"</i> as they say; traditionally, this has been my father who, of course knows <i>nothing</i> about the investigation against me but who <i>could</i> be coerced in a legal regard to become a decision maker <i>for</i> me should any number of heinous acts against me play out.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Divide and conquer</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And regarding my father not being aware of the investigation? Even though just about every one of his very close personal friends in law enforcement are or have been involved (from the Constables office, to the Sheriff's office, to the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#top">Police Dept.</a> and even, early on, a certain person in the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#top">Federal Secret Service</a>)?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's fairly easy to understand why he hasn't ever been approached: because to do so would immediately and neatly destroy the very real idea that has been constructed in his mind that I am paranoid schizophrenic, a mental case and in need of medication, treatment, possible committal...simply because I have claimed, over the years, that I've been a person of interest in an investigation.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This notion of my being somehow mentally ill, schizophrenic or otherwise, has been a central and primary thread to the organizers of the investigation ever since I first became aware of things being amiss, some time back in 1999 and solely for the ongoing purposes of discrediting my efforts.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Crazy, <i>unstable</i>, cuckoo ... that I'm just <i>imagining</i> all this wild stuff I write so much about and that has generated so much very real and well documented legal work and effort <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/legal_foipa.html#1">between myself, the FBI and the US Department of Justice</a>:</span><br />
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<i>Me</i>, the guy who ran a computer hacking bulletin board service for more than a few years, with several personal friends/members who ended up on the Houston newspaper front page, face down in the grass, busted for attempting to counterfeit Treasury Notes (1990 or so)...<i>me</i>, the guy who had to go to court and fight the FDIC to retain my rights to work at the largest bank on the planet and won...<i>me</i>, the guy who, for the past 8 years, has worked closely and who shares a home with, members of one of the largest and most well organized political intelligence organizations on the planet ... called <i>crazy</i> for claiming (and not desisting in said claims) that I'm the subject of not only a <i>so called</i> investigation, but also the target of a very violent and ongoing harassment operation that's not only ruined my career, my (former) social strata, defamed my name and reputation and that has, on occasion, nearly killed me via drug overdoses (<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_druggings.html">PCP, btw</a>) over the years; yeah...right, that sounds really outlandish and far fetched, huh?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Not really...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As I've <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_03.31.07_dialogue.shtml">said in the past</a> ... just because a person claims that events are happening in his/her life that he or she cannot prove to others in some concrete and verifiable way are actually happening, does not give anyone the right or reason to call that person mentally ill, crazy, schizophrenic or otherwise. It's an unbeatable proof, that. Just try me....</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The incredibly unbounded, so called "science" that is modern day psychiatry is exceptionally impressive if for no other reason than it's knack for incorporating any circumstance, whether real or imagined, within it's figurative arms as the manifestations of some horrible and mysterious aberration of the brain. Hey, backed by 25 years of statistical data, after all, who could argue with that? It's one of the greatest "sleight of hand" tricks ever pulled on popular society, these stooges and their so called "science" ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But this is going over <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_03.31.07_dialogue.shtml">very old ground</a> and so I digress...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As I've written, a good while ago I drafted legally binding Power of Attorney documents removing any rights from my parents to make decisions for me in a time of personal duress; however, this was some time ago and I believe such documents must be revisited/redrafted on occasion, but I'm not sure. Anyway, I'm not interested in getting all legal and shit again as it's troubling and stressful and I prefer to simply write as I know I have a bit of an audience at this point and writing is indeed a powerful tool when operating from a basis of truth.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But the fact remains, the idea in the minds of the "investigators" would be to somehow manipulate/place decision making power into another person's hands regarding my future because, of course, were I to make decisions for myself? Were some criminal set up/incrimination play actually succeed? I would just do the time instead of go along with any far flung <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html#2">psycho therapeutic trickery</a> (which is the end all goal, trust me, cause despite what the local East Houston goons think, the <i>real</i> players have nothing at all to do with East Houston and much more to do with Inner Loop Houston...big fucking <b>:-)</b> right there. Never mind the East end pawns that actually do the dirty work, the real originators of the motions against me? The one's who set it in play some 14 or more years ago? They could care less about any given set up attempt against me or how it plays out or who makes it happen ... just so long as it ultimately gets them their journal article or notoriety or whatever other ego-driven <i>boner</i> they have popped regarding me and my person and how I can benefit them.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But my Father's place...</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's a family business; it has it's benefits and I do not take these for granted and am grateful for such: I drive what could basically be called a company car (I didn't have to pay for it); my fuel is predominately 100% payed for; I can get loans whenever I need them (I think I owe him/the company a total of about $2000.00 dollars currently, which, pretty much being the sum total of my Debt in Life(tm), isn't too shabby for a 45 year old male; I've never once payed for a set of new tires for <i>any</i> of my vehicles. I similarly, have never payed for oil or oil filters. These sorts of things, which viewed in retrospect and over the years (whether I was working there or not) add up to some fairly valuable perks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But it's true that should any given assault upon my persons play out, the first thing that will likely happen (in the interest of removing me from my current living conditions) is some contrived set of events to make me appear as though I've somehow defrauded the company or otherwise, something to so create worry/concern in my father's mind that when it came down to a Judge saying, <i>"Mr. Harris, these things are worrisome but we'd vastly prefer Joel follow some other path than the typical jail time and because the other concerns that arose when we searched his premises are even more psychologically bothersome and because it's safe to say that Joel cannot reason/make decisions for himself, we first wanted to council with you on the possibility of signing this declaration of incompetency so that we can get him the help he so obviously needs." </i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Fucking believe it. Even though I'm sane, generally happy in life, take excellent physical care of myself and am civil, conversant and visibly intelligent in a daily social sense...the above illustrated sort of thing really <i>is</i> the desired end-game scenario in the minds of the whackos from whence all this shite arises. So of course, some sort of worrisome theft from the company (or even customers, could possibly come in to play as a possible springboard into the above).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But regarding supposed fraud?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It just hasn't happened.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It is true, however that I will occasionally use the company Amex for Walmart shopping runs (toothpaste and the like, things I never really report as it's pretty non consequential and I consider it an unspoken perk of occasionally having the company card...and yes, ... similarly, occasional lunches and the like with the same card...something myself and other family members enjoy. Hell, just this week, while ordering replacement ink cartridges for the company printers, I also included an order for replacements for my home printer.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I don't sweat this stuff; I have no problem discussing it publicly and do so on occasion with other workers but I don't make an effort to turn in receipts most times (though I do on occasion) and the sum total of such things would be well under the range of $200.00 in total (and yeah, I of course still <i>retain</i> receipts as if it <i>did</i> come up, I'd simply pay them). Duh.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Similarly, I will occasionally pocket the 10 or 25 dollars made on used tire sales when running the company alone some weekends, another thing I speak openly about with both my Father and others I work with as, this is something my Father tells me to do on random, infrequent occasions himself; I honestly think he would have no problem with such things if I actually needed the cash and it wasn't something like a 500.00 set of tires or something (which simply does not happen).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But what the good old boy network (many of them his lifelong friends) would interpret these things as, would be something described as <i>"ripping off your father,"</i> or worse ... that last phrase being used on more than one occasion and to my face by more than one of his associates. Generally, my reply and in the presence of my father, is something to the affect of, "Hell yeah...every time he goes out of town and leaves me to run things." ... But what the "investigators" would spin is something far worse and what that could/might be, I can only imagine, but it remains so.</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Surveillance...</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As written of, on several occasions in the past, I also have it on direct confidence of others, some even previous "numbered informants" to the investigation that my father's company is predominantly the only area of my life where daily audio (and potentially video) surveillance data is gathered.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In the past, there have been <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_12.10.06_dialogue.shtml">other areas such as previous residences</a> where surveillance has been gathered and I happen to know the exact nature of some of this data as well, but currently (and for some time) it is just my current daily work environment at my father's company that such data is gathered.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My current household is free of such surveillance, though I think they relish the idea of getting something in here/there...but as mentioned, I live with and have worked with members of a political group who, quite frankly, are pretty damn good at getting to the truth of things and such devices would most likely be quite quickly ferreted out if installed (the ULTIMATE blog post, that!). And, just for the record, I could care less if they <i>were </i>installed as I don't have anything to hide from prying eyes...no bodies in my basement, no children manacled as sex slaves to the walls of hidden, secret torture chamber rooms...no huge or not so stash of women's clothes that I like to wear on alternate Saturdays or that I might have stolen while breaking in to some old friends home (<i>really</i>, you simple fucks?) ... or anything else I'd have a problem with folks viewing</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As an aside, though ... Saturday nights <i>are</i> my absolute designated <a href="http://www.femjoy.com/">Internet Porn Nights(tm)</a> and that ain't no fucking crime you fucks...besides, when one is forced to be celibate for 13 years straight (true story, with a slight blip/lay a couple years ago)...one becomes <i>hugely</i> grateful for such outlets; so plant your cameras already!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But there <i>is</i> daily surveillance at my Father's company, my day job, and I hope that someday it is used publicly as I've taken great pains over the past few years to intentionally and quite dramatically create all sorts of seedy, worrisome and hugely violent (but obviously posed) verbal content to quite literally fuck with the listeners on the other end. Oh, you know ... talking about barbecuing little children, how I prefer sex with 6 year olds cause they are "fresh and hairless" (I actually said that one right in front of my Father and one of his confederate buddies, with a wink, mind you) ... or, how I "can't wait till my nieces friends turn 18 so I can legally fuck the shit out of them" (another exact quote) and on and on; hard stuff to say, even with purpose, but I have a purpose and I know they are getting it so I continue.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This blatant taunting of the surveillance crew? I don't know how to describe it, really.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Somehow, knowing you are a <i>victim</i> of an ongoing <i>crime</i>, knowing you are up against horrible odds with only a few (but powerful) allies, and knowing that, in a very real sense, you and the data being gathered about you could be viewed as "an ongoing, 24 Hour, live snuff film that the sadists get to enjoy" ... I don't know, having the ability to, in some way, speak directly to there faces, even if only via surveillance feed? And specifically in dramatic and posed ways that are quite obviously designed to taunt and very much make fun of the claims they have made about me? It yields an incredible and genuine sense of personal satisfaction.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And besides, as the person who the above quote is from has once, also been known to say:</span><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"<span style="background-color: white;">They just do not seem to understand that if they reveal anything they know about your private conversations in your home (or workplace) they cannot call you crazy. It would be like entering the FBI tapes of Martin Luther King saying the FBI was out to get him as evidence that he was paranoid.</span>"</span></i><br />
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<i> --Allen L. Barker, from his <b>very</b> excellent essay, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/Part_III_Mental_Firewalls.htm">Mental Firewalls</a></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So, as written before, I really go off on occasion. Mad made up tirades ... just for the surveillance crew,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And really .. speaking to you all? I just *DARE* you to find some reason to use it publicly.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">C'mon ... I'll tell the truth... can't you?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Simple fucks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway ... I am getting random and a bit vitriolic ... which is bad ... and it also means I should stop. And so I will ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Sleep well.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Fuck faces.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">;-)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(humor? remember that?)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span></span><br />
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<!------><!------><!------>Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-57196699322870177772013-01-24T18:46:00.001-06:002015-12-24T17:31:41.886-05:00Memento(tm)<p><a name="3"></a></p>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This is somewhat of a re post. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I got the title and was reminded of the subject matter as we recently rented the very excellent film, "Memento" here at my household; the film, of course, being about the dude who has some real issues with memory and ultimately starts tattooing shit all over his body in an attempt to remember; I thought it fitting as a title.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I'll primarily be copying material from previous blogs, as I've written about the subject of memory loss on many, many occasions; not that I suffer from it, necessarily but only because it's been known to me from the very beginnings of the so called "investigation" against me that one of the main tools used by those who have made <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html" target="_blank">very literal set up attempts</a> against me is the <i>manufactured</i> appearance of my having some sort of <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_rumors.html#3" target="_blank">memory dysfunction</a>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This would be accomplished, explicitly, by first incriminating me around circumstances that appear to indicate memory loss, then searching my premises and finding some "memento" if you will...property I couldn't explain, most likely a woman or child's effect of some sort as this would be the most cliche and immediate way to indicate concern of any given numbers of potentially worrisome subjects (think women's panties, a child's toy or some other thing that would seem rather strange when found in my closet or under my bed). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's hilarious to read that, even for me, but knowing those behind the ongoing efforts against me very well, it's actually quite a serious statement.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Due to the recent Holiday season and the fact that I was out and about partying here and there...this is even more important.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Before I get in to regurgitating old writings that are still pertinent today (I'll probably just link to them)...I'll first discuss a certain recent event that bears mentioning.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>Folks Property at Work</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I work in a generally very public environment, a family owned tire company. I deal with peoples personal property, mostly vehicles, on a daily and regular basis. I got over any apprehension about doing these things many many years ago but it still crosses my mind.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It's also important to note that it's my father's friends (totally unbeknownst to him) who have acted as informants and very active participants in the investigation over the years; some of them have even confided in me these things directly. Across the board, especially early on, they worked very hard to foster in him the idea that <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_03.31.07_dialogue.shtml" target="_blank">I was paranoid schizophrenic</a> (though in my mid 30's and never exhibiting any signs of such) and also, even at one point were pushing him to have me committed as a ward of the state (which resulted in my drafting Power of Attorney documents to take away any (emegency based) immediate decision making rights from my parents).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Further, several of these friends are regular and active duty members of the Houston Police Department; more importantly though as I know this group to be the most active and current participants, the Houston Sheriff's department.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Funny story? The Sheriff Dept. is the one who had a <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_03.18.07_dialogue.shtml" target="_blank">C.A.R.E. sign</a> installed across our property <i>many</i> years ago and before I got a complete handle on what was going on around me; for your information, C.A.R.E. stands for<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_03.18.07_dialogue.shtml" target="_blank"> "Child Adult Restraint Education."</a> Creepy, huh? I thought so too. This was many years ago, maybe 2002 or so, that the sign was installed, literally, directly across from my work; and, for the life of me I've never been able to discover proof that this supposed "recovery" program for pedophiles even ever existed. Nobody at the Houston Sheriff Dept. seemed to know anything about it (as I checked in to it at the time) but the sign was there for quite some time, nonetheless. Maybe they just couldn't find enough offenders and so it never took off? Like a bad movie or something? I'm not sure...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Anyway, regarding folks property at work and the possibility that it might be used in some action against me in the near or distant future...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>Here's a very recent example...</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Just yesterday I had to work on a woman's Nissan Frontier...something about her spare tire not working correctly or otherwise having a flat or something. She was in her 30's, very attractive and had her little girl with her. In fact, she is the wife of one of these above <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#2" target="_blank">mentioned family friends</a> who are active patrol duty members of the Houston Police Dept. I highly doubt that it was incrimination related but I like to cover bases and so I write about it...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This was the same cop/wife duo, who a bit back, were leaving all sorts of high powered body building "N.O.S." style supplements for me and my brother to sample ... round about the exact same time that I discovered that "they" (the investigators) were going to try for some idiotic hat trick where I was <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2012/04/allow-me-to-introduce-you-to-your-new.html" target="_blank">made to appear psychotic due to a combination</a> of elements, among them...<a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2012/04/allow-me-to-introduce-you-to-your-new.html" target="_blank">you guessed it, body building supplements</a> ... but the actual "hat trick" would have been accomplished by a very literal drugging of myself, similar to those that have already occurred.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But back to the lady and her kid and my work on their vehicle; f</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">rom the beginning it was a very big deal, almost a production of sorts.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">She didn't know how to get the spare down and so straight away opened all the car doors and her and her girl started walking around looking under seats and what not. As it is my job to do so, I immediately climbed in and began assisting with the search. The first words that came out of her mouth were, "Pardon my car but I basically live in my truck." </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And boy was she not kidding... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Laying all about, in not so disorderly a fashion were all sort of her *and* her child's personal effects: brushes, dolls, little dresses, perfume bottles, makeup dispensers, all sorts of personal items of clothing, Barretts and you name it. It was almost like a women's/children's adornment store.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">We finally found the tools necessary to lower the spare and I went about my job, making very occasional small talk with her and her daughter as I worked...they were actually very nice and conversant, pleasant to speak with. Throughout this time, all of the car doors were open and on many occasions, these two were nowhere in site; I mean to say, I was at times alone with the vehicle. My job involved my moving around the full extents of the car; this was in no way abnormal.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b><i>But should some incrimination attempt be made, in the near or distant future, that seems to indicate apparent memory loss? Should a subsequent search of my home occur and some such item was found? Then what would be my explanation? </i></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Even more worth noting is the timing. This all occurred on a Wednesday and for the Monday and Tuesday before that I had actually called in and taken off work because of a very real and hard-core hangover recovery from partying at my house (playing video games, writing, Facebooking and what not, the weekend before). Not that I had any moments of memory loss but it certainly was bad enough getting over the fun that I most definitely did not want to be anywhere near 16 pound sledge hammers and the 400+ pound tires that we have to use them on. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Trust me, it's not for this blog but my day job could be considered the Penultimate of Evil(tm) when considering seeing to duties with a mean-ass</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> (think sweats/shakes, etc.) hangover.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So anyways, I note this here for posterity and because frankly, I like writing and as my fingers fly (oh, 120 words a minute with very few errors)...I don't know...I get a sense of calm. ;-) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And further, I quite like the cop whose wife I worked for but he's <i>certainly</i> aware of the proceedings against me...and though occasionally active as a participant (mostly "keyword/subject matter conversational investigation" and the like), has nonetheless been nothing but civil with me over the years. This was my first time meeting his wife and child and they were nice enough too ... but like I mentioned </span><a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/blood-in-water-draft.html" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;" target="_blank">in my previous blog post</a><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">, once "blood is in the water" ...and especially involving supposed issues of sex and children, then folks can be convinced to connive in any number of ways if they have been made to believe that it's for the "supposed" good of the target subject and that a subject is in need of such less than honest action. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Trust me, I've had some of my (now previous) best friends on the planet (12 stepper mental sorts) literally steal things from me for various investigation related reasons (mostly related to certain ex's of mine) as the psycho whackjobs behind the thing thought it to be nothing more than interesting content for perusal... so random acquaintances? Shit man...I can only imagine the lengths they could go to, nice folk or not.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>An old example too</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">This happened quite some time ago (mid 2005) but it's also still pertinent. A close surfing friend of mine and his wife had they're home broken into and some of her personal effects were stolen, panties and what not. Girl things. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Now, it's somewhat of a sex crime cliche (think popular television crime dramas) that sexual perverts like to steal panties...I don't know, for the purposes of "sniffing" or masturbating with and perhaps this really happens but I've never dreamt of such and have no friends who have ever been in to such (though I have some friends into some freaky shit, for sure). It's one of those icky things that seems to instantly capture the imaginations of the viewing public as, pscyho-whack job types love talking about these sort of things in ominous and scary tones...pretty much explicitly in regards to male offenders. Women apparently do other cool and icky stuff like cut guys cocks off and what not but that's not the point here. The point is the psycho-cliche of adult male sex offenders, purportedly doing things such as the above ... and, I can think of two examples of such TV shows that featured such... (the panty thing) ... it's true.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The investigators told them (my friends) that this was a sign of somebody possibly planning a sexual assault on the woman; at that time, the motions against me were extremely hot and heavy (no pun) and I immediately wrote on my main website, JBHFILE.com about the event (<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_examples.html#7" target="_blank">bottom of this page, here</a>). And for literally, <i>months</i> after that event...in my earlier, also very public work, folks kept coming up to our places of public employment, making obvious attempts to see what sort of cigarettes I smoked (yes, I smoked at the time) ... as though a cigarette butt were somehow important for something or that maybe one had been found somewhere to supposedly link me to some event (maybe the one I just now discussed).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">This was important at the time as the woman in question was, at that time, but not now, best friends with a certain ex of mine whom I had a rather lengthy and important relationship with and which I knew for a fact the psycho-whack jobs were attempting to force some semblance of my having an ongoing obsession with (though it couldn't have been further from the truth). This is also the ex that a friend of mine stole certain, innocuous video content of (<a href="http://youtu.be/-EFt3JCfENU" target="_blank">DVD of her and I hanging out</a>) ... right out from under my nose, actually and around the same time. Harmless content, but psycho-whack jobs who have had their imaginations piqued imagine they can "glean" important information from the viewing of such and therefore why I think he was convinced to steal it from me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">It's very old but still pertinent. Why? Because it could possibly be used to demonstrate <b>memory dysfunction</b>...even now...if some event warranted a search of my home and some of those old artifacts associated with their home break in were to be found around me or somehow in my possession; it stands mentioning, here.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Also known to me (and also of perverse interest to psycho-whackjobs) is a great interest in detailed discussion of any and all sexual events in early childhood. Think 5 to 10 years old...and as a very publicly known and addressed molestation victim <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/a-cult-of-molestation.html" target="_blank">(read here about it)</a>, these events, which I personally assume happen in most children's lives, become even more fascinating. Not so much as impacting events on my adult life but more so just cause the whack-jobs are curious and might want to right a journal article or something. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Now I certainly recall such early instances and I don't really feel the need to discuss them publicly, unless somebody is curious and forthcoming in simply requesting...and so it's not my habit to go around thinking about them or much less discussing them (think playing doctor and other curious sexual explorations among friends, of the opposite or same for that matter, sex).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But the proverbial <i>they</i> seem utterly riveted by the potential for such discussion. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For the life of me, I can't imagine how such a forum would be created, other than as some layered process/approach that would come up post some incrimination attempt regarding more recent, SUPPOSED, events ... but still ... it's a known hallmark of the memory dysfunction tack of the thing and one which I only mention briefly here.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Following, find listed by linked title, the other writings on this blog and my main website that I've listed as potentially associated with the memory dysfunction angle:</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">1. <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2009/04/black-out-fantasy.html" target="_blank">The Black Out Fantasy</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">2. <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2009/02/memory-dysfunction-as-tool-for.html" target="_blank">Memory Dysfunction as a Tool for Incrimination</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">3. <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2008/02/following-text-is-copied-from-harm-to.html" target="_blank">Covert Druggings</a> </span><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"> (some of which have been related to memory dysfunction)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: large;">4. <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/affirm_memory.html" target="_blank">Regarding Memory Loss</a></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Till next time, kiddies.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(Shit, maybe that was the best expression)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span"><span style="color: #666666; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span>Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-91853161836897008502013-01-18T19:23:00.000-06:002013-01-18T19:33:00.536-06:00Blood in the Water (draft) ... <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">As is my typical wont...once I start writing here, I tend to have a string of posts; one important point sets me to churning on other important points (and there's a lot of important points to point out, if you will)...and so, I simply don't stop till I feel like it's all been said.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;"><b>DISCLAIMER</b>: <i><span style="color: #666666;">Also, before I get into this...let me reiterate as I have on countless occasions before that everything I write here is based completely on hypothesis; nothing is matter of fact and nothing should be read as such. Call these things "strong hunches," or even, "intuition," ... simple bits of information I muse on which are directly related to the very factual information made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="_blank">JBHFILE.COM</a>. I mean face it .. to read all of this as factual, especially without any prior knowledge of my circumstances? Well fuck, that would just be crazy, huh? ;-) ... But I do get strong hunches and I do enjoy pondering on things and so that's why this blog exists.</span></i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Back to business...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So in the works is a bit regarding the exceptional vantage point that <i>14 years </i>of being the subject of very persistent, very thorough and very damaging <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_rumors.html" target="_blank">"rumor mill" and slander operations</a> has allowed me in the way of understanding the freakishness of certain human, social dynamics. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've watched this closely over the years, most times with much discomfort (though this has gotten easier over time) but all the while with very real fascination; yes, even throughout this <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="_blank">ongoing ordeal</a> I've found <i>some</i> way to educate myself about the human condition and have, in not so many words, very much grown in a social sense.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And also, what will follow isn't so much</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest.html" target="_blank">things I want to expose</a></i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">or that might be</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html" target="_blank">perpetrated against me</a></i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">(as this is the usual tack here); but rather, it is a sort of personal and mental diatribe, a personal bit of commentary, purely sociological/psychological in nature and as random as can be. But still ... it's something I feel to be worth writing about.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>Blood in the Water</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So what could potentially happen in a persons public/social dynamic when said person becomes the subject of a </span><a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_rumors.html" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;" target="_blank">rumor and slander operation</a><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">, pushed upon literally every one of that persons past and ongoing/new social circles? What happens when said rumor/slander operation morphs into some sordid and <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_who.html#2" target="_blank">political</a>, local and ego driven assault on said person? An assault that has as it's literal basis the absolute destruction of that persons social strata, up to and including his personal relationships, family relationships, career opportunities and especially any chance for some semblance of any "normal" intimate relationship with </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">any</i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> member of the opposite sex that should strike his fancy? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And by far most importantly, an assault (or investigation as "they" would put it) that has as an all encompassing goal, the absolute proof that everything <i>they</i> have claimed about a person is not only true but very much warranted (<i>burden of proof </i>is the legal jargon). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">What can he surmise (and possibly observe) that might be going on in the minds and demeanor of those surrounding him on a daily basis? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And especially, what can he observe in those persons who might have been fed countless lies about his <i>supposed</i> <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_rumors.html#1" target="_blank">personal habits and tendencies</a> which, in my case, across the board, would have to do with anything sexual and especially anything sexually <i>nefarious</i>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">In this latter regard, think topics such as</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> pedophilia or even more likely, my supposed attempts to seek sexual attentions from persons <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/art_04.20.08_dialogue.shtml" target="_blank">far too young for a 45 year old man</a>, or think the normal social interaction which might occur with the teen or 20-something working at any given coffee house or bar I might habitually frequent, or think about something as harmless as spending time with my young nephews and nieces...or even something so socially benign as smiling at a beautiful kid who happens to be walking by with their parents, possibly even commenting on such...these sorts of things? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">What might these very regular and normal social interactions <i>mutate into</i> in the minds of those who might have been made to believe any given number of horrible things about an individual and as they observe these otherwise normal interactions? How might the general public (if under the spell of the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_rumors.html" target="_blank">rumor campaign</a>) react to such an individual/target when he simply attempts to go about his normal social existence like any other citizen?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Well in short, it's fairly frightening, take it from me (but as mentioned above, it's gotten easier over the years); because, once the proverbial <i>blood is in the water</i>, once the seed has been planted in that "social mind," then even the most benign of public interactions, all of them in fact, can grow into literal and imaginary monsters in the minds of the observing public: mere glances become the apparent evidence of inappropriate attraction; simply pulling behind the wrong car when leaving from a restaurant might be interpreted as possible signs of stalking; and, casual banter with certain individuals? A sure sign of possible sexual predatory behavior.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Sounds far fetched? Not really. Again...take it from me. I've watched it with utter fascination (and at times, fear) over the years.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Secondly, and in a clinical sense, it's somewhat fucking amazing to this writer that such psychological operations involving a target subject (in this case, myself) can be so <i>damned</i> effective and thoroughly achieved.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">This is made even more outstanding in a sociological sense when you consider that I'm 45 years of age, have had <i>(prior to this)</i> a hugely successful career, have had <i>(prior to this)</i> countless incredibly awesome and very intimate relationships with all sorts of women (all of which were my age, mind you)...and have never once even <i>thought</i> about, much less <i>attempted,</i> "hitting on" or making advances on someone beyond 3 to 4 years my junior. Also and especially, that I've a literal wealth of family history with siblings, cousins, personal friends, nieces, nephews and otherwise as testimony to my <i>(gross to even have to address this here)</i> conduct around children for chrissake. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And yet the operation/assault still works! </span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">That said as not so much of a character defense as a true exploration of how unbelievable it its. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Damned amazing, and this is nothing <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stockholm_syndrome" target="_blank">"Stockholm-esque"</a> (the syndrome), just a genuine and personal fascination/appreciation for such things as a "tactic model" for the social destruction of a targeted individuals life and well being. I mean, it's damned impressive.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And the only explanation is that said mentioned "rumor mill" and the very persistent "slander operations" must <i>certainly</i> have originated from some pretty damned well respected (socially) <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest.html" target="_blank">sources</a> (think FBI, local police and especially and possibly, high ranking political figures and even University specialists who might reside in the Houston area).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Suffice it to say, these are the sorts of things I will discuss in the continuation of this particular blog. But it's not so much that last bit, my almost having to "defend" my past personal history, that I will discuss. More so it's about the general public...how a normal social landscape,<b> restaraunts, pubs, bookstores ... even a gym</b> ... can become a literal social experimentation petridish in regards to observing the reactions within the general public while interacting with a person who has been so described by supposed "authorities" as <i>"<a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_nature.html#top" target="_blank">under investigation "</a></i><a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_nature.html#top" target="_blank"> or <i>"a possible pedophile,"</i> or <i>"a stalker,"</i> or a <i>"hacker,"</i></a> or worse.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Because, said plainly? Once blood is in the water, once entire social groups have been saturated with particular and damning claims regarding a specific individual? Then frankly, those minds that have been convinced can really go fucking crazy with wild imaginings ... as though they almost <i>want</i> to believe, <i>want</i> to see some indication to confirm the claims they've heard...and, speaking strictly of my own opinion in regards to such? I think it could get pretty crazy...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(to be continued... and, as I find time to stop and write)</span><br />
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<span style="color: #666666; font-family: 'trebuchet ms';">this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a>; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="top">http://www.jbhfile.com/</a> for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">weird</span> stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.</span><br />
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Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-22600700096089687042013-01-11T17:59:00.000-06:002013-04-10T13:57:36.981-05:00Training material for sex addicts<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Since my last blog post was just <i>so</i> damn serious (and pretty fucking intimate to boot!). I thought it would be appropriate to post a bit of </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>personally created</b></i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">, super fun, super sexual video content to disturb all the 12 Stepper Sex Fiends(tm) who might be lurking out there, cringing at every simple utterance of the words "vagina" or "breast" or "cock." Or otherwise, simply to lighten the mood and all ... cause face it, *nothing* is *that* serious ... (is it?) ... </span></div>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br />:-) ... Humor? Remember that? And so...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Yes, <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2013/01/a-cult-of-molestation.html" target="_blank">it's you I was speaking of</a> in the last blog, the guys who are actually ashamed of their attraction to beautiful women (for whatever therapy induced reason). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">These are the guys <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">I've personally known</a> who couldn't even have a beer with me without having to "call their sponsor" because (ACK!) a super hot woman just happened to walk by our table with her mid drift exposed and (the worst!) might have accidentally brushed up against their chair...you know, the damaged sort who've had their brains so soaked in the rhetoric of popular "recovery" (ie: "Sex Anonymous" and the like), that they were never even able to have a friendship with a woman, much less a sexual relationship.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b><u>DISCLAIMER</u>:</b> <i>I mean no slant on the true sex addicts, here because I know they are out there...but these are not the guys I'm talking about. My long past personal friends who I refer too here couldn't have gotten layed if they tried, much less have had daily sex with strangers or any of the other true aberrant behavior patterns that genuine sex addiction counts as hallmarks; so please don't mis-read. </i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But that's all getting way off the point of this supposedly fun and light hearted post... and so I digress ...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So the other night, I went up to a local Houston bar where a certain <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GY8BAgQr95Q" target="_blank">surfing friend of mine</a> is a server. I just wanted to have a few beers and talk shit. I had never been to this certain bar, and as it turns out...it was sort of a "hoity toity" bit of high dollar affair that just happened to feature regular weekend "burlesque" shows (as well as really good drinks). And, when I say "Burlesque," I mean in the classic sense of dramatic skits and dialogue, punctuated with really sexual dance numbers which always sort of support the ongoing drama. It's nearly pornographic but in a very classy sense and super humorous and entertaining at the same time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Personally? I fucking loved it, never saw it coming. And, I've already talked to my sister and brother and other friends about coming out for drinks there again some time. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But in the spirit of fucking with the therapy-damaged-sex-freaks (and also to pimp my personal YouTube(tm) channel (especially my world famous "Insomnia Series(tm)" ) ... I just *had* to post this bit of love that I shot and edited about three weeks ago at my buds bar (<a href="http://prohibitionhouston.com/" target="_blank">Prohibition Craft of Cocktails!</a> if ever in Houston, check 'em out!) ... </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(BTW! : I encourage you to <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rTkaj6IdJpY" target="_blank"><b>view the video at YouTube proper</b></a> cause it looks a whole hell of a lot better there than the little, in-line video below does; just a tip)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I hope it makes you damaged sorts call your sponsor or go to a meeting.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Personally? I think it's gorgeous.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But then again, I'm a well known local Houston Sexual Predator(tm) ... ahem ... according to certain local law enforcement (and collegiate, as well) authorities, anyway ... and other than being WAY too old for me? I think she's super fucking sexy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Humor. Remember. Without it, all of us involved in this <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="_blank">ugly tryst</a> would be lost.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Also in the spirit of fun, if you care to see any more of the near monthly "Insomnia Series(tm)" vids that I personally produce and shoot in and around my regular haunts, here in Houston? Just check out my YouTube channel, yo!:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Here's a handy link: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/user/s1rrah" target="_blank"><span style="font-size: large;">Joel's YouTube Channel(tm)</span></a></span></div>
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<br />Joel Harrishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15733530384560937787noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2051563030249877556.post-30757010540038280622013-01-04T18:46:00.001-06:002013-01-13T11:12:57.214-06:00A Cult of Molestation<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I was "molested" as a kid.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">This should not come as a surprise to any of my family members (or anyone else close to me from that period). It's public. It's <i>been</i> public for decades. It has been addressed in countless therapy sessions of old; it is no secret and it has certainly not been left unaddressed in an emotional or psychological or formative sense.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It happened between the ages of 9 and 11. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">It was non-violent, and occurred over a couple years. That's about it. It involved oral sex (him on me) and not a whole lot else. There is no shame in me around this and fuck, I certainly have no problems discussing the event publicly (as I'm about to demonstrate).</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Why Discuss Such History Here?</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">My reasons for having to <i>(yet again!)</i> discuss these moments in public is *only* because the psycho therapeutic "<i>whackjobs</i>" behind the ongoing, so called, "investigation" of myself are hell bent on slotting me in to some (<b>legally mandated</b>) therapeutic circles where such early year sexual experiences are not just simple experiences ... but rather, to the popular psycho therapeutic practitioner, they become, supposedly (in the victim's later life) nearly <i>religious</i> "sign posts," indications, hallmarks of the victims personal likelihood to, yes, you guessed it ... unknowingly and under the spell of that near <i>magical</i> childhood experience, become MOLESTERS themselves!! Oh, the horror!! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>(I make a bit of fun with the above, dramatic intro...it's true. But I also think that popular psycho trend/thought is (mostly) fucking bollocks, personally, but for the sake of brevity, I will digress...)</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So ... either consult my late teen therapy records or grab a bag of popcorn and get ready to read about it first hand, here in 2013 ... yet again .. mostly because I wouldn't change a thing (regarding my past) but also because somebody has to, at some point, stand up to the bullies who preach (pursue) the current day psycho-whackery. And in this case, it must be me; I am not pleased with this task but I undertake it...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So here are the sordid details, abbreviated as they may be...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It was an older boy from the neighborhood that was responsible. He coaxed me in to the situation around activities that I liked ... fishing, the woods, etc. I never mentioned names in the old therapy sessions and nobody asked. But we talked about it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">At the time of the event, I was way too young to even know what molestation was, or that guys generally weren't sexually involved with other guys, or that sexual activity, it's very self...was something that a 9 year old shouldn't be partaking in with another, much older kid from the neighborhood. I just didn't know...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And besides, as 9 year old (and earlier) kids will do .. I had already had harmless little sexual encounters with others, much earlier in my short life and I figured this was just the same sort of thing.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">So it happened...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Eventually, as I aged and socialized and started having girlfriends and otherwise maturing. I simply told this older guy (who I now know to have been a genuine pedophile) something of the following sort: "No. Fuck off." And yes, those were about the exact words I used.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And I never saw or talked to the guy again after that. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And after those late teen therapy sessions, I certainly never intended to cough it all back up in to some public forum (such as this) and nor did I ever expect to have a bunch of psycho-therapy whack-jobs completely OBSESSED with me and the idea that I should somehow, at 45 years of age, make said experience in to some current day "issue" or otherwise something I needed to flaunt around or identify myself with as a human being.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><b>The Cult of Molestation</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">The above term is perhaps offensive to some of you who might find yourselves stuck in that strange world of "recovery" or "therapy" or "issues" or what have you; and, for that I apologize as I truly think those persons who remain bothered by such early experiences should enjoy and seek the assistance of the professional community should they find it necessary.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But on the other hand, as with the current psychiatric trend to medicate even the most minor of mood conditions, I find that there's also a similarly ugly trend on the part of the psychiatric establishment to, in a very real sense, "trap" their patients in what could only be called an ongoing spiral of shame and social/sexual discomfort; I mean face it, these so called "doctors" are in the business of making money and the very livelihood of their profession depends on a carefully maintained "herd" of abuse victims. And far be it from me or anyone else to discount the fact that many of them will manufacture the so called need for ongoing council and "treatment." Look up the term <a href="http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/iatrogenic" target="_blank">iatrogenic</a> to read more about such. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I am certainly not claiming that the whole of psycho therapeutic practitioners exhibit this horrid tendency but I'm certainly saying those involved in the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/" target="_blank">ongoing assault on my person</a>, are.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And with most of this, I don't speak so much from my own experience as I've painstakingly resisted the "career molestation" circles for the past 25 years or so, but I speak out of experience with very real persons/friends my own age and whom I've known since childhood who themselves are very much embedded in that culture.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">The folks I speak of, the real lifelong "therapy addicts," are the folks who, unlike myself (thank god) have really never even had any sort of normal social/sexual life because of the fact that they have been made so hugely (and literally) <i>fucked in the head</i> by the very process' which supposedly were to benefit them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Really, it's terrible what's been done to these folk, the huge damage that's been done.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">know of men</a> who can't even playfully and verbally objectify when a beautiful woman enters the room ("jeezus, her ass!," etc.) as to do so immediately triggers what could only be called a spasm of shame and discomfort. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">These same men are the sort who have been coerced into attending 12 step programs such as <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">Sex Anonymous and the like</a> because they might have masturbated and felt so ashamed they wanted to commit suicide.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Other men I've known have been made to believe that there was <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">something wrong with them</a> because they might have slept in the same bed with their parents or some other inane and idiotic hat trick of the psycho therapeutic establishment. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Or even t</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">hat childhood sexual exploration among their close friends of the time should be something of concern in there later life and must constantly be regarded as a defining characteristic of their adult self.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And worse. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I mean, it's a huge cluster fuck that <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">these persons</a> have built for themselves, all at the throne of some "establishment" which guarantees it's own longevity and very existence on perpetuating the supposed influence of such distant, early events.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I pity <a href="http://jbhfile.blogspot.com/2007/10/whackos-coming-out-of-woodwork.html" target="_blank">these people</a> and am genuinely relieved to have avoided that terrible fate. Even if it means being forcibly cordoned to the confines of a minimum wage job for the remainder of my days or otherwise having my current day social/professional opportunities hamstrung (which has been the <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_gang.html" target="_blank">predominate method of harassment used against me over the past 14 years or so</a>); to me, it's worth it. I simply cannot abide by the idea of sacrificing truth for the sake of personal comfort/gain and so I carry on.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It should be made very clear at the same time that I am in no way on some sort of personal vendetta against the psycho therapeutic community. This is simply not the case. I believe the practice of psycho therapy has value and I know of many persons who have benefited greatly from interaction with the specialists therein...myself foremost among them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">That said, my reasons for writing here are far different...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I write and will continue to write due to the fact that the so called "investigators" involved in the ongoing case/assault against me are actively attempting to dredge up the above mentioned topics which I addressed as a younger man in therapy and to build a current day, public forum around such.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">As <a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/harm_rumors.html" target="_blank">discussed at my main site</a>, JBHFILE.COM, one of the early defining characteristics of the investigators was to attempt to use any sort of "smear" or offense or topic from my past as a means to build a very specific current day image of myself. In other words, it's not my having any personal reason or concerns that would drive me in to such circumstances but more</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> specifically, because </span><a href="http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;" target="_blank"><i>they</i> have a reason for it</a><span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">. They have a stake in again making such things public; they have things to gain from it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Shit man...other than being stalked relentlessly for the past 14 years? Other than having every one of my social circles infiltrated and ultimately destroyed (along with my career as a software interface designer)? ... I'm about as happy as a lark with myself regarding things sexual and life in general; I certainly never find myself pondering visiting a therapist for fuck sake. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But as discussed before, in the end the motions against me are ego based. Further, the supposed legal reasons the investigation was based on so many years ago (going on 1.5 decades, now) and which I've never been able to confront, are in large part dictated to continue for reasons of "burden of proof," the legal jargon for a law enforcement agency having the responsibility to prove that their actions (and claims of criminal activity around a person) are in fact, warranted.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">But because I'm not much into criminal activity (other than the occasional movie or .mp3 download) the ongoing efforts of the "investigators" and their cohorts are driven mostly by ego...needing/wanting to be seen as "right" among their respective peers and especially the communities that have been mobilized against me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><b>On a happier note</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It feels good to be moving into yet another new year; considering what I deal with daily and nightly, 365 days of the year...I feel so very fortunate to have my sanity, health and at least some semblance of income with which to sustain myself (horrendous as the labor might be).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I had written some year or so ago about a personal physical routine of betterment and this is continuing into and throughout the new year. </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Over the holidays, I had a bit of a self-induced reprieve from such physical training regimes as I wanted instead to devote myself to recreation, "partying" ... and just relaxing. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">And this is what I did. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I feel </span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">slightly</span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> worse for it, which is to be expected from fairly robust consumption of alcohol and fatty foods but it was also one hell of a hoot. I got out a bit, saw a few friends and mostly avoided any sort of official get-together as I simply wanted to relish the rare few days free of manual labor and work that I found myself blessed with. In other words and to employ a bad pun? I wanted to remain un</span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">molested </i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">by family and housemates and the respective social gatherings they each hosted. This raised eyebrows, as it does each year as folks seem to think that being by oneself necessarily equates to unhappiness but in my case it couldn't have been further from the truth.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Anyway...here's to another year of truth seeking. </span><br />
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