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"Word."

2011-11-11T16:50:00.003-06:00

Fucking "Word."

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website,http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please seehttp://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.

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How does The Weed(tm) fit in to the equation?

2011-11-05T11:40:00.010-06:00

So a guy I know recently started a fairly sophisticated marijuana grow operation; said guy is not a close friend of mine; we do not "hang out" or otherwise regularly associate...but we did...in a certain sense, "come up together" in the local Houston surfing scene and what not, having been acquainted for well nigh 25 years now, if but loosely.

And, by the way, I learned this recent bit of tripe second hand and from another such acquaintance.

And frankly, I find this sort of surprising in it's own right since he's a family guy, has a wife and children and what not ... and is generally an upstanding citizen most days; which is to say that it's a little surprising that he'd be willing to risk all of that by becoming a mass grower of hydroponic weed.

But hey, to each his own.

Anyway, what cocks my eyebrow (good word, "cock") is the fact that he's a long time best bud of one of the fellows/families that I highly suspect as having been involved as informants to the investigation of myself over the past six years or so (hey, like it or not you simple fucks, some of your own people have talked).

Also, I'm interested in this peculiar bit of new information because I've known that supposed drug use (major drug use) has been a shiny little nugget on the wish list of the investigators in so far as some day creating the impression of my being the sort of person who "really needs help" (oh, you know, 90 days of court mandated observation, a month or two in some sort of ghey ass "recovery" ward, etc; use your imagination.)

I'm not much of a pot smoker, btw. I certainly was in the very, very distant past ... daily, even ... morning noon and night in my late twenties ... and, especially when I was employed as a work-from-home software designer. It just worked with the solitary nature of that profession and as well, the other artistic (musical and otherwise) projects I was involved in. It was fun ; I enjoyed it. But, that was a long time ago.

In fact, up until about four months ago, I hadn't partaken of "The Weed" for well over 8 years or more. I was actually somewhat fanatically vocal about it on my regular website for quite a few years as I knew it was one of the main "leverage lies" that the investigators wanted to use against me in so far as getting the proverbial ball rolling towards some sort of isolated environment (recovery, etc.) within which they could, er, "explore" until their hearts were content (which would be never, btw cause they are simply wrong about everything they so desperately desire me to be/represent and so the proper phrase would be so that they could, er, "manufacture" until their hearts content; but, that's certainly for another blog).

But back to four months ago.

Yes, it's true ... four months or so ago, I let my brother (who is a daily user of The Weed(tm)) "smoke me out" (as they say) before we saw a movie. I don't like the illegality of The Weed(tm), but I admit it, I find it quite the nice diversion and far away less physically damaging than is say, alcohol. So yeah, I burned with him and it was awesome. That said, refer to my main website jbhfile.com to read about my current and official standing regarding such activities (association with The Weed(tm). But loosely said, I'm certainly not a regular purchaser of such contraband and nor shall I be. The little experiment with my sibling 4 months back was just that ... an experiment ... the satisfying of personal curiosity regarding something I'd not taken part in for a very very long time. And, as mentioned, it was certainly a hoot!

But continuing...

Shortly after the harmless little "soiree" with my brother is when I heard "thru the grapevine" that this particular above mentioned old friend had suddenly started a rather professional and elaborate hydroponic, marijuana grow operation. Furthermore, the other friend who I mentioned, who has been an informant to the investigation over the years, suddenly started having some free samples that he *really* wanted to give me ("for the road" and all). LOL. Seriously, there at the beginning of my knowledge of these things, old informant friend seemed to always have a bit laying around that he wanted me to "try out," etc. I mostly declined ... and totally declined once I smelled the proverbial rat.

So what does this have to do with jbhfile.com and my personal efforts to prove an investigation of myself has existed for well nigh 20 years now?

Well, let me surmise, wont you?

Isolated environment for poking and prodding

The first and most obvious "red flag," if you will is that, as with many years ago, the iatrogenic quacks behind the investigation still desperately would like to relegate me to some sort of isolated environment for poking and prodding and the manufacturing of what the quacks would end up calling "classic elements of the existing profile." You pick the particular flavor of psycho-idiotic cliche': "over sexualization as a youth resulting in adult promiscuity and a hyper developed, yet unconscious sense of sexual aggressiveness, forwardness or neediness as an adult" ... or ... "molested as a child and therefore this recent internet activity is really concerning because all of us Idiot Psychiatrists(tm) know beyond a doubt that 9 out of 10 molestation victims are likely to molest children themselves as an adult" ... (oh! Much biting of nails and gnashing of teeth!) ... or ... "this is why he was looking at those 18 - 25 year old girls on porn sites! He's unconsciously drawn to adolescent or near adolescent women because he's a classic case of the 40 something male longing to hold on to his youth!" ... (oooooh the danger in that!) ... or ... "clearly a narcissistic personality who needs constant validation from the opposite sex and therefore this is why he chooses to jog with his shirt off or wear revealing clothing, etc." .... (Aiiii! The shame in that!!!) ... but I will digress because it's old news at this point.

So yeah ... obviously, being associated with such an illicit substance as The Weed(tm) could indeed act as a very convenient springboard into some sort of court mandated, extended stay at this crazy house or that. And the important point here is the removal of free will ... to create a legal situation wherein I have no recourse but to follow orders or otherwise suffer the very likely consequence of further compounding my situation (or lengthening my stay, if you will).

Surveillance, Surveillance, Surveillance

One salient point to this whole little decade long debacle is the fact that if *any* surveillance of myself is *ever* displayed in a *public* venue, then I will have, in essence, succeeded in proving a long winded and (for the most part) politically motivated investigation of myself exists ... and here ... most importantly, an investigation related to the sorts of topics I've been harping on for the past ten years in my various writings (jbhfile.com, etc.).

It's that simple.

And knowing that the idiots behind the corrupt and violent assault on myself intend to never publicly own that an investigation has existed (since that would then shed a more credible light on some of my other claims like being covertly overdosed on PCP, etc.), then that in turn gives me the opportunity to fuck with the surveillance guys as much as I like ... at least as a simple/gross attempt at creating such bothersome content that they might someday hold it against me publicly ... at which point, (at least as I imagine it to unfold in my fantastic imagination) I might be able to then say to everybody who has been calling me crazy, "TOLD YOU SO!".

So regarding that initial statement (the above paragraph) ... I've made a point over the past few years to give the surveillance guys something provocative to surveil ... which is to say, when in those environs that I highly suspect audio surveillance to be taking place ... I go off on wild and seriously demented verbal tangents about all sorts of sick shit. I mean I really go for it. It's horrific and it even bothers me a bit to vocalize such content but I keep in mind the fact that I have a point to make and so I make it. Anything at the extreme end of Violence(tm), Sex(tm), Necrophilia(tm) and in relation to Children(tm), Babies(tm) and more ... is what I heartily go at verbally. Really, I've considered becoming a horror writer as I've personally been impressed (horrified) at my own imagination the past few weeks. Shoosh! Really bad shit (really fun and funny at the same time because though I can't prove it yet, I happen to know they are getting it).

And trust me, I will certainly not replicate any of it here because it is the penultimate of vile; but, suffice it to say, I engage in this sort of "taunting" because hey, it's just me in the privacy of my own mind or in the privacy of my own home or workplace with no other human witnesses present (other than the whackos) and there is certainly no will or meaning behind the rants and so ... no harm done.

Something from the very fine essays by one Allen L. Barker definitely comes to mind here:

"By the way, you can taunt them all you want in your head, since it is only you and the Nazis there. Likewise, curse the pigs that bug your house (or workplace!) all you want. They just do not seem to understand that if they reveal anything they know about your private mentation or private conversations in your home they cannot call you crazy. It would be like entering the FBI tapes of Martin Luther King saying the FBI was out to get him as evidence that he was paranoid." --Allen L. Barker, "Mental Firewalls"

Now, in light of all of the above, consider this...

What if circumstances related to myself, which might warrant the need for legally approved surveillance, were suddenly manufactured in my life by the whackos behind this long winded debacle? I mean, specifically, circumstances that have nothing to do with the facts made known in jbhfile.com, but rather, around something else completely unrelated ... like my recently being introduced to this dude who is growing hydroponic marijuana (and who my brother, a daily smoker, is becoming closer and closer with). What about that, hmmm? I mean, it's a decent hypothetical! (Besides, the dude has already made two, er, "deliveries" to my brother at my family company ... and so, ...)

Well then, the whackos could confront me on any of the violent and depraved and sick nonsense that I've been "shouting to the air" in those areas I feel I might be surveilled, while also being able to claim that the surveillance itself had nothing to do with the "nonsense" I've been talking regarding an investigation of myself but instead had to do with mine and my brothers association with this pot growing dude; for instance, they might say:

"And in the course of analyzing that surveillance data, Mr. Harris, we became very concerned about some of your comments that we happened to catch on tape and it's been recommended you discuss such with a Specialist(tm)."

It's a decent hypothetical, a bit granular, but it should still be stated publicly.

Otherwise?

Otherwise, all is well.

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website,http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please seehttp://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Scientologist Whackos!

2011-10-09T14:45:00.004-05:00

This is absolute brilliance in journalism.

Stupid Scientology(tm) Qwacks! The poor stunted fucks are *so* sure we've all "DONE" something!

LMFAO!!!

How can people take this shit seriously?

Really? *REALLY?* ... LOL ...

(just watch ... Mark Bunker plays these idiots just right) ...

"Well ... you *needed* a crime!" ...

LMFAO ...

And so ... we will give them one (or many, as the case may be) ...

;-)

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Fucking priceless.

Yes. Outing pedophiles and murders at every corner!!! Yes ... YES ! .... it's the SCIENTOGOGHEYS!!(tm) ...

(I am only the messenger)

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2011-10-08T14:34:00.004-05:00

Hey RICE U! Hey amateur UH whores! Hey FBI!! And especially? ESPECIALLY? Here's to you stupid ass quack psychologists/psyGHEYitrists!": Read it and weep you simple fucks! :

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(NOTE/MESSAGE to the PSyCHSquad): pay careful attention to the Supremely Hot Chick at 1:55mins or so. You know, the one dressed up like a school girl? I'm not sure but it really feels to me like her cute little pigtails, her obvious school girl outfit (even holding a textbook!) and especially, her slender, youthful build just lends to the overall Devilish(tm), near Tabboo(tm) sexual appeal of her character. Drives me crazy, personally. How 'bout you? )

;-)

And otherwise? To the detractors?

That was a fucking freebie.

Rock.

Oh, btw?

2011-09-28T14:01:00.005-05:00

A special message to my daily entourage (actually, it's usually late at night or real early in the morning that they're at their most bothersome; but you know, semantics and all):

Just sayin...

This one is gonna be THE SHIT.

2011-09-15T20:20:00.004-05:00

Working a new blog entry tonight ... it's gonna be about shady marijuana growers ... and also, my favorite part ... how I verbally fuck with surveillance crews wherever I might think/imagine them to be surveilling ... and, there's only a couple places really, as it's only in those areas that I would so loudly rant about the sort of stuff (trust me, it's bad) I'm verbally/loudly ranting about.

But more later ...

The two are related, btw ... shady marijuana growers and my love of trying to prove an investigation against me exists; it sounds confusing, I know, and it is ... but it might make a bit more sense once I publish the article (but will probably still be confusing).

Whoot. Big fun on the horizon, yo.

Rock (and I will post a new article for above mentioned content once it's complete) ...

Putting myself out there!

2011-09-09T08:46:00.009-05:00

I've had a fantastic past two years or so. In fact, this is fairly close to how long it's been since I updated this blog, a good sign, that.

But as I've enjoyed the past months (got layed, caught lots of good surf, haven't been criminally jacked up by whacko/iatrogenic fucks yet and have been steadily employed) ... I've also had a teeny tiny watchful eye on those that still desire to turn me into something I'm not.

As I've mentioned in the past ... the iatrogenic wankers have egos bigger than (was going to say my penis but it's not all that big) and so I'll have to settle for planet Jupiter ... yes ... they are that bad in their "Narcissistic" world view of themselves (IE .. rape, pillage, ruin lives or whatever it takes to come out smelling rosy) (but hey, don't blame them ... most are whore academicians who, by nature, consider themselves [and their "systems"] beyond any reproach.) Typical.

Anywho ...

Several recent developments beg ongoing and occasional mention here on my Bad Ass Mother Fucking Blog(tm) ... and so ... not wanting to spend too much time going over this or thinking about things (cause I do my best work when sleeping or simply following inspiration) ... I'll go ahead and cut to the chase.

MySpace and Facebook

I have fun on these sites ... not so much MySpace (aka "MyGhey") because it's recently been purchased by a media whore and is, indeed, beginning to resemble a media whore (as to be expected) ... but Facebooks more "dialogue based" interaction is actually very very fun. I'm friends with ex-girlfriends, friends and a few family members, there. And, as is my wont ... I write a lot there under the notes section (I'm a writer, after all) ... most of it sort of serious and personal observations, prose, poetry, random little stories ... some of it is rather offensive (I also enjoy cursing and blaspheming and being otherwise irreverent ... chalk it up to the writer circles I grew up in) ...

So why mention Facebook at all?

First ... it's online and supposed online misuse ... especially pirated software and illegal porn (pedophile porn! Yeah!) ... which have been a hallmark of the tactics used against me in the past. In fact, it was just a few short years ago when I actually got the courage to even *use* the internet again or possess a computer, such were the movements around me.

Second ... the potential to hack my account on Facebook (and MySpace) is always there ... not that I think too much could be done along those lines simply because of all the stuff I've published over the past six or so years ... but thought I'd mention it, anyway.

But really ... the main thing to note (never mind the hacking bit cause it's not that big of a deal) is that I'm using computers and the internet all day *every* day. WHOOOOO! I love the internet (and though free porn is really awesome on occasion) ... my main appreciation for it is checking the offshore forecasts and talking to my three real friends (LMFAO!) ... and as I've harped and harped and harped ... computers and the internet have been the core of just about every set up attempt I've witnessed .

Public Wi-fi Access Points

I've also purchased a bad ass "Netbook" so that I could both write and do other online bantering (Facebook, research, etc.) wherever I happened to be hanging out drinking or eating.

That said ... I predominantly stay away from public wi-fi access points ... I don't need them because I have a (seriously) dope high speed connection on my cel phone (I use it as a portable router; I pay for it handsomely as it's quite expensive but it's just so fucking handy!).

But there is one fav bar of mine, however which was gracious enough to inform me of their *private* wi fi password (Cafe A****, in my favorite Houston area neighborhood, Montrose) ... this was before I had the high speed cel phone router and so I used it for a month or so when visiting that location. I've since not used it in the slightest as my phone works so good.

Anyway, it doesn't need to be reiterated at this point how potentially enticing that little above circumstance might be to folks who might like to somehow use it against me; the possibilities should be obvious as well (using their internet connection to download illegal content, or otherwise inappropriate content such as pornography or what have you). To my mind it's simply preposterous even reading that last sentence since I cannot really believe anyone would use a public point of access such as that for viewing of porn (in a fucking restaurant!!!???) but I have read stories of Real Pedophiles(tm) downloading all types of kiddie porn by parking outside of such establishments and downloading to their sick little heart is content.

So yeah ... the above mentioned restaurant and my particular knowledge of their *private* internal wi-fi is pretty damn important to mention here.

I no longer use their access point as one, my mobile phone router is faster and two, I'm really not comfortable being privy to folks private information regarding anything related to computers and the internet; but it is true that I'm still aware of the password and as far as whether they will change it or not is beyond me to know. Suffice it to say, however ...

Cel Phone and Netbook

Finally, simply apply the contents of the last above point to the following, fairly new developments in my daily life: I broke down and got one of those ghey ass "smart phones" you see everyone swiping and pecking at every where you go. I, on the other hand don't really swipe and peck at it too much as I predominantly use it as a high speed "mobile wi-fi hotspot." To that end, I also have recently purchased a 10.1 inch "Netbook" so that I could waste time on the internet wherever I happen to be.

And, it works very very well.

And so, of course ... those two newly purchased items are not being used for any purpose that one could call ... hmmmm ... "questionable" ... or even grossly illegal.

Just another very simple little public disclaimer as said connection is certainly not being used for any nefarious or questionable purposes.

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Adios. See you next year when I might be required to post something new.

;-)

and oh yeah ... a little Super Secret Bonus Power Up?(tm) ... click this for a full verbal explanation from the dude himself (blush) (IE, ME!) :

HERE

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What's up with School Girls, anyway? Are they enticing? I mean, c'mon. What's the story?

2010-04-15T15:51:00.010-05:00

And here I was beginning to feel neglected.

I'm sure you all remember my previous update regarding the little Mexican teeny boppers at HEB who were, apparently, a part of some sort of psycho-social ruse aimed at myself ... oh, back in January of 2009 or so.

How could you forget? It was so well written and provocative, after all (even if being, at the very most technical of levels, strictly hypothetical.) So visit the above link for a refresher if you need/desire it.

Anyway, yesterday it happened again, at least it's a pretty strong hypothesis of mine. 'Cept this time, it seems the wankers behind the ongoing "investigation" of myself have traded teenage Mexican cuties for Uniformed Schoolgirl cuties. It's true, short khaki skirt, navy blouse and everything. It was quite humorous to watch the whole thing go down.

Remember, again, this is merely some hypothetical ramblings on a situation that may or may not have been a function of the "psycho-social" efforts of a known investigation of myself. But since this sort of thing rarely crosses my daily radar any more and because I've been pretty comfortable of late and because when these sorts of things *do* cross my daily radar they therefore stick out like a fat thumb, then these sorts of very rare but totally unusual public moments are always "red flags" if you will.

This all went down in a bookstore I was visiting to pick up a very specific Sci-fi novel I'd been wanting to read.

As with the Mexiteen(tm) stalking moment back in Jan '09, the particular young lass involved in this newest probable ruse, the "object fixation bait" as I like to think of such, was situated directly in my path just as soon as I entered the building/store. (I'd place her at 14 or 15 years of age and dressed in the near archetypal, classic khaki/navi school girl outfit). I immediately noted the entire scene, the girl, the older persons around her and then quite quickly walked around her to the "Z" section of the Sci-Fi area.

Before rounding the corner of the shelf, and before the front of the building was out of my site, I briefly looked back to once more reassess the scene (I already smelled a rat), not looking at Uniformed School Girl but at the folks around her. And sure enough, the lady standing closest to her, a sandy blond haired woman in her early to mid 30's who was facing me, did the classic "quickly look away because the guy I'm watching is suddenly watching me" move. It's unmistakable. I don't see it often, but when I do, it usually and probably indicates some sort of observational role on the part of the person. I call these person's "spotters."

Anyway, I don't go around considering it strange that persons should look at me and then look away. This happens all the time. Daily even, it's a normal human impulse response sort of thing and it certainly doesn't bother me when I do it or when I see others in regards to myself doing it. I'm not a bad looking guy, after all and I do my fair share of flirting.

Oh, but this was an altogether different thing. This look I mention above, the look that 30 Something Lady was demonstrating was another animal entirely. Her body language in regards to my own position in the room at the time and in conjunction with the position of Uniformed School Girl, the obvious cast of concentration and attention that her face was set in, spoke volumes as to the probable nature of her presence there.

I immediately thought of her as a "spotter." I filed it for future reference and turned the corner into the Sci-fi section. Then, perhaps 5 seconds after I turn the corner, as I'm crouching and trying to find the elusive "Z" section among the alphabetized spines, who should come into view in my periphery, also entering the Sci-fi section? Who should then mozey over to stand within two feet of me? Also, apparently looking for a book in the same shelving area as myself? You guessed it! Uniformed School Girl!

Oh joy. I almost chuckled. That didn't take long.

Anyway, as with 30 Something Spotter Lady, I filed it for future reference and went to find a store employee as I couldn't find the fucking "Z" section! Really, that area of the shelves was all out of whack.

So me and Bookstore Employee return and she literally has to lean around Uniformed School Girl to find and retrieve the book I was looking for. I thank her and begin reading the back cover as I'm curious what the book is about. Uniformed Schoolgirl then suddenly turns and leaves. I remain reading for a good half minute and head up front to pay for my book. Uniformed School girl is at the counter (I tried to get a look at the book she was buying but failed); behind her and in front of me is an African American fellow. Uniformed School girl then leaves and as she's walking out the door I glance about the room and notice a man in his early 50's or so, who, as with 30 Something Spotter Lady, quite neatly demonstrates the same "quickly look away because the guy I'm watching is suddenly watching me" move.

So I pay for the book and leave feeling somewhat elated. Such social sleuthing, being as rare of a thing as it is, is always quite fun, trying to attempt to ferret out the motivation of the possible players, catching them at it and otherwise watching the spectacle.

Ahh yes. As well as possessing Super Duper Goat Staring Psychic Super Powers(tm), I'm also a pretty good read of a room. I can't explain it. As mentioned before, situations such as the one I just described hardly ever occur any more; they used to occur very frequently, many years ago but no so much any more. Twice that I became aware of in the past year, first the Mexiteens at H.e.B. back in early 2009 and just yesterday, Uniformed School Girl at the Bookstore.

I'm pretty socially active; I mean, I'm out and about in public places frequently, book stores, restaurants, bars, coffee houses. And these places often frequented have a definite and natural rhythm to the human population that, in general, frequents them. These places hum along in a social way that's comfortable and natural and, well, how to say it? Just right.

So when I stumble upon a situation like the above described, when things are so obviously and immediately out of whack with the norm, in my exceptional case anyway, this generally indicates one of two things:

a) that it is indeed further, public and strange psycho-social prodding by the lunatics behind the 10+ year debacle/"investigation" that I've been the focal point of

... or ...

b) that it's just a random, albeit quite unusual gathering of persons going about their mutual and respective business that day.

These two possibilities must always be mentioned in writings such as this because, I mean, to go around saying in a matter of fact way that you think there are psycho-social dramatics being played out at your expense and in public places ... well ... that would just be crazy.

:-)

Therefore, I am always careful to qualify.

But as I mentioned above, I've been quite happy and content over the past year. I long since shrived myself of any real fear or concern about what the "investigators" still so obviously want to attach to my person in the way of supposed character flaws or what they might attempt in the way of making some real motions against my person. Which is not to say that I no longer care about legally protecting myself, because I do ... just that it's not "bumming my stoke" as they say or causing me emotional duress.

I've been exercising a lot. Eating out a lot. Reading a novel or two every week, listening to good music, working, paying my fucking taxes, etc.

Hell, and this is probably adding fuel to the flame, I've even been comfortable enough to occasionally check some porn videos at tube8.com!

Though single, and though I plan to remain so, I am a regular old dude at heart and I like sex just as much as the other guy, be it with a partner, self-employed, gratuitous, meaningful, recreational or otherwise. So thank goodness for the internet! ( and yes, I make a point to search tube8.com on the term "teen" all the time just to fuck with the persons I know are watching my internet connection. And also, because I know those 18, 19 and 20 somethings are working just as hard for their money as the older chicks, yo!). ;-) Sure, tube8.com is full of some pretty wild stuff, but as far as I've seen and can tell, it's safe and legal and one's chances of running afoul of something "out of bounds" is unlikely. Hell, it's Maxim Magazine recommended! ;-) So for the sake of the investigators, mostly (and a bit for me) I will occasionally titillate them/us with some late night recreational browsing.

(Little hint to all of you who like watching: I'm keenly aware of the monitoring of my internet connection, web surfing, emails the various social network sites I'm on ... but hey, no biggee! Your welcome here! Why do you think I purposefully made my MySpace account and MySpace blog public? Cause I want you guys to be able to savor every juicy detail)

BTW: the title to my next blog here is going to be "Putting Myself Out There!" and is gonna be all about my somewhat frequent activity on social networking sites like MySpace and Facebook where I have another blog that's solely recreational and literary and where I talk trash with folks I know and where I am in contact with ex girlfriends, best friends, old friends, chicks I've met online and communicate with via email (I'm sure they LOVE those) etc. I use it as an ongoing mechanism to both entertain myself and give the investigators some stuff to mull over. It's fun. So look for it soon!

That said ...

Please do rock on.

.joel

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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jbh.

Other Person's Money Part II

2010-01-08T10:36:00.003-06:00

As should be evident by my lack of posts over the past seven or eight months, I haven't had too many warning signs of late in so far as potential "investigation" related actions against myself.

Things have been pretty fun; actually, every so often, I've managed to forget that this whole ordeal is ongoing, that it will remain something I consider of utmost importance to keep public and as a matter of my own protection.

Dramatic, I know, but this is, after all, somewhat of a winded and heady drama at this point.

Recently ...

As you probably don't know ... I've been working full time for my father's company in Channelview, Texas for the past year or so. This is the same company that at one time was used as a literal hub from which to coordinate and launch actions against my person that would either one, institutionalize me or two, somehow falsely incriminate me in a way that would allow the investigators to have their way.

To understand that last statement, you would of course have to be privy to the ultimate objectives of the investigators and as well, how the whole sordid thing started, so follow those two links if you care to read about such.

That said ...

One of the main past setups that occurred at this family members business was an attempt to create the impression of my having "lifted" my father's bank account number and subsequently using it to sign up for a number of pay-for-porn sites (sites of a very questionable nature, mind you). Again, follow the links if you care to read the details as I've written at length about the event.

And So Today ...

And so today, a guy comes barging into our office claiming that he had lost his credit card when purchasing some tires from us the previous day.

One of my co-workers (and my father, the owner) immediately said, "Yes, we just found it this morning on the floor near the desk where you signed the ticket."

The guy, seeming a bit frazzled and/or suspicious says, "When did you find it? Uh, how long ago?"

And so the worker who had found it again said, "Just this morning as we opened."

Long story short, according to my father and the guy who actually found the card, the gentleman who came in today looking for it seemed in a state that indicated he suspected the card had been used. He didn't say that the card had been used or even that he'd checked for evidence of such activity, he just seemed to visually imply that he was suspicious through his questioning, body language and overall demeanor.

I heard about this about twenty minutes after it occurred and so I was not a direct witness to the exchange but according to those who did witness the dialogue, the guy seemed quite flustered.

And so herein lies the point of my post.

Again, I've reiterated here and at my main website, jbhfile.com, that supposed criminal tendencies around credit card fraud and general theft have been a hall mark of the investigators tactics in past attempts to falsely incriminate me. If anything can be said about said tactics, then it is that they have focused predominantly on attempting to create a public illusion of myself as having what law enforcement/judiciary circles refer to as a "predisposition to criminal activity," meaning that said condition it's near innate, in one's blood and ultimately to be viewed as somewhat of a chronic condition.

This effort on the part of the investigators is and has been only a precursor to the ultimate goal and not the end-all-be-all of why these things have taken place. To read about the end-all-be-all objectives of this near 10 year debacle, please visit my main website and acquaint yourself with the "Objectives of Investigators" section.

And so, as with past similar posts, this one is simply to mark the moment in time, to make it public as something I'm aware of and that runs as a simple parallel possibility in regards to future actions that might be used against me.

That said ...

I will now return to work.

Work at last! Thank God Almighty I've got Work at last!

2009-05-07T19:38:00.003-05:00

The title was an obvious play on a much more profound and important quote from one Martin Luther King, obviously ... so forgive me for butchering it so.

But, as the title should indicate ... I've got some software/web development work on my plate and, in light of the past 8 years or so ... that's a very very rare and special thing.

I won't wax prosaic about this much, but suffice it to say that THE primary effort on the part of the local authorities behind the ongoing smear campaign of my self has involved the forced prevention of my finding any local (or otherwise) employment in my chosen and traditional career as a software designer.

In the early days and as I was forced out of my last professional job with a local design firm (via a blatant hacking setup) ... this was done primarily by contacting prospective new employers and very matter of factly explaining to them that I was some sort of threat ... either a known computer hacker or a rampant pedophile or worse (if you can imagine).

I have this on good faith of others and as I've mentioned before, I have a a wealth of actual evidence from the last professional gig I had wherein I (at quite the last minute) thwarted an effort by on site, undercover participants in the investigation to rig my workstation in a way that made it very much look as though I were hacking websites from that computer.

Follow the above links if you care to read about the events (some six years ago).

Needless to say ... I have had to approach all other prospective contract work opportunities with the utmost discretion and care.

I've done several small jobs over the past few years with no adverse events occurring but too ... I've published my role in said jobs to a near hyper-vigilant extent and so any sort of setup attempt would seem very suspicious should it play out.

And that's exactly what I aim to do hear ... only in much more abbreviated terms/language because I'm tired and have already covered it in past blog posts.

Contract Gig for Filmmaker!

I'm quite excited to be working on a very cool project for a documentary filmmaker who resides in New York.

She's doing a really neat and important bit of work which aims to explore the rapid "gentrification" of her historically rather cultured and unique neighborhood of Williamsburg (El Puente).

My role in this project is to build an online presentation "port" of sorts for the launch of her film complete with explanations of why she is building the film, call outs to community members involved, a presentation of the film trailer and other film related efforts.

It's a hoot. The content is top notch, with fantastic photography and text copy ... the film is stupendous and I believe in the gal's reasons for doing what she's doing.

So therefore, it's important for me to get it on public record that I'm building this lovely piece of work for my friend in NYC and that said work (as with all of my work to date) is done with nothing but an eye towards quality design and a respect and appreciation for my clients desires and property.

As we progress ... I might publish links to our finished site here at this blog but still haven't decided.

Helping Out a Friend

Lastly ...

I have a pal in California who was recently required to return to serving a two year prison sentence (drunkeness, etc.) after being previously let out on good behavior.

His being sent back to serve more time had to do with a recent "Proposition 9" which past a bit back out in California.

His case is the matter of some public concern as he had already been released on his on recognizance and because of some random bill passing, had to return.

Suffice it to say, he is taking up the fight with the appropriate representatives in California.

But myself?

He's asked that I maintain his MySpace page until he gets out, mostly as a means of him staying in weekly contact with his friends and family and to update everyone as to his ongoing circumstances.

I have, of course, agreed to assist him with this.

He has entrusted me with his MySpace log-in credintials and I am occasionally logging in to his account to make the changes to his MySpace blog which he mails me via letter every other week or so.

As with the site above ... I make this public only to say that I am honored to serve this role for a friend who has fallen on arguably unfair and hard times and my role as the care taker of his MySpace page is done, again, with the utmost respect to my friends desires and property.

Why Say All This?

Again, because wrongful incrimination around the use of computers has been one of the number one tools used by the investigators to attempt to bring *any* sort of lasting charge against me.

A charge that would absolutely prevent or restrict my use of computers and the internet.

And, a charge that would force myself into the "Mad Scientist's" play pen of curious prodding and poking that they've masturbated themselves into desiring over the years.

You can read more about the ultimate objectives of the investigation, here:

JBHFile.com: The Objectives of the Investigators.

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Otherwise ...

In the next week, I hope to be publishing a new JBHFile.com update email message. This being the regular (well, semi, anyway...) bit of update miscellania that I will send to friend and family and others on a semi-regularly maintained email list of sorts.

Until next time ...

Adios.

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The Black-Out Fantasy ...

2009-04-06T12:17:00.005-05:00

Early on in my publishing of data related to my circumstances ... I repeatedly made the point (in jbhfile.com, witness meetings, etc.) that primary among those goals of the investigators was to create the impression of my "supposedly" suffering from some sort of either biological or alcohol/drug induced memory loss and/or black-outs.

The investigators cherished this (and still do, I'm sure) as a goal as, coupled with the right incriminating evidence (stolen property, etc.), such an impression of memory dysfunction associated with my self would open wide the doors of psychological and historic investigation.

In other words, ... they would argue:

"Well, if he's having blackouts and is in possession so and so's property... and if he can't offer up any explanation for why said property is in his possession, then who knows what else he could have been doing while suffering from these bouts of memory loss? And so, we'd better be pretty thorough in doing some behavioral background work to make sure nothing more serious hasn't been committed by his hand."

That's exactly the sort of scenario the investigation has sought to create over the years.

They sought this much more violently and pervasively prior to my publishing of jbhfile.com, but even now, I know this to be one of the die-hard goals of the investigation. This is the very reason why, many years ago when I was first coming to understand what was going on around me, a close friend recommended I begin keeping a detailed and daily journal.

And if you think about it, some sort of fictitiously created image of myself as having memory dysfunction, coupled with an altogether damning incrimination circumstance, is about the only way the investigators could legally have mandate to what they are seeking: total and unrestricted privilege to involve me in whatever sort of "alternative sentencing", therapy environment they desire to involve me in. You can read more about the known goals of the investigation at jbhfile.com's section on that very topic.

Some Recent Wierdness

Recently, there's been a couple of events which have not only inspired the writing of this blog post but which also somewhat smack of the sorts of movements around myself that may or may not be related to the attempt to generate the impression of my somehow suffering from blackouts.

But before I get to describing these recent events, let me just say ...

It's no secret to my family or immediate friends that I enjoy drinking ale.

I also love vodka.

In fact, by far my favorite thing to do on the weekends is to spend time at my house listening to music and having some ales or enjoying a vodka tonic.

Booze is great ... within reason and all ... and as I said ... I enjoy imbibing from time to time.

That said ... I've never had what you'd call an alcoholic black out or anything even remotely related to such. Sure ... I've had mornings where the previous night was a bit foggy ... but certainly nothing where I didn't know where I had been or what I had done. And I damn sure have never woken up in a strange place or to find strange objects in my possession (oh, women's panties and the like) which I could not explain the aquiring of. That last bit was a bit of a jab at one of the past set ups that I believe the investigators wanted to involve me in ... ;-)

I think such an event would be rather easy to spot on one's historic time line as there would simply be a block of time when one could not account for one's self. Or even better ... some witness to the event, itself.

So anyway ... a couple weird events have occurred around my typical friend and family social circles which I think stand mentioning in light of the above black out/memory dysfunction topics.

Both events have to do with person's close to me noticing some aspect of their personal space and property had been tampered with. Both events are fairly benign, not involving anything criminal or dangerous or potentially either ... just a bit weird and unexplainable.

First, about two weeks ago, my roommate told me that when he went to bed (after I'd already crashed for the night) ... he had entered his room to find his "Sea Pap Machine" (for sleep apnea) removed from it's normal and customary spot on the lower shelf near his bed to, for some reason, be resting on the center of his bed with the motor running.

I of course told him I had no idea what that could have been about ... but it still registered in my mind as a possible thing worth keeping track of. Bottom line? He felt like somebody had entered his bedroom and turn the machine on and then removed it from the shelf to set it on his bed.

Just a strange thing ... but worth noting.

Secondly, just this morning (Mon), my mother calls me and asks if I had come to her house earlier this week. I said no, as I hadn't been down to her place in at least a month.

According to her, some point during the last week, while she was out of town and her husband was at work, somebody had entered her house and used her shower, leaving the towel on the toilet seat. Also, and this is really strange, she claims that a non functioning printer was now functioning and that the same person "fixed the printer" while they were there.

She seemed to believe it was me, even though I told her, no and that I'd been working all week or were otherwise at my house, saying, "they left the towel on the toilet like you always do and you know you always take showers when you come down here."

She then said, "The only other person it could have been was my husband ... but since he said it wasn't him, then he'd have had to have had a blackout or something ... and I'm not sure why that would happen."

Now it's true that during the summer months, when I use my mother's swimming pool, I will occasionally take a shower after getting out of the pool. But I certainly haven't been laying by the pool in this springs somewhat still chilly air ... and in fact, I haven't been to her house in that regard for nearly a couple years.

So the whole thing was just weird and sort of exceptional. Suffice it to say, my "spideysense" was triggered and therefore the authoring of this blog post.

But there the story ends.

I simply told her I hadn't been around and that they should get an alarm system.

So Why are These Two Events Worth Mentioning?

Because they are prime examples of what could, theoretically, be ongoing and subtle attempts to build a bread crumb trail of strange events that might or might not have been related to me (or any other person).

A string of events which, should some more damning and immediate set up of my person transpire, would look highly suspicious once any given historical investigation began.

But, as with so much of what I publish to this blog, they are only hypothetically investigation related and in no way am I making any factual claims.

The benefit of this sort of blog is that it allows me to instantly and regularly keep track of weird events such as have occurred over the past two weeks and should anything serious happen to me in the future, a real incrimination attempt, etc ... I'll at least have already publicized these wee events and thereby, hopefully, rob them of some of their mystery.

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Iatrogenic Wankers

2009-03-12T08:50:00.008-06:00

Now this is what I like to see.

Corrupt practitioners of healthcare being hauled before a judge; ahhhh, the sweetness of it!

Throughout the course of my publishing data associated with my ongoing efforts, I have been very clear in stating that the psychological wing of the investigative pool has had to fabricate supposed aspects of my behavior so as to allow me to neatly fit within the "profile" they wish to utilize in closing the investigation.

This is to say, for the sake of an investigative outcome that suits their personal preferences, an end which it could be said would either support or advance their personal careers ... the "scientific" folk running the behavioral science end of the investigation absolutely *NEED* me to exhibit certain sorts of questionable behavior.

In layman's terms, this could be called possessing a quality of being "iatrogenic," not a very common word but nevertheless a real one ...

The definition of iatrogenic: " iatrogenic: inadvertently caused by the diagnosis or treatment of a physician; or an erroneous diagnosis knowingly applied to an otherwise non-afflicted patient "

This simply means, any disorder, be it of mental or physical diagnosis, which is caused by, created by (either literally or fictitiously) by the health care provider/doctor.

Happens all the time, ya'll.

Houston was a host to one of the most famous cases of such barbarism created by one "Judith A. Peterson " at the infamous Spring Shadows Glen treatment center.

This particular whacko convinced a bunch of folks that they were victims of childhood abuse at the hands of a "satanic cult," ... all for her own personal gain and to prolong the stay (and therefore insurance payments) of the patients involved. Said patients went on to sue the fuck out of the whacko "doctor" but I believe she still practices.

Also, the likes of relatively (in comparison) minor abuses as cited in the opening of this post are more common than most folks expect.

But I would lean towards thinking that the most damaging, the most heinous of such iatrogenic actions committed by those "sworn to do no harm," would have to be those cases which directly impact and cast doubt on the functioning of a person's mind.

Once a person's mind is officially considered compromised ... then any further discrediting of any given personal efforts on a person's part becomes quite unnecessary as "he can't think straight anyway!," ... or ... "He's on all those meds and you know what they've said in the way of diagnosis, so ... who should we believe?"

As discussed in jbhfile.com ... my early efforts to prove an investigation of myself did nothing more than give those behind the investigation a very neat opportunity to discredit my efforts by claiming I was simply going bonkers, mentally ill, paranoid, etc.

Since I had made some pretty damning claims regarding certain of the investigation's tactics (covert overdosing on PCP, planting of evidence, spreading of rumors, out right set-ups), it was paramount then (and probably still) that the investigation never be publically revealed.

So they really hit the ground running with this "mental illness" angle some seven or eight years ago when I first began speaking out about what I was witnessing around me (albiet, a bit hysterically and in an unfocused manner).

My mentioned terror/hysteria did nothing but fuel the ongoing attempt to have me committed as a ward of the state, this ultimate goal being pushed very hard on my immediate family members by persons close to us who (at the time) worked for federal and local law enforcement entities.

I only turned the tide on the mental illness assault by taking a few steps back, refusing any and all further discussion of my ongoing events with psychiatric professionals (bad idea!) and especially by absolutely refusing psychoactive treatment via medications (even worse idea!).

That is also when I began deliberately and carefully publishing my story online at www.jbhfile.com and here at this blog ...

So I was not too sure how many of you out there had heard of the term, "iatrogenic." But I thought it would be a decent thing to mention here and the posted article, above is what got me going.

Iatrogenic.

The creation of an illness by the party supposedly diagnosing the illness. Generally, for the benefit of said party.

Pretty gruesome stuff ...

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Memory Dysfunction as a tool for incrimination...

2009-02-24T18:59:00.003-06:00

Something I haven't mentioned much in this simple little blog is the long known desire of the investigators to create the illusion of my having a propensity towards some sort of chronic memory dysfunction.

This desired effect would be created, of course, through some sort of set up ... the planting of physical evidence on my property ... or some other "background/covert" action that would at some point be used to make me look like somebody prone to blackouts or forgetfulness.

It's actually quite cliche' if you think about it but then again, if successful, it would be very effective towards allowing those behind the investigation to get what they want: Namely, the unrestricted right to "analyze"/explore or psychologically investigate any and everything they might be curious about regarding my person. And, for whatever court ordered period of time that they would end up being granted ...

Remember ... the ultimate goal of the behavioral science end of the investigation really just boils down to that: plain curiosity. As well as academic/professional and personal advance/gain ... but that's just creepy self seeking egoism and so I won't give it the credit of further mention here.

Not that I'm so fascinating ...

But without getting into details, the past 15 years of my life, if observed via an external party who happens to be associated with the Leading Ranks(tm) of Academic Psychological Hobbying(tm) ... as it certainly couldn't be called a science ... will definitely look intriguing and worth some sort of discussion.

But, I'm getting behind of myself ...

;-)

The point of this blog post is to publically reiterate the fact that so-called, memory dysfunction and even chronic (alcohol induced or otherwise) black outs are a very important tool in the hands of those who have been scheming to rearrange my life to suit their professional gain/wishes.

I don't experience such phenomenon (amnesia/black outs/etc.) ... even though I drink ... even though I Party Hard(tm) on occasion ...

It's just never happened.

But if you read some of my details on what the investigation ultimately wishes to acheive in so far as the rearranging of my life to suit thier need/gain ... then it should be easy to understand why this is an ongoing and number one desire of those behind the investigation ... and that is, to use as a tool against me. See Here: On Detonation Events

On Memory Dysfunction

This is reprinted from my main domain and website at www.jbhfile.com.

It's a few bits on how the ideas of forced incrimination around memory dysfunction remain as a very real and notable aspect of what the investigators have planned in so far as ultimate and false incrimination of myself.

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"By far the most provocative and important of lies (regarding personal biology/psychosis) pushed on communities by the investigators has been that I suffer from memory dysfunction. This idea, pushed via rumor and potentially backed up by false incrimination, is most important when considering one of the primary objectives of the investigation, unrestrained license for court ordered participation in psychiatric studies, especially discussion of past relationships and sexual experience from childhood (especially that, considering the Freudian skew of the entire thing) all the way up to current time.

To create the illusion (because I certainly suffer from no such disorder) of memory dysfunction, the agencies in question have resorted to a variety of methods:

The spreading of rumors that I suffer from chronic blackouts when consuming even small amounts of alcohol. This being a highly utilized myth as the agencies in question have found it quite easy to play upon the fact that I had a drug problem as a teenager and was even in AA for a number of years.
The agencies have also coordinated covert druggings, specifically employing drugs which are notorious for severe memory loss. For instance, I have been covertly drugged three times with Phencyclidine (PCP) in the past four years as a part of failed set up attempts; a bit of research on PCP will tell you that one of it's primary hallmark effects is amnesia and otherwise acute memory loss (not to mention symptoms near identical to classic clinical paranoid schizophrenia).
Various other possible causes of acute memory dysfunction have been cited or 'pushed' by the agencies, mostly to those persons acting as official informants, such as biological/disease factors also known to cause amnesia such as systemic lupus or even brain tumors.

The details of this sort of personal and public attack have been discussed at length with the various personal witnesses that I have met with over the past 3 years and will not be discussed publicly or on this site.

Suffice it to say, one of the main objectives of the investigation is to show a propensity for memory loss and any and all means of doing this are seen as legitimate means by the agencies behind the investigation.
Finally, the exact nature and circumstance of many of the attempted wrongful incrimination attempts against me have obviously included elements that, post a successful incrimination event, would seem to indicate propensity towards black outs or memory loss.

You can read more about wrongful incrimination attempts, here."

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Otherwise ... ??

Otherwise ... there's not much to say.

There are many areas of www.jbhfile.com wherein I discuss related and past thoughts on possible set up attempts which might desire to include the aspect of memory dysfunction.

I guess, in closing, I could list a few of those areas here; the following links will open a page at www.jbhfile.com which will further discuss the details of the mentioned article:

1. Memory Dysfunction - The Role of Past Covert Druggings

2. Memory Dysfunction - A Hypothetical Event Involving Home Invasion/Panty Stealing

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Otherwise ...

You all do continue enjoy life and reading weird shit like this blog.

Best.

.joel

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Be patient my adoring fans ...

2009-02-07T22:38:00.003-06:00

So I am hard at work drafting further and more detailed commentary regarding the last post...

The bit about being "pretty sure" and all ... the whole Teeny Bopper Showdown(tm) at the grocery store a couple weeks ago ...

But unlike my spur-o-the-moment post previously ... I need to spend some time seriously considering what I want/need to communicate regarding that incident, a bit of time re reading and editing ... before actually posting the follow up ...

So be patient ...

And in the mean time, please have a good time viewing the following video featuring an original song I wrote some years back which has *EVERYTHING* to do with the circumstances made public in this blog and my main website ...

It's called, "Even True Friends," and is mostly directed at the organizers of the ongoing assault on my person and especially those, so called, personal friends of mine who could have helped me neatly address/close these proceedings many years ago simply by publicly acknowledging their personal awareness of the investigation of myself ...

Enjoy.

(video content courtesy of www.archive.org and it's wonderful open source collection!)

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Pretty sure ...

2009-01-31T17:00:00.009-06:00

I'm pretty sure I was just stalked by a psycho-social "hit-squad," as I like to call them. This occurring just a half hour or so ago while I was shopping at my regular weekend grocery store ...

I'll write a proper article about this possible bit of public attention in a bit but for now, all I can say is: "Wow! ... were those little mexican teeny boppers beautiful!"

Actually ... one was more like a little girl and the other, I guess her sister ... was actually what any man would call beautiful (radiantly so, even); seventeen to eighteen years of age (or thereabouts) and just as cute as a button.

They were accompanied by a pretty rough looking older Mexican lady (I'd guess mom or grandma) ...

They all approached me head on as I entered H.E.B. ... I of course noticed them as they were looking right at me ... again ... quite the attractive young ladies ...

And as I'll discuss in my upcoming more detailed post ... just cause you notice someone is attractive (even what you'd call beautiful), no matter the age, it certainly doesn't mean your out to fuck them. LMAO!

In my humble estimation, this is where the whole pedophile hunting, psycho-gestapo operation has gone way afoul of reason ... and that is in their (what seems to me, mind you) reckless assumption that just because an adult man or woman might recognize human beauty in a younger person ... that that necessarily means he or she should be analyzed to the Nth degree and publicly lambasted as a threat to his/herself or others (much less a child!).

Much to the contrary ... I'd argue ... and I'm sure a few besides myself ... that such cognizance of human beauty, in an adult or child, is very healthy and even important.

I mean, really, sex doesn't even enter into such an equation ... why would it?

That would be like calling my Dad a pedophile for commenting on how attractive a young lady my little 11 year old niece is! Or another friend that's commented on how cute she is, saying something to the effect of, "Man, is that girl gonna be a dude magnet or what?"

I mean ... WTF?

It's a normal human process and it simply befuddles me (and somewhat amuses me) to no end to see so called "Academicians" out in the public, harassing normal folk with teeny bopper accomplices.

Again ... I quietly LMAO. And also ... again ... much more on the above musings in a bit.

;-)

Seriously though ... back to the possibility of the recent events being investigation related ...

Either I've been missing most of such antics, or this is the first of such in a long time! I mean ... psychosocial public probings, street theater and what have you (generally with an observing third party or in tandem with others in the area), is a classic and traditional form of psychological investigation. But it's only noticeable when the actors are bad and if you happen to know you've been the subject of an ongoing local investigation ... but that said ... I've not had any of my internal "flags" thrown in a good while ...

Anyway ...

It was quite a hoot ... real or imagined ... and I certainly had a good time at the grocery store today.

Though these sorts of things (again, more details later) are grossly and always merely hypothetical (on my speculative part) ... it's always fun if only because it gives me cause to write a bit ... and for me ... clicking away at keys, no matter the content, is hugely therapeutic.

And on the other hand ... there are actual and undeniable of such "public explorations" that have been made at my expense which have been witnessed by others and which are just too freakish to disregard as chance ...

See this bit describing a group of pre-teen girlies who literally and regularly were orchestrated to fuck with me when working in a particular neighborhood very near Rice University, here in Houston: Pre-Teen Assault Squad!!

Boy ... those were the days ...

;-)

More in a bit ...

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"They wanna steal your gear..." -- PART 2 !!

2009-01-28T20:19:00.002-06:00

So about three months ago ... when my area was almost universally subjected to power loss due to Hurricane Ike ...

I expressed my concern (as relayed to me by a certain other) that the fanatics behind the investigation of myself ... in oh-so-true, "lets just fuck with him" form ... were planning on taking the opportunity (our house being mostly deserted and all) to break in and steal my precious headphone listening gear and computer.

And so today ...

I arrived home after my typical 3 mile run around the neighborhood, to find a Houston Police cruiser outside of my neighbors house ... and quickly thereafter found that my immediate next-door neighbor, had had their home burglarized earlier today ... with all of their computer and audio equipment stolen ...

Well ... I figured it was time to re affirm what I had posted some months ago.

It may come as a surprise to some of you all out there (unless you've been through similar things as I ) that the number one way to randomly fuck with a person ... and even more frequently, to covertly install surveillance equipment ... is via a home break in.

In this case ... I'm positive (if it actually transpires) that it's not about installing surveillance equipment ...

My private life is rather innocuous and unassuming as such go and they've already gathered all the more provocative surviellance footage they need from many years back ... and so, my hunch is that the installation of surviellance equipment has nothing to do with anything at this point and regarding possible home invasions.

But more so ... the reason for such an invasion would be (quite like a child stealing another kids ice cream on the playground) to remove the few things I've worked very hard to acquire over the past three years and which represent, pretty much, my only and ongoing outlet in the way of personal and, arguably, simple sensual pleasure ...

Namely, ... about $6000 dollars worth of headphone listening equipment ... DACs, amps and headphones and the computer which runs them ... all of which are sitting in my bedroom unused during any given day when I'm at work.

Pay careful attention to my analogy of a child stealing another child's ice cream ... because that is *exactly* the (emotional) purpose of such an invasion of my property were it to take place ...

The investigators (and their politically aligned controllers) know that they can't go through with any of the many and long standing desires to incarcerate or otherwise, "set me up" according to their original efforts/desires ... and so, at this point, the idea is simply to cause duress or discomfort ... and as with any good operation based on the sorts of directives found in such works as "The Art of War" or otherwise ... the point is to simply and constantly erode a person's comfort. Slowly, in quick and rapid bursts ... or otherwise ... but continuously is the predominant requirement (think "Chinese water torture", etc. ;-)

In this case ... since my only weekly routine/habit in regards to personal pleasure and "alone time" most certainly revolves around critical audio listening ... along with the fairly expensive gear necessary for such pursuits ... then it only stands to reason that the strike against my person most concerned with simple discomfort would be the forceful removal of such hard-won items.

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So yeah ...

Today I discovered, via direct conversation, that my neighbors home was burglarized.

The offending party took their TV's, computers and even the home owners guns.

Sure, it happens every day and far too often in our world.

But ... if it goes down ... if this "supposed rash of neighborhood theft" does indeed find itself removing my cherished computer and audio gear ...

Well then, ...

On one hand, I'll be vindicated ... I mean ... I've been broadcasting the possibilities of such events actually transpiring for quite a while now. And were they actually too transpire? Well ... it would be up to the observing parties to decide ... but I think the statistics would sway towars my end being the most true and correct.

And on the other hand ...

Should all my gear get jacked ...

Well then I'll simply have a bunch of work and sweat and toil to see through in the name of replacing it with even better equipment.

(NyAAA!) <- childlike warrants childlike, yes? It's only gear ... and no, I don't make a lot of money and so it has been hard won ... but in the end? It's just gear and not a heart or a soul or my breath ...

And so ...

So easily and enjoyable replaced.

(SMOOCH! , FuCKERS!)

...

BTW:

Here's a re post of my much earlier and original blog post regarding such concerns:

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** ORIGINALLY POSTED ON SEPTEMBER 16, 2008!! **

So this just recently in from a person who has several times in the past confided in me their awareness of the investigation of myself.

Seems, being angered by my flagrant and granted, somewhat jubilant earlier post regarding "Two of My Fav Idiots," those behind the investigation are going back to their old ways in the sense of simply wanting to demoralize me or otherwise, bring about emotional duress through blatant invasive actions against myself and/or my property.

In essence, as with the long ago attempt to make it look like I was hacking my most favorite websites, the point here is to strike at what I most love, to not only insult but to degrade through deft and personal "twists of the knife," so to speak.

Lets Bag His Computer and Hi-fi Gear!

So according to this contact, while having tap water and crackers the other day (we're sort of recovering from a Hurricane around these parts) ... it was conveyed to me that the investigators were growing a bit miffed that not only have I maintained my soveriegnty throughout the past six years but that I've also developed a very neat and consistent way to publish the facts of my ongoing efforts, IE> personal computer combined with my personal website, www.jbhfile.com and this blog.

Furthermore, they seem to be increasingly vexed that I've developed personal hobbies that are truly enjoyable to me (though, admittedly quite expensive to pursue): I'm of course talking about my before referenced headphone listening gear which, literally has cost me over $2500.00 to piece together.

So as with the very old but not forgotten early attacks on my person (theft of household, multiple and continuous thefts/break-ins of vehicle, etc.), the investigators seem to be devolving back into their more infantile mode of operation where they feel that simply lashing out and causing the most emotional duress is their only recourse towards feeling "powerful," or "in control" of the proceedings of the investigation.

I mean to say hear that according to certain "whispers on the wind," of late ... certain rumors from very reliable old friends around my community ... the desire is to at some point burglarize my home and target, specifically, my home computing equipment and especially my audio gear, both of which I use many times over on a daily basis.

This became pertinent at this time I believe simply because the Hurricane, with it's prolonged effect of loss of power to my area, offers those who would see to such heinous actions a unique opportunity as alarm systems are down and there are generally no lights at night.

My Intentions as of Now?

My intentions as of this writing are to simply go on with my life.

I'm not so much of a Lockean freak as to be bothered long by the loss of some of my dear (but in the end) not too important personal property.

Computers can be replaced.

It takes only the simplest of computers to publish to my various efforts online and so I'm not too worried about being disconnected from those (most important) of responsibilities.

My hi-fi gear is a gratuitous luxury.

I enjoy it immensely and have worked like a devil to afford it but bottom line? It's not important to my overall well being.

So if they go through with it, I'll be just fine.

I'll also be a bit vindicated as I have this post warning in advance that it might occur and it will therefore be yet another feather in the "cap of my credibility.

...

Besides as I go about things in a most mature and respectable manner (for the most part) ... publishing what truths and even "hints of possible truths" that I can ...

And while the proverbial They(tm) sink back further into their well known tendency towards infantile, childish and agressive tactics ...

I can only think that, again, my credibility is even that much more appreciated.

...

That said.

I pray we get power back soon!

Best.

.jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Not an Activist...

2009-01-22T14:50:00.003-06:00

So I got an email from one of the person's who has contacted me locally due to having read my main website, jbhfile.com ...

For what it's worth ... and no offense to said person ... I'm certainly not even slightly interested in meeting anyone local to me who claims to be a gang stalking victim (color me anti-social ... but the thought sort of creeps me out).

Anyway ... I have a nice and trustworthy set of friends who I care for and whom I'm happy knowing; in general, I'm not out to gain more friends and nor do I seek out shoulders to cry on (those slots are full) ;-)

So if your thinking about contacting me ... feel free ... I might even reply ... but for gods sake don't invite me over or give me your phone number.

;-)

But anyway ...

I thought it might be interesting to post my response to this latest invite/hail as it further solidifies my point made throughout jbhfile.com and this blog that the basis of my ongoing circumstances is rooted in a normal old real world so called, "criminal investigation" of myself ...

Anyway ... here's a transcript of our dialogue ... I'll start with my reply ... the original message (sans personal info) will follow:

-----Original Message-----
From: jbh@jbhfile.com
Sent: Wednesday, January 21, 2009 12:55 PM
To: Anonymouse@anon.com

Subject: Not an Activist

I appreciate the candor but I'm not at all interested in networking or otherwise backing a common cause.

I am not a "gang stalking activist" and nor do I wish to be. My efforts with my site and blog are 100% selfish and geared towards the maintenance of my own well being and legal protection ... and, towards that goal, have been successful for well nigh six years.

Please understand ... I don't mean to be rude ...

But, unlike many of the more ephemeral, so-called "TI's" and what not ... who have no real and publicly acknowledged reason for the attention to themselves (other than the many and winded hypotheticals) ... I am, myself, simply the subject of a rotten and ego driven federal investigation related to computer hacking, supposed pedophilia and pirated software (among other contrived things) ...

The bits about pirated software and computer hacking have some very real world origins in certain of my past social relations and technical projects ... you'd have to study jbhfile.com to read about them. Suffice it to say ... I was involved with the most prominent of computer hacker circles in Houston back in the day ... many of my friends went to federal prison for such practices ... and again ... it's all on my site.

That said ...

Gang stalking, something I do recognize as a real and horrible phenomenon, has simply been a *TACTIC* used by the investigators to further their goals of seeing an end to things that will justify their efforts over the years.

As discussed in my site ... my family is one painful degree away from some of the most powerful and egotistical (and very very bored) politicians and federal authorities in Houston. Said connections have very much so played into the ongoing drama of course ... and certain of these old farts are still playfully resigned (biding their time and all) to see things through in a way that will please them.

My efforts with jbhfile.com and my blog are simply in the name of legal protection and not meant to necessarily support any movement or concerted effort among similar cases to, "prop one another up." Though I must say ... as the resources section of my site makes clear enough ... I am absolutely sympathetic to the life threatening psychological damage that such circumstances can cause and I've tried to make my own "touchstones" along the way, public.

Once more ...

I appreciate your words but I'm quite happy with my social and (semi) professioanal life; though my opportunities in the software design/computing arena have been all but permanently destroyed, I still stay happily employed at various other fun and semi-worthwhile pursuits; my family is close to me and despite thinking my ramblings are manifestations of mental illness (god bless them, they all take some form of anti-depressant), are nonetheless supportive.

Any sort of ongoing psycho-social and public probings (street theatre/etc.) are simply fun to observe at this point and cause me no real unrest (psychologists and those seeking scientific noteriety/fame are nearly as notable for their disgusting egos as are the aforementioned politicians) ...

And further, the phsycially damaging aspects of my circumstances, covert druggins, etc. ... ceased altogether a few years back after involving certain of my long time, older and publicly influential friends in my efforts ... and I mean, specifically, those sorts of friends who have acted as informants to what they thought, at one time, was a legitimately concerned investigation (or were made to believe such) ... but yet who digressed from involvement once they became aware that things like covert druggins were going on. Thankfully, such persons were in a position to say, "You stop this sort of thing, or I'll back him up in his FOIPA requests ..." <-- which would be a real mess for people who, by habit, are rigidly careful not to get to much of a mess on their public selves .... ;-)

So again .

Thanks and good luck.

.joel

-----Original Message-----
From: anonymous [mailto:anonymous@anon.com]
Sent: Wednesday, January 21, 2009 12:55 PM
To: jbh@jbhfile.com
Cc: jbh@jbhfile.com
Subject:

Hello. So my site has grown in terms of making connections with others who have been targeted. One particular connection is a lawyer who has been targeted for several years and we got to talking about real world meetings and the need for this type of leveraging of our numbers. With this in mind I started a forums section ...(content removed to protect identity)... one goal being to discuss some protocol for people to be able to feel safe about connecting with others in, again, real world settings...along with a general goal of providing relatively safe place where targeted folks can share their experiecnes and connect with each other. I've found a lot of inspiration and community in the online world, but I think that to provide solid support and strengths sharing meetings are the way to go. Honestly, I'm still a bit close('for comfort') to the latest larger stalking events to be extremely comfortable with something like hosting such a meeting, but am taking the lead and helpful safety suggestions of this contact who is willing to host such a meeting at his home...I can see myself getting there, though not at my home, finding a community venue of some sort. (too many break-ins and tampering to want to invite making my home even more of a target)

Just thought I'd try to connect with you again seeing that your site was the first one I came across that related experiences similar to my own, and on top of that we happen to live in the same city. I've found trust to be an entirely new creature over the last couple of years than it had been most of my life, but I've always been adventurous regardless of variations in fear experiences, etc. Maybe you'd consider online/phone talking and/or meeting up at some point. I'd love to hear more of your experiences (and share mine) if that sounds good to you. You can check out my site to read more about me and my experiences. ...(content removed to protect identity)...

In other news--
I recently got to meet probably the one music/poetry influence I'd most like to... a few weeks ago and thanked him for his awareness and attention to covert methods of manipulation... to which he responded something like 'how did you know I was gang stalked?' --it seems he doesn't want to connect this with the more public persona / works. Of couse I hadn't known, but the energies I picked up on in the music and the lyrics described to me experiences that resonated so closely with my own experiences... I knew he was into awareness of covert control and such, yet I was surprised to discover that none of the other connections were just my own /in my head, he had actually had similar experiences to my own. Since this wonderful synchronicity (it truly felt like a reward after the hell of the last few years, especially considering there was some stalker-critters at the show when there hadn't been any activity for 3 months) I've been experiencing some bursts of creativity and success in connecting with others regarding progressing through the BS known as gang stalking. I do my best to keep my spirits up, but it takes a fun, good coincidence like that to see how good it is to find community, someone else who knows what my experiences are like, etc.

...(content removed to protect identity)...

Anyway, if you want to talk sometime shoot me an email or give me a call if you like ...(content removed to protect identity).... My name is ...(content removed to protect identity)... I live with my cat, hamster and boyfriend, ...(content removed to protect identity)... I guess that's about it for now. Maybe I'll hear back from you. Either way, I hope you're well and things are going alright in your life.

"Anonymous"

Psychosocial methods and Law Enforcement

2008-11-28T18:05:00.002-06:00

This is a transcript of a good discussion I recently had with an online acquaintence regarding jbhfile.com and it's inclusion of certain law enforcement entities as persons behind certain aspects of what I have come to define as ongoing harassment or even psychological torture.

I'm posting it as an article simply because it's a doorway to some important questions regarding psychologically directed investigations, methods, ethics, etc. ..

[jbh]

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from: Anonymous
date: 6/15/2006
subject: Concerns ...
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"I think that because of the prominence of the FBI in your story and website that I would like to receive copies of your correspondence with them, and especially that which they sent to you. Also any contact or correspondence you might have had with a law enforcement accountability entity (organization, attorney who handles these, etc.) regarding your situation.

I will probably start requesting this and other information of all posting members who have the FBI or law enforcement as a major part of their story.

...

For all my frustration with the FBI under the current administration, I think they are not involved with the stalking groups. I am open to having my mind changed, but I want to hear more substantiation. I also think that if we are to have this crime taken seriously, we have to stop publishing unsubstantiated allegations against law enforcement.

If your main harassers are law enforcement, you need to contact a police accountability organization or advocate with your allegations, rather than relying on forums. Police harassment can be stopped a lot more easily than gang stalking can.

I am not saying that your claims are fictional, unsubstantiated, or undertaken for malevolent purposes, but they are prominent in your story and that is why I would be interested in seeing your FIOPA or other relevant correspondence from law enforcement and accountability sources regarding this."

Take care, "anonymous"

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I reply:
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Hi there ..

Was thinking more about your comments and wanted to add a few more bits ...

What you say is such valuable information as, having done a cursory re read of certain sections of jbhfile i agree that it does, at times, clearly come across that i include the fbi and otherwise police authorities in some of the stalking tactics, primarily the street theatre and other psycho-social funny bizness that i see so often in various of my social settings.

It certainly reads that way ...

Other than realizing I need to fine tune certain sections so as to not seem vehement at the agencies or otherwise 'out to get' them ... I will certainly leave in the majority of the claims made that these agencies, and especially the behavioral science wings of such agencies, which have been some of the primary architects of the social dramas and ongoing street theater studies.

And, the funny thing is ... I believe they, in normal practice and as a part of truly attempting to divine the details of a person who is psycho-criminally (made that up) a genuine public concern, are perfectly entitled to use psycho-social theatrics as a means of learning more about a subject.

I would say even, that such methods in psychology and behavioral science are commonplace and traditional.

But ... that said ... the hitch is this ...

Are the target subjects witting or unwitting to the ongoing study?

Are the subjects aware of the so called claims made against their person which have resulted in their becoming the subject of public and social psychological study?

And perhaps most importantly here, are such subjects allowed to personally confront such claims and concerns once he or she is thusly aware of them?

If a person is blindly unconscious of the attention ... has no awareness of being the subject of an investigation or psychological study and if such study involves just normal social interaction/dramas played out along specific input/feedback models (they say/do, "this" and observe for reaction, "that", etc.), then I feel no harm could feasibly come to the subject.

And as well, at least some valuable data might be gained from the street theatre as the subject would be acting/reacting in a 100% genuine and natural fashion, totally unaffected by any stress or nervous trauma that would naturally arise out the awareness of being a subject.

However, if a subject like myself, who has been aware of the investigation/study, who has others close to him that have confirmed they're own involvement in the investigation, who is subjected to the same psycho-social scripts and routines every week and who has worked, literally, for well nigh six years to confront those behind the investigation ... when such a person as that is the subject ... then it could theoretically be argued that torture of a sort is occurring, or at least that the otherwise benign and traditional methods of psychologically investigating a social subject have met with conditions that make the study no longer ethical.

(You can quote me on this next bit ...)

No scientifically valuable data can be gained from a subject who is acutely aware of the nature, subject matter and ongoing methods of the psychosocial procedures employed in an experimental fashion against him/her.

Especially considering that this person/subject is acting/reacting while suffering what could be thought of as genuine and ongoing posttraumatic stress.

So, just looking at the types of stalking that could include street theatre or other psycho-social dramas, street theatre, neuro linguistic word play, action/ reaction scenarios, etc. ... I think one could argue that federal and local authorities, in many cases, are or could be involved in the harassing of a TI.

Of course, in many of such cases it involves a real and documented criminal investigation and so the agencies have every right to use such non-invasive methods on unwitting subjects.

Otherwise, regarding some of the other experiences I have had ... covert druggings, car vandalizations, rumor and slander, etc ... I seriously doubt that any authorities are behind such antics and would more likely attribute it to what happens in communities when certain types of rumors get out of control.

So, as said, thanks so much for the outsider's perspective on jbhfile.com; I get blinded to what it's saying at times as I'm so close to the thing.

Also, if you read more, feel free to offer more criticism and other constructive remarks.
Take it easy.

jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Songwriting ...

2008-11-12T20:48:00.005-06:00

As I've mentioned on occasion in jbhfile.com ...

I've been a homebrew songwriter of sorts for a couple decades now.

Over the past six years, much of the content I generate has obviously incorporated some of the more stressing circumstances that I discuss in jbhfile.com and some has not.

Also, in the 90's, I was a member of a couple different local Houston bands ... one that played very loud, very heavy (sort of Black Sabbath type) rock music and one that leaned more so towards the folk/alternative country scene (think Son Volt, Uncle Tupelo, Joe Pernice, etc.).

Anyway ...

Just this past weekend I figured out a way to embed a nifty little MP3 player/jukebox in my various webpages and thought I'd post it here as well.

BTW: I publish songs under the pseudonym, "The Gods of Victory," (aka G.0.V.) ... a name I've always liked but which none of my old band mates were too fond of.

Listen at your own risk ...

;-)

...

Bye.

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Email to a friend ...

2008-11-12T20:03:00.006-06:00

So this is a recent email reply that I sent to a local Houston, friend.

The friends originating email was an in general comment about a recent addition I made to my ongoing youtube video project entitled "The Insomniac Series(tm)" ...

The Insomniac Series is simple, random and for the most part, un choreographed video content that I've collected over the past 20 years. I chose stuff, like I said, at random and set it to music I like (or music that I've made) ... and publish it to YouTube under the above mentioned series title.

The Latest Installment

The latest installment to The Insomniac Series is somewhat special in that it features content related to myself and a certain past flame (girlfriend).

It's special in the context of my efforts with jbhfile.com and this blog because central to the ongoing efforts of those persons behind the investigation of me has been a very real and damaging rumor campaign that I'm a stalker(tm), or otherwise some Repressed Male(tm) fitting the classic pathological profile of One Who Could Possibly Go Violent in the Future(tm).

All very cliche' and ridiculous and desperate (especially considering the fact that up until the actions against my person began, I was generally always involved in some sort of romantic liaison) ;-)

So considering that (and I'll discuss the above mentioned claims of the investigators a bit more below) ... this particular video posting is exceptional.

Truth is ... again ... it's just random content ... no messages being sent (well, not totally true) and otherwise, it's simply a bit of lovely content that I thought went well to the chosen music.

Here's the bit I discuss:

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...

As an aside ... I worked really hard to make that Digital Video footage look somewhat like old film reel footage.

Came out quite nice if I do say so my own self.

An Email to a Friend

So today I get an email from a local friend (who is aware of my efforts with jbhfile.com) and he was expressing a bit of concern that such content as that might still be "tough" or difficult in some emotional way.

Which I immediately thought sort of strange as it certainly is not ...

But in my reply to this local friend (transcribed below) ... I found a good opportunity to convey some of the more harmful tactics used by the investigators back when they were tearing apart my local and long standing (now all but utterly non-existent) social circles of that period (1998/99/2000) when the gang stalking and rumor mill operations were first begun.

I thought it worth posting here as ongoing word of just how insane and desperate some of the investigators claims regarding my behaviour were and are.

Here's the email as sent back to my friend today:

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RE: "Must be Tough"

Not tough at all, really.

She was cool. Just an old flame.

BTW: She's one of the primary ex's that the whackos running the
investigation of me have generated local/social rumor campaigns around.

They propogated such lies on a near fanatical basis back in the early
days...

You'd have to read the site ... but in general they were claims that
I'm a stalker, classic obsessive ex boyfriend type and that I exhibit
any other 'text book' sort of curiously/possibly aberrant behavior
which generally always has an argumentative track leading to the
eventual and possible escalation to violence ...

I'm sure you know the popular profile of the classicly and supposedly repressed male.

Well, that's what they went for hard core ... and via 100% manufactured lies and mass saturation of old social circles with such (mind you, this all was going down six years ago or so ...) ...

I primarily made the video to fuck with the persons locally who have
organized the actions against me discussed in jbhfile.com, something
probably not too smart (powerful egos tend to hold a grudge which can be dangerous to those of us who playfully provoke) but it feels a bit nice ... ;-) ... also, the content went well with that leonard cohen bit ...

According to close friends of mine from those circles long ago, they
even generated fake notes and otherwise gifts that were delivered to
such persons (like the silly little necklaces I used to make) ... all
to bolster the supposed social view of myself as some sort of
obsessive ex boyfriend stalker type ... totally freaky shit, man.
Almost worked too ... but publishing my stuff has helped a great deal.

I discuss those early attacks on my person to great extent in
jbhfile.com (it really is a books worth of content). And truly such
possibilities don't alarm or disarm me anymore cause if they went
through with anything like that, they'd look pretty suspicious since
I've already outed their intentions so thoroughly in my site(s) as
well as vocally with many family members and friends (I have an
ongoing, face to face witness group who receive verbal
updates/testimony from me about every six months).

It's really the same premise we use in the organization when we get
early word of something and then organize a mass bit of public motion to defeat it before it can happen (think Bloomberg, Social Security, the various and ongoing threats of new wars).

As per your earlier comment regarding the tracking down of your old
friend ... it really is sort of empowering to properly utilize the
intelligence work/methods that are central to our work.

It's just hard as hell perfecting them.

;-)

Anyway ...

Have fun.

...

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Random and sensual social fun!

2008-10-26T13:00:00.008-06:00

So after waiting a mad two months or so ...

I finally got to attend the first official Houston Head-fi.org "meet" yesterday.

This is something that myself and a fellow head-fier decided to organize, starting about three months ago (really, he did all the work and he also had the money to put up for the rental space)

Anyway.

Boy howdy was it a fucking hoot!

I swear. If your not into the high end headphone/amp scene already ...

Do yourself a favor and STAY AWAY FROM IT!! LMAO.

It will consume any and all of your excess money. It will quite possibly wreck your home and or marriage and it will devour your mind with it's incessant and constant need for ever more minuscule improvements in sonics.

Oh but it's a fucking hoot. I love it ...

Anyway ... I was proud to be able to demo my own humble equipment at the meet, an MHDT Havana DAC ($900.00), Grado RS1 Headphones ($750.00) and a Stello HP100 headphone amplifier ($600.00).

The prices are listed there to indicate that my system was among the least expensive there and not so much to brag. :-)

Compared to some of the other attendees set ups, though ...

Mine is just a drop in the proverbial head-fi bucket ...

Electrostatic "STAX" systems (at left) will curl your toes with their unbelievably detailed and spatious sound reproduction. That's about a four thousand dollar setup there.

Anyway ...

Met a bunch of nice folks and can't wait for the next one.

Here's me trying to figure out how to get the money for my next upgrade:

...

Really ...

It's worse than crack.

:-)

FOIPA Law loopholes....

2008-10-19T14:40:00.002-05:00

My most recent reply from the U.S. Department of Justice.

Positively *dripping* with irony if you consider the run around I've been submitted too from the FBI Houston Field Office:

Yes.

As a certain dear friend once said ...

"The Thot Plickens!"

:-)

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A lovely little film about bullying, love, vampires and revenge.

2008-10-17T18:06:00.026-05:00

I'm a sucker for well made films.

And even more so when it comes to well made vampire films (which are really few and far between).

As a respectable and quite literate friend of mine once said:

"Vampires can be rather interesting literary material as, properly portrayed, they become very complex and troubled characters that can be used to explore some serious and meaningful subject matter."

And even though there hasn't been a truly engaging vamp film since Bram Stoker's take on things (which I found fairly decent but not great) and "Interview with..." (which I also liked but less than the more classic and complex Bram's bit) ...there nonetheless appears to be hope on the horizon in what seems to be somewhat of a unanimously acclaimed gem of a film (unanimous among reviewers).

It's called, strangely enough, "Let the Right One In"

The title of the movie is actually culled from an old Smith's/Morrissey song entitled, "Let the right one slip in" (you do the research) ... and is quite appropriate to the cinematic content once you understand the context of that lyrical bit (and certain of old lores regarding vampires).

And as movies go ... especially those that attempt to explore some humanist landscapes... (and even though I haven't seen it yet) ... I'm pretty sure I already love it.

I mean, the subject of bullying, though not necessarily central to my own legal efforts and circumstances, is, nonetheless very much akin to the tactic model of gang stalking and/or persecution in general.

So I'm quite interested to see how this quirky little drama about adolescent love, trust, bullying and revenge, and of all things, a 200 year old little girl vampire ... could possibly turn out.

...

Here's the official trailer:

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Fairly interesting and arresting possibilities there, huh?

:-)

Anyway ... here's a decent review. There's lots of static online and in the film scene about this so I'd encourage you to do some searching of your own, but this one is decent:

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A few choice (well chosen) comments from, Mari Sasano @ www.canada.com:

"The trope of the lonely, bullied sensitive kid that somehow turns that experience into a wonderful adulthood is a romantic idea. But it's not as simple as that. Being the victim of bullying or violence does not automatically teach someone to be kind. In fact, it's usually the opposite: kids who experience violence usually learn violence.

But there is an escape from this cycle -- the loving guidance of family or friends. The Swedish film, "Let the Right One In," balances on the edge of love and violence, and it's not clear if we always get out safely.

It's in this context that we meet Oskar (Kare Hedebrant), a pale wisp of a 12-year-old boy living largely unsupervised in an ugly lower-middle-class apartment complex. His parents are divorced. At school, he is psychologically and physically bullied. The only time he appears happy is exploring the countryside with his dad, or spending time alone studying forensics.

It seems to be a strange hobby for a kid, but in spite of his passivity, it's obvious that he harbours a great deal of anger. While acting out one of his violent scenarios in the playground, he meets Eli (Lina Leandersson), a strange girl who has just moved into the apartment next door. Even though it's winter, she doesn't wear a coat, or even shoes. She smells odd, and there is something not quite right about her father, Hakan (Per Ragnar). In fact, upon their arrival, there begins a strange series of unexplained murders. We learn soon enough that Eli's father or guardian (the relationship is not clear) has been committing these crimes, apparently at Eli's request. She's a vampire. But even though her life depends on inhuman violence, she is still a girl at heart. The isolation is hard on her, and she feels a deep sadness about missing simple human contact and social pleasures like birthday presents.

In Oskar, she finds a friend, and he welcomes a kindred spirit -- he, too, lives in violence. "You have to hit back. Hard," she counsels him, and she should know. They are two sides of the same coin, even visually: Oskar is blond to the point of being colourless, while Eli is dark-haired with huge blue eyes, and her skin often blood-spattered.

Oskar and Eli need each other, and are loyal and tender with each other in a way that no one else is. They fall into a non-sexual, innocent love, probably for the last time in Oskar's life before he grows up. Unfortunately, it's hinted at that Eli has gone through this dynamic before: was Hakan once Eli's childhood love?

Let the Right One In is a strange movie: a Swedish vampire coming-of-age story. But instead of being sentimental, it asks some tough, adult questions, not just about the circulation of violence, but also about the complexities of children's emotional lives and the difficulty of emerging sexuality. It is sweet, and horrifying."

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And, just for kicks. Here's a few more quotes from reputable psych/horror thriller review sources:

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Opens in the US on October 28th!!

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http://www.lettherightoneinmovie.com

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Can't wait.

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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2008-10-12T05:29:00.005-05:00

(email to a friend; transcribed here for posterity, if nothing else)

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I had a birthday recently.

With cake and beer and seclusion ...

I quietly celebrated my personal ninth year of being under the rather stark and alienating lens of local and federal authorities' concern ... (the most horrible of accusations, btw) ... with everything that such singular honor attributes.

;-)

And while certain folks have chosen to call me paranoid and mentally ill ...

All the while knowing the truth of things ...

(and even a few that have stolen from me)

I have, nonetheless, persevered.

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Just wanting to say hello to someone who counts.

I'll be wanting to meet with you some time in the next few months.

You've been a big help over the past few years.

And, I've enjoyed and benefited from our past meetings.

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Anyway ...

The point of all this drama:

Here's a recent little video I made (including an original song recording) that I have officially dedicated to all my most cherished friends. It's especially dedicated to you and "xxxx".

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Enjoy!

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(SMOOCH!)

;-)

Necessary P.S.A. regarding MySpace usage

2008-10-09T18:20:00.006-05:00

It's true.

In so many ways I find the abomination that is myspace.com to be disgusting.

It just reeks of non-existence on so many levels.

I'm of course speaking of the somewhat deleterious affect it has had on the very young.

The way it can lead certain types of personalities to believe that such communities can be viewed as truly social. The dangerous opportunity it allows said types of persons to slip off into a state of nonsensical and often times injurious fantasy.

Said plainly, I'm of the opinion that, for many folks, as opposed to being social at all ... rather, it becomes a hugely anti-social escape from reality.

I mean, portraying yourself as you'd prefer to be seen as opposed to how and who you really are, etc.

Glamorizing.

Pretend movie stars.

And worse.

But I took out a page anyway....

Mostly to make fun of myspace.

My main page heading reads "Myspace sucks uber ass."

And it's true, I think, for the most part, it's quite tripish and inane.

That said ...

Every one of my family members, both close and distant, have had a page for several years.

And, they use it well I would say: My mom (to talk to her cousins a couple times a month): my sisters (to network for their art/cosmetic/modeling careers); my brother (sadly, to get dates and talk to his old friends) (fuck you, BRO!) :-) .

Point being ... they've all got fairly healthy daily social lives and their activity on myspace, brief as it may be, has an actual personal intention behind it other than escaping from something.

They've also pretty much begged me to get a page of my own.

This, simply, so as to send them gay little messages and videos and what not. Something we do anyway via phone and in person on a daily basis. I mean ... we're a close family ... having daily and weekly contact with each other. I mean both my parents and my brother and sisters.

So thinking I could kill two birds with one stone (equal parts venom + love), I took out a page and decided to use it solely to post my original music and some of my video work ...

Between bouts of cursing at myspace.com that is.

;-)

Actually met some decent folk ...

And what I've found is that there are a few decent folks who host pages on myspace.

Mostly old friends of mine who are above 30 and hold down daily jobs, have vital and active and real social lives,etc.

I've also met and been hailed by similar folks from bands and otherwise (many from other cities) who just happen to share my personal affinity for certain types of music.

We've actually hit it off fairly well. Men and women alike.

I've actually found such daily interaction, brief as it is and shall remain, to be rather fun.

I've also enjoyed making fun of myspace, it's more glaringly disgusting qualities that is, very very much.

How does this intersect my efforts with jbhfile.com?

First, and foremost ... it opens the door for future set up attempts against my person which might be created to force the impression of stalking or otherwise.

Even those born yesterday have probably heard the terrible side of online communities which is there undeniable proclivity towards allowing stalkers, pedophiles and otherwise sexually demented (or, just lonely) persons the opportunity to obtain new targets.

It's as notorious of an online problem as is pirated software.

That said, there are certain of those I have met from myspace whom I have forged real and physical ties with ...

Person's who have forwarded their mailing address so as to exchange musical mix tapes, etc.

Person's who might have sent me a phone number so as to better confirm the mailing of a package, etc.

Men and women alike.

These persons include those I've known from my Houston social circles and some whose acquaintance was originated wholly on myspace.com and who may or may not live in cities/states other than my own.

Why post this bit, now?

I haven't heard anything from my long standing friends regarding possible misuse of the above stated situation.

Those who have confinded in me their past knowledge of possible nefarious actions against myself have said nothing, as of yet, regarding such possible attacks.

I'd hope that such never happens.

But I'm still typing this brief and boring bit so as to preemptively head off what, to my mind, and knowing what I know regarding those organizing the winded investigation of myself, could become a very big juicy temptation to them in the way of falsely incriminating myself.

Pardon that run on. Couldn't be helped.

Say for instance, one of the persons (most likely a woman since I'm notoriously hetero) I have interacted with on a physical/mailing basis suddenly finds her cel phone receiving random and unsavory (or even mysterious) regular calls?

What if said calls escalated into something local authorities could describe as problematic or worrisome?

What if said calls were then traced to my cell phone?

The rest should be easy enough to play out.

Just hypothetical, of course ... but necessary since I for one have a unique understanding and knowledge of digital cel phones (courtesy of my many years administering a local computer hacking and phone phreaking group/bbs).

Trust me.

One does not have to physically dial the number one's self to actually make a phone call on his or her cel phone. It can be done quite easily in a remote capacity and by a third party, allowing that said third party has access to the appropriate information.

This same fact holds true for household phones that are a part of a digital network.

Digital phones (having the right knowledge) are *CAKE* to manipulate remotely.

Each and every one of you reading this who are digital cel phone owners, no matter your network or plan or phone, are proud owners of perhaps the most ingenious and effective remote listening/remotely controllable surveillance device ever crafted.

The magnitude of just how effective of a surveillance device the common digital cel phone is is simply staggering.

Any cel phone can be remotely dialed and cued to auto answer without ever giving any indication of such usage to the owner of the cel phone: no lights, no ringing, no vibration, etc. Just a sudden and unheralded and instant audio connection to the phone owner.

Furthermore, any cel phone can be remotely directed to call another phone number; again, without any indication of such usage: no lights, no ringing, no vibration, etc.

And even furthermore (and way more accessible to the average joe) ... there are types of phones that can be used to dial other phones while transmitting any sort of custom manipulated originating caller number and caller ID information (the commonest form of such a device would be the somewhat popular "internet phone").

But I won't type any more and will leave it to you to further investigate such technologies.

I've done my homework (about 20 years worth) on such and know such to be true but am not here to argue the facts.

The point is to simply and preemptively announce certain of my past few months activities which, as with so much of what I've written here and at jbhfile.com, could be used against me in further attacks on my person.

:-)

Thank you for shopping at Fiesta.

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Some words from Allen L. Barker ...

2008-10-07T21:46:00.005-05:00

reprinted without permission from one of Allen L. Barker's essays on mind control.

Keep in mind as you read that I do not claim to have ever experienced any of the electromagnetically directed attacks he discusses. Nor have I ever experienced the "voices in your head" type harassment that he discusses.

But this is beside the point.

Allen's thoughts on mind control and harassment are nonetheless quite on point in regards to anybody needing inspiration towards how to personally deal with *any* type of prolonged and constant, unnatural attention.

As Allen himself wrote:

"The focus is on the effects that the victim experiences, not necessarily the particular technology that is used to inflict it"

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Living with Constant Harassment

"How do you deal with "ordinary" social interactions with the pigs harassing you constantly in your mind? Do you act "ethically" and warn everyone you interact with that their privacy is also being invaded, by way of you, against your consent? People you interact with either believe you or they don't, but either way the social dynamic is completely changed. The pigs invade the privacy of everyone around you, by using you, even that of your spouse and children. They may also impersonate anyone you see, in your mind, to make it seem as if that person is the one "contacting" you. They try to make it seem like everyone can hear your private thoughts, that you are "broadcasting" to everyone. (Of course some victims might actually be doing that; if they can read your thoughts they could then broadcast them wide-field or local-field...)

What sort of career are you "allowed" to have in a system where your intellectual property is stolen the minute you think it up and where you have to cope with both "regular" harassment as well as harassment in your mind? All this is in addition to the ordinary stresses of the job -- and not to mention that some jobs require actual mental concentration. How sociable are long-term harassment victims with serious cases of Ongoing Traumatic Stress Disorder? In American society there are also plenty of vicious jerks who, while not Nazis or torturers, are quick to sense perceived weaknesses in people and home in on them. The Nazis can often just wound a person and then throw him or her to the sharks, bleeding.

It is natural for humans to think about other people. It is even natural to run a mental simulacrum process to imagine and empathize with other people. Monkey see, monkey do, air guitar, "I was just thinking of you..." etc. The rapist pigs try to turn this against the human beings they torture. Sex is also a natural process, as is farting, masturbation, defecation, burping, spats with people, fantasy, and so forth. The rapist torturers try to turn this against their victims. They constantly attempt to demean their victims. Worrying and anxiety are also normal human emotions. The torturers, though, try to turn all of these human properties against their victims.

One technique the Nazi pigs use is to try to reinforce anything you might worry about or feel anxious about. It is like taking a dynamical system and driving it at its natural frequency in order to purposely destroy it. Of course this is not to say the idiots know anything about dynamical systems. If you ever read Lord of the Flies in junior high school you know about the level that these pig idiots operate at, but when they rape your brain to inflict such ridicule and hatefulness it sets up positive feedback processes in the brain that constitute torture. (If I am teaching these idiots anything by this, then you had better watch out because they have already tortured me.) They will purposely injure you and then pick at your scabs if you start to heal.

This process also happens because you know damn well you are under surveillance and the pig ridicule squad is there to taunt you. Try not thinking about something you are conditioned with "cattle prods" into knowing will result in harassment. You know the torturers will zap you -- that is why they goad you with triggers at times -- but it is like not thinking of a pink elephant on command. Yins produce yangs, so to speak. Transcending the yins and yangs is hard enough without the torture.

The torturers treat your personal, private, internal speech as if it were your public speech. They try to subject you to all the ignorance and "political correctness" and everything else that someone at a podium in a public place might be subjected to. The sadist nanny state is not just concerned with what you say in your own home, they want to regulate what you think inside your head also. That can really cause your "moron anticipator" thought pattern to distract from your normal private thinking, because you cannot even think your private thoughts without knowing they will be "reviewed" for you by rapist morons."

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For more reading from this most insightful of fellows ...

See here: Allen L. Barker's Essays

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Best.

.jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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"They wanna steal your gear..."

2008-09-16T08:37:00.003-05:00

So this just recently in from a person who has several times in the past confided in me their awareness of the investigation of myself.

Seems, being angered by my flagrant and granted, somewhat jubilant earlier post regarding "Two of My Fav Idiots," those behind the investigation are going back to their old ways in the sense of simply wanting to demoralize me or otherwise, bring about emotional duress through blatant invasive actions against myself and/or my property.

In essence, as with the long ago attempt to make it look like I was hacking my most favorite websites, the point here is to strike at what I most love, to not only insult but to degrade through deft and personal "twists of the knife," so to speak.

Lets Bag His Computer and Hi-fi Gear!

So according to this contact, while having tap water and crackers the other day (we're sort of recovering from a Hurricane around these parts) ... it was conveyed to me that the investigators were growing a bit miffed that not only have I maintained my soveriegnty throughout the past six years but that I've also developed a very neat and consistent way to publish the facts of my ongoing efforts, IE> personal computer combined with my personal website, www.jbhfile.com and this blog.

Furthermore, they seem to be increasingly vexed that I've developed personal hobbies that are truly enjoyable to me (though, admittedly quite expensive to pursue): I'm of course talking about my before referenced headphone listening gear which, literally has cost me over $2500.00 to piece together.

So as with the very old but not forgotten early attacks on my person (theft of household, multiple and continuous thefts/break-ins of vehicle, etc.), the investigators seem to be devolving back into their more infantile mode of operation where they feel that simply lashing out and causing the most emotional duress is their only recourse towards feeling "powerful," or "in control" of the proceedings of the investigation.

I mean to say hear that according to certain "whispers on the wind," of late ... certain rumors from very reliable old friends around my community ... the desire is to at some point burglarize my home and target, specifically, my home computing equipment and especially my audio gear, both of which I use many times over on a daily basis.

This became pertinent at this time I believe simply because the Hurricane, with it's prolonged effect of loss of power to my area, offers those who would see to such heinous actions a unique opportunity as alarm systems are down and there are generally no lights at night.

My Intentions as of Now?

My intentions as of this writing are to simply go on with my life.

I'm not so much of a Lockean freak as to be bothered long by the loss of some of my dear (but in the end) not too important personal property.

Computers can be replaced.

It takes only the simplest of computers to publish to my various efforts online and so I'm not too worried about being disconnected from those (most important) of responsibilities.

My hi-fi gear is a gratuitous luxury.

I enjoy it immensely and have worked like a devil to afford it but bottom line? It's not important to my overall well being.

So if they go through with it, I'll be just fine.

I'll also be a bit vindicated as I have this post warning in advance that it might occur and it will therefore be yet another feather in the "cap of my credibility.

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Besides as I go about things in a most mature and respectable manner (for the most part) ... publishing what truths and even "hints of possible truths" that I can ...

And while the proverbial They(tm) sink back further into their well known tendency towards infantile, childish and agressive tactics ...

I can only think that, again, my credibility is even that much more appreciated.

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That said.

I pray we get power back soon!

Best.

.jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Online Music Downloads ... Part II

2008-08-27T21:31:00.007-05:00

As I've mentioned in previous posts ...

I occasionally will use Google to find online music from my favorite bands and/or bands I'm not familiar with.

The legal ramifications of such activity are not really a concern to me as the files I randomly find in public folders and blogs are just as likely to be public/free domain files as they are copyrighted. The exact nature of such, regarding such questions, is really not known to me and so I count it as good fortune to find any of such files.

It's a sporadic and infrequent activity on my part and it generally leads to my purchasing an official CD of the same artists material and so I don't really concern myself too much with the legality of such behaviors (even considering the fact that I'm the subject of a rather banal and corrupt local investigation).

Musicindexof.blogspot.com

Which brings me to my next point ...

Just two days ago ... I found a handful of songs from Rage Against the Machine on the above titled/mentioned blogspot.com blog.

I downloaded some of them as they were in .FLAC format and seemed to be fairly decent quality. This download was in large part because I have been wanting to purchase one or two hard copy Rage CD's in the near future from my local record shop and I figured this would be a great way to figure out exactly which CD's I will ultimately purchase.

Anyway ...

So today ...

Wanting to see what else the auther of musicindexof.blogspot might have available for download ... I revisited the site, only to find that it had been removed from public access.

Huh???

What does this tell me?

That maybe those who have been lusting after the possibility of bringing me in on some (any, really) sort of internet use related charge are growing even more desperate than I could have imagined and are planning to possibly "call me out" on charges related to illegal downloading of music ...

That maybe they notified said owner of musicindexof.blogspot of such intentions and then he/she were required to take their blog offline ...

Or maybe "They" notified Google and google shut the guy down ...

I really don't know to tell you the truth.

It also could have just been a random thing.

Legality of Music Downloads

Whether the Rage Against the Machine tracks I downloaded equaled a technically illegal action on my part or not is any one's guess.

As far as I know ... such randomly found and downloaded tracks are just as well covered by the Fair Use Act of 1976 as they are covered by any of the more prosecutorial laws of our land.

It's a user making tracks available for review/education purposes, after all ...

I mean, such downloads are what will influence me to purchase one or both of those same CD's from my local record shop this weekend ... so it's anybodies guess, really.

It's also not unlike finding a used CD in the trash can as far as I'm concerned (and maybe the law as well, when speaking of, strictly, downloading of such content).

Those academic musings stated ...

The situation for the person responsible for publishing such content ... that is ... making it available for direct download by others ... is much more precarious, I'd think.

For such persons actively publishing such content ... then here, maybe the prosecutorial options becomes a bit more arguble.

:-)

Anyway ...

As mentioned above ...

My actions in so far as randomly searching public directories and repositories, seeking this music or that as demo downloads ... is very slim at best.

The general mode of operation, as stated before, is for an ISP to issue multiple warnings that such activity should cease as opposed to booted feds/cops busting in one's door.

;-)

Anyway ...

I hardly ever find myself partaking in such activity and I only bring such topics up here and now as it seems a bit coincidental that such a random site that I recently downloaded files from was shut down just a day or two later.

My General Mode of Music Download

My general mode of downloading music is most often from pay-sites like www.hdtracks.com or www.mp3fiesta.com.

I've spent thousands on hard copy CD's and online downloads and I'll continue to do such.

But it should also be stated here that many of the artists that I purchase music from were first discovered by random searches of online blogs and public FTP directories.

As a creator of music/songwriter myself ... one who has published nearly 200 songs online for free download ... I consider such activity indispensable towards ultimately paying for the music I enjoy.

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So as I continue to spend boat loads of cash on downloaded and hard copy music, I will nonetheless also and occasionally explore google directories for online music to demo.

Just wanted to post a little heads up as I thought it rather unusual that that guys blog was shut down so soon after I downloaded those files ...

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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A record breaking post!!

2008-08-09T15:11:00.007-05:00

Just a quick word about the last article I posted ... the one entitled, "Two of my fav idiots...," wherein I daftly and not too subtly refer to a certain Universtity here in Houston and a certain political figure who, by way of his father, is also stationed in my home town of Houston.

Well for what it's worth, that post now carries the esteemed honor of garnering (by far) the most unique page views/visits during the first two days after it's posting than anything else I've published here at this blog.

Not Popular

My blog is not that popular, understand.

I mean, folks don't stream here by the hundreds/thousands a day to get the latest juicy bit of jbhfile.com related information.

Really ... why would they?

I certainly wouldn't if I were outside of the proceedings discussed here. Frankly, the content here is pretty boring and unbelievable material.

In fact, on average, I'd say this blog gets about 5 visits a day, most originating from search engines and a few from regular IP based visits (friends and family no doubt).

Anyway, the above mentioned post, in the first two days after it's publication, resulted in a whopping (relative statement) 33 unique visits starting the same night it was posted!

And NONE of those visits came by way of a search engine hit!

This means that (seemingly overnite) 33 real individuals suddenly developed a keen interest in my blog and my blog URL from within their web browser with the sole intention of reading this new article.

They were all direct requests from individual IP's.

So what does it mean?

It probably doesn't mean anything.

It's probably just random that 33 individuals purposefully typed in my blogs URL and visited that particular article (that all previous log data to date shows that to be a unique event is also, most likely, random)

It's also probably just a random thing that this particular two days of very heightened activity had anything to do with the content published in my "Two of my fav idiots..." post.

Or, randomness aside...

Knowing how the hyper egotistical think (probably better than they themselves do) ;-) , I could also surmise that the unique occurrence of dramatically increased page views might have been a stampede of investigation related folks logging on to look at themselves in the mirror, so to speak.

Either way ... I really couldn't say for sure.

But one things for sure...

That particular post was a HUGE hit with somebody for some reason.

:-)

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Two of my fav Idiots...

2008-08-04T22:45:00.012-05:00

...

Yes.

Some, so called, "bastions of learning," are actually the most ghey and over hyped mind jobs on the block.

That said ...

The math/neuro/psych wing of Rice Univ., here in my beloved home town of Houston, are front-runners in the claim for the cup!

They love their "hypotheticals" so much that they'd do anything to create the semblance of a physical proof for the same.

Even those "things" best associated with Nazis ...

:-)

You know ...

Like planting evidence ... torturing ... drugging ... making false claims regarding character ... all that sort of loveliness ...

EDIT (08/08/08):

Now, in retrospect (four days after this post) ... lets be realistic.

In no way am I guaranteeing that said University (or even that most notoriously fumbling of political figures) is involved in the ongoing investigation against me.

Just that things have "reached me on the winds," so to speak ... be it via direct verbal confirmation with random sources or be it otherwise.

As with everything else in this blog, things should be taken with a pinch of salt.

Refer to my main website, www.jbhfile.com, for those things I consider factual.

And besides ...

If such folks really are involved ... a little poking should do some much needed good towards cracking the plasticy veneer of their most axiomatically created "Ivory Towers."

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Just some random filler to keep my lovely blog alive.

Best...

.jbh

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Worth a re post!

2008-07-30T19:20:00.003-05:00

This is something I published just a couple/few months ago.

It's worth reposting:

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"Here's my address and social..."

These days, it's not often that any of my built in checks and balances are thrown into a state of alert.

Yes. You may find it surprising, but I honestly do have an internal system of observation wherein I will most times, if something unusual occurs, weigh it against the facts of my own circumstances related to the investigation of myself.

I mean, face it ...

Knowing what I know about those behind the investigation and what they ultimately desire in the way of wrongful incrimination (or forced isolation) of myself...

... and having already seen many such attempts on my person along those lines in the past ... it just goes without saying that over the years I've implemented a sort of protocol, if you will, in the handling/publishing of certain events that transpire in my daily life.

Such 'protocol' is developed primarily to prevent such actions against my person from playing out or at the least, should they play out anyway, to cast said events in a very questionable light.

And as I started with ... over the past year ... such events have not occurred very frequently.

Here's My Address *and* Social Security Number!

Well today such an event occurred.

Again, as with all such published articles, I'm in no way saying this is indeed related to the ongoing investigation of myself but simply that it possibly could be.

To claim matter of factly that the following events were manufactured specifically and absolutely to be later used in a wrongful incrimination of myself would be, quite frankly impossible, and even something one might call a bit clinically paranoid.

:-)

Anyway, that said, here's what happened to day that threw a few bells and flags and whistles within my internal matrix of checks and balances related to always being aware of the Possibilities inherent in any given daily social circumstance I may find myself in:

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I was working for my father today and as is customary, was on a service call to a regular location that we work at often, the Merisol Chemical Plant, just off of the Interstate 10 Freeway in East Houston.

When working at this specific location, it's required that we check in with the gate officer, receive a permit and ID badge and prove that we have all the necessary safety gear: hard hat, safety goggles, respirator, etc.

I've been visiting this specific plant on work related matters for well nigh two decades, off and on now.

The same middle aged, slightly heavy set blond haired woman is always there to check me in.

We all know her. She's nice. Does her job well and I was expecting to say hello to her today as I approached the guard shack.

But instead, I was greeted by a 20 to 21 year old, very attractive young dark haired girl (slightly Hispanic/Greek in appearance); for the rest of this article, I will simply refer to her as The Hottie(tm) (I figure that's properly objectifying enough to slightly bug the behavioral science/12 step whackos who I know will read this in a day or so ... and it also is true). ;-)

So, short of being surprised, this was still not unusual, no flags thrown or anything, I was actually pleasantly surprised.

I handed her my Merisol ID badge and she immediately let me know that it had expired in April.

(AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!)

That meant I was going to have to sit and watch the quite horribly produced orientation video that everyone must watch at least once a year wherein is discussed important things like siren types, where to go should a siren sound, how to watch the flags so as to always be upwind of any hazardous chemical event, blah blah blah, ad infinitum. There's really nothing more horrible than watching these things.

Anyway ... still ... no internal alarms (or sirens!) sounding, no flags thrown.

So I sit and begin watching the video.

The new, attractive young gate officer (The Hottie(tm) then moves around 10 feet away from me and sits, facing away from me, in her swivel chair.

A minute or two of watching the orientation video goes by.

Then, innocently enough, The Hottie's(tm) desk phone rings and (I mean, she's basically a stones toss away from me) I can't help but hear the following:

The Hottie(tm): "Oh, hi ... so you mean you can't do it? What do you mean? I make deposits for David all the time!"

(The Hottie(tm) then swivels in her chair to face me directly. I'm not looking in her direction of course as I'm glued to the orientation video, but the projection of her voice becomes even that more pronounced with the turn)

The Hottie(tm): "Well, I can give you my social security number and address if that's all they need to go through with it."

The Hottie(tm), then proceeds to, while directly facing me and in as loud of a conversation voice as you can imagine, slowly read off her social security number and physical address.

I of course retain no knowledge of either as, contrary to popular opinion, I do not have a photographic memory and nor am I interested in covertly/stealthily seeking the personal info of attractive young women I might encounter in my daily routine.

I personally found it rather unusual and, in lite of the sorts of actions I know the investigators wish to level against my person, it did in deed smack of being possibly some sort of questionable activity.

In otherwords, internal flags began to wave, whistles quietly found their breath and I immediately made a mental note to pen an article about it the same evening (this!).

I mean, with the state of todays identity theft problems, the supposed weirdos roaming the streets raping women and invading homes, what attractive (very) young lady slowly and deliberatly reads out her social security number and address in front of the random blue collar grunt who happens to be lounging 10 short feet away from them?

Even more strange, who would turn to face said grunt before slowly and deliberately delivering such information.

It just didn't add up and still doesn't.

I almost toyed with the idea of just all out scolding her on the insanity of such behavior (playfully, mind you) but decided it would be best simply to author a short article about the affair and leave it at that.

So why does this throw my alarms?

It's not a secret to me, nor those who have confided in me their awareness of the investigation that those behind it are fantastically obsessed with somehow publically portraying me as a sexual predator or stalker.

It's really quite ludicrous as I've a sterling relationship track record and up until the beginning of these investigation related events some six or seven years ago, was generally always involved in some sort of sexual/romatic partnership, be it casual or long-term/serious.

Stalking/predation just doesn't factor in to it (unless someone keenly manufactures some events!) ;-)

Anyway ... say some event occurs in the Hotties(tm) life in the next few weeks or month?

Say her home is invaded and some of her bras and panties are stolen? Maybe her drawers are rifled through or some other molestation of her property occurs?

Hmmmmm?

Say the authorities investigating the event then ask her some questions such as:

"Does anyone you know of have any obvious feelings for you that you have not returned on?"

or..

"Has your ID or wallet been lost/stolen in the recent past?"

or...

"Have you spoken publicaly or transmitted any of your personal information recently? Information like your home address, social security numbers or credit card info?"

And then suppose the Hottie(tm) ponders on these questions for a while ... and suddenly, after backtracking through her days over the past few weeks/months says:

"You know ... there WAS a time at work where I told a family member my social security number and address over the phone. There just happened to be only one guy in there at the time, but he was just watching the orientation video and ..."

And that would be enough to get what might be called an "interview" with me by those investigating her case.

...

All hypothetical on my part, mind you ... but quite necessary to publish.

Moving On...

In closing, I think it important to reiterate the fact that criminal inclination around sexual issues has been a well known facet of the investigation's tactic model.

Any sort of supposed sexual issues really, as long as the conveyed image carries with it some sort of worrisome stigma or cause for concern.

And here I mean, specifically, wrongful and forced incrimination.

In other words, the investigators wish to lie, plant evidence and employ false witness as a means of realizing an end to the investigations proceedings which satisfy them.

That's been discussed ad nauseum here and even more so at my main website, jbhfile.com.

Anyway ...

I thought it might be beneficial to re post here a bit from my main website wherein I discuss a completely hypothetical suspicion involving a home invasion event which occurred at an old friends house. My concern and comments are hypothetical, but the event really did occur in this friends life.

Here's what I wrote:

...

copied from jbhfile.com, in the section/page titled "Examples of Set-up Attempts":

"As well as the definite, proven and/or witnessed attempts to wrongfully incriminate or otherwise play psychosocial games with me, there have been other events I've caught wind of or have observed that, considering the objectives of the investigation, could have easily been scenarios with which I would later be somehow linked.

One example:

A traditional and very close friend of mine from the Houston nightclub scene, a person I roomed with and worked for, for a number of years, experienced a home invasion in mid 2005, wherein nothing was stolen except a handbag containing some of his girlfriends clothes and/or belongings, ... panties, lingerie, etc.

The break-in occurred while they were at home and sleeping!

I spoke with this friend shortly after they had experienced the break-in and he said the police, during their assessment of the crime scene had informed them that this sort of event is what's viewed among profiling circles as indicative of a possible or likely planned sexual assault in the future ... rape, abduction, etc.

In other words, this sort of criminal invasion, specifically one in which a woman's personal clothing is stolen, is typically viewed by investigators as something which, statistically, might possibly indicate a planned sexual assault.

The key here is that this friend and his wife are the best friends of a particular ex romantic partner of mine, a certain past romantic partner who I have known for some time is one of, if not the main, persons that the investigators have worked to build a false impression of my having an obsession with.

My hunch is that if the break-in event was investigation related, then the goal would be to later, post a successful detonation, link me to the scene or event through planted DNA evidence or otherwise something that was found in a search of my home.

Again, since my friend will undoubtedly read this at some point and since the event in no way could ever be proven to be linked to my circumstances, it should be said that it is listed here only as a (very good) hypothetical circumstance which is indicative of the types of primary (detonation events) and secondary events employed by the investigators."

...

Here's some more fun reading at jbhfile.com:

...

More on Detonation Events

Setups, Hypothetical Examples

Anatomy of a Setup

...

More later ...

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Whoa! Posts are lean!

2008-07-24T10:15:00.007-05:00

So I haven't been writing much here ... and I suppose, considering the big picture, this is ultimately a good thing.

Though I try to be entertaining in the discussion of this blogs content and purpose, I in no way have created it to be an entertainment blog; much to the contrary, it's a tool whereby I make public certain facts related to a very long-winded and ongoing investigation of myself, facts most concerned with that investigations more harmful tactics and ultimate (fabricated/forced) desired end.

That said ... the way I see it, the less posts the better. :-)

Of Late I've Been ...

Very busy.

As mentioned around the intrawebz, for the past six years I've worked daily with a certain political group affiliated with the Democratic party.

It's been very difficult work but also very rewarding in an educational way.

The hours are very long, the typical work day is generally between 11 and 14 hours or more a day. The amount of national work we need to get done and the number of us doing it require this sort of commitment.

The pay basically amounts to money for food, rent and health insurance, with near zero left over for anything else.

Ongoing Side Work for Family Member

So about three months back, I had to take on extra work at my father's company in order to cover some bills which simply were not being paid.

I'm still working two to three days for my father with the other three days of the week being spent with the 12 hour a day political organizing work.

It's been a huge benefit to have this option of work with a family member as it's allowing me to slowly wittle down some of my accrued debt (which isn't staggering by any means but still a bit bothersome to have hanging over me).

I won't go into detail in this post, but the social circles around my father's home town of Jacinto City have been some of the most oft utilized in the ongoing efforts against me.

I mean to say, these persons (some, of course, and not all) have been one of the primary pools from which the investigations "information gathering network" and informant base has been created.

And though of late, the investigators seem to have slacked off in their pressuring of me ... though the general mood around my social movements seem to indicate that "a storm is slowly dwindling into inactivity," ... and though things in general seem very calm and unaffected ...

All of that considered ...

I happen to know it amounts more so to a simple reconsideration of tactics than it does any real cessation of the ongoing desire to see the investigations end goal met.

In other words, it's not even close to being done.

Therefore, all published concerns related to time spent in and around my father's social circles are still very much applicable and important.

Anyway, for more reading ... follow any of the above embedded links. It would just be covering already covered ground to re type it all here.

It should be re stated, though ... that the "end goal" of the investigation (as referred to above) is the removal of my own control over the future of my life, if only for a few months, so that certain of the investigators curiousities can be sated.

You can read about it in all it's loveliness, here: http://www.jbhfile.com/invest_object.html#2.

Otherwise ...

Just wanted to post a little update for the three or four of you who read on a regular basis.

:-)

Joined a Computer Hardware Review Team...

2008-06-24T18:14:00.003-05:00

As I've mentioned occassionally here ... one of my favorite past times is investigating new types of cooling equipment for overclocked computers.

I also am rather fond of authoring detailed performance reviews of such gear.

Here's an example of one such hardware review I did at a popular computer forum:

Review Example at Overclock.net

A Recent Invite

So recently a certain acqauintence of mine invited me to officially join his hardware review team.

I accepted the offer as I certainly do love reviewing hardware.

What this means is that I will be authoring reviews for his website and even at times helping with the ongoing development and building of the website.

I of course will not broadcast the website here ... but suffice it to say, my role with this group will involve hands on work with this gentleman's server and FTP site.

This is why a blog and possible site posting (jbhfile.com) is now required.

Inherent Dangers to Such Online Partnerships

As discussed at this page over at jbhfile.com, the organizers of the investigation against me have on several occasions worked to wrongfully incriminate me around the illegal use of computers.

It is well known to them (the investigators) and the vast majority of my friends and family that I was the system administrator of a popular hacker BBS in the late 1980's and early 1990's.

Therefore, past incrimination attempts have mostly revolved around attempting to set me up in a way that makes me appear to be hacking websites (and especially meaningless sabotage or 'vandalism' of websites).

The best example, by far, was the attempt to force the appearance of my launching denial of service attacks from my workstation while employed with a certain design firm about six years ago.

It is a well documented case.

To this day I retain physical evidence in the way of log file data and personally recorded verbal conversations which clearly describe the event as it unfolded that day.

Had I not been tipped off by certain folks close to me at that job that persons were messing with my computer while I was away, I would have never anticipated the attempt and would have certainly been detained for the act that same day.

Anyway ...

Joining my online buds as a member of their review team is inherently a situation rife with opportunity for those who would wish to continue in such acts against my person.

Just the other day, my friend who owns and runs the review website emailed me the login information for the FTP server.

That transmission alone affords those with the means and resources all they need to eventually cause some similar contrived set of circumstances to unfold (similar to the very distant past hack set up, that is).

So therefore this article.

As with countless articles to date ... the point is to make the possibility of such future acts public so that should they ever actually occur ... it will look highly unlikely indeed that I myself would have had anything to do with them.

It's the basic principle of counter-intelligence work, really ...

Anyway.

Just a brief word.

I look forward to doing some reviews for these guys. A good bunch of folks. I met them at my favorite computer overclocking forum: www.overclock.net.

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Here's my address and social!

2008-05-15T18:31:00.007-05:00

These days, it's not often that any of my built in checks and balances are thrown into a state of alert.

Yes. You may find it surprising, but I honestly do have an internal system of observation wherein I will most times, if something unusual occurs, weigh it against the facts of my own circumstances related to the investigation of myself.

I mean, face it ...

Knowing what I know about those behind the investigation and what they ultimately desire in the way of wrongful incrimination (or forced isolation) of myself...

... and having already seen many such attempts on my person along those lines in the past ... it just goes without saying that over the years I've implemented a sort of protocol, if you will, in the handling/publishing of certain events that transpire in my daily life.

Such 'protocol' is developed primarily to prevent such actions against my person from playing out or at the least, should they play out anyway, to cast said events in a very questionable light.

And as I started with ... over the past year ... such events have not occurred very frequently.

Here's My Address *and* Social Security Number!

Well today such an event occurred.

Again, as with all such published articles, I'm in no way saying this is indeed related to the ongoing investigation of myself but simply that it possibly could be.

To claim matter of factly that the following events were manufactured specifically and absolutely to be later used in a wrongful incrimination of myself would be, quite frankly impossible, and even something one might call a bit clinically paranoid.

:-)

Anyway, that said, here's what happened to day that threw a few bells and flags and whistles within my internal matrix of checks and balances related to always being aware of the Possibilities inherent in any given daily social circumstance I may find myself in:

...

I was working for my father today and as is customary, was on a service call to a regular location that we work at often, the Merisol Chemical Plant, just off of the Interstate 10 Freeway in East Houston.

When working at this specific location, it's required that we check in with the gate officer, receive a permit and ID badge and prove that we have all the necessary safety gear: hard hat, safety goggles, respirator, etc.

I've been visiting this specific plant on work related matters for well nigh two decades, off and on now.

The same middle aged, slightly heavy set blond haired woman is always there to check me in.

We all know her. She's nice. Does her job well and I was expecting to say hello to her today as I approached the guard shack.

But instead, I was greeted by a 20 to 21 year old, very attractive young dark haired girl (slightly Hispanic/Greek in appearance); for the rest of this article, I will simply refer to her as The Hottie(tm) (I figure that's properly objectifying enough to slightly bug the behavioral science/12 step whackos who I know will read this in a day or so ... and it also is true). ;-)

So, short of being surprised, this was still not unusual, no flags thrown or anything, I was actually pleasantly surprised.

I handed her my Merisol ID badge and she immediately let me know that it had expired in April.

(AAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!)

That meant I was going to have to sit and watch the quite horribly produced orientation video that everyone must watch at least once a year wherein is discussed important things like siren types, where to go should a siren sound, how to watch the flags so as to always be upwind of any hazardous chemical event, blah blah blah, ad infinitum. There's really nothing more horrible than watching these things.

Anyway ... still ... no internal alarms (or sirens!) sounding, no flags thrown.

So I sit and begin watching the video.

The new, attractive young gate officer (The Hottie(tm) then moves around 10 feet away from me and sits, facing away from me, in her swivel chair.

A minute or two of watching the orientation video goes by.

Then, innocently enough, The Hottie's(tm) desk phone rings and (I mean, she's basically a stones toss away from me) I can't help but hear the following:

The Hottie(tm): "Oh, hi ... so you mean you can't do it? What do you mean? I make deposits for David all the time!"

(The Hottie(tm) then swivels in her chair to face me directly. I'm not looking in her direction of course as I'm glued to the orientation video, but the projection of her voice becomes even that more pronounced with the turn)

The Hottie(tm): "Well, I can give you my social security number and address if that's all they need to go through with it."

The Hottie(tm), then proceeds to, while directly facing me and in as loud of a conversation voice as you can imagine, slowly read off her social security number and physical address.

I of course retain no knowledge of either as, contrary to popular opinion, I do not have a photographic memory and nor am I interested in covertly/stealthily seeking the personal info of attractive young women I might encounter in my daily routine.

I personally found it rather unusual and, in lite of the sorts of actions I know the investigators wish to level against my person, it did in deed smack of being possibly some sort of questionable activity.

In otherwords, internal flags began to wave, whistles quietly found their breath and I immediately made a mental note to pen an article about it the same evening (this!).

I mean, with the state of todays identity theft problems, the supposed weirdos roaming the streets raping women and invading homes, what attractive (very) young lady slowly and deliberatly reads out her social security number and address in front of the random blue collar grunt who happens to be lounging 10 short feet away from them?

Even more strange, who would turn to face said grunt before slowly and deliberately delivering such information.

It just didn't add up and still doesn't.

I almost toyed with the idea of just all out scolding her on the insanity of such behavior (playfully, mind you) but decided it would be best simply to author a short article about the affair and leave it at that.

So why does this throw my alarms?

It's not a secret to me, nor those who have confided in me their awareness of the investigation that those behind it are fantastically obsessed with somehow publically portraying me as a sexual predator or stalker.

It's really quite ludicrous as I've a sterling relationship track record and up until the beginning of these investigation related events some six or seven years ago, was generally always involved in some sort of sexual/romatic partnership, be it casual or long-term/serious.

Stalking/predation just doesn't factor in to it (unless someone keenly manufactures some events!) ;-)

Anyway ... say some event occurs in the Hotties(tm) life in the next few weeks or month?

Say her home is invaded and some of her bras and panties are stolen? Maybe her drawers are rifled through or some other molestation of her property occurs?

Hmmmmm?

Say the authorities investigating the event then ask her some questions such as:

"Does anyone you know of have any obvious feelings for you that you have not returned on?"

or..

"Has your ID or wallet been lost/stolen in the recent past?"

or...

"Have you spoken publicaly or transmitted any of your personal information recently? Information like your home address, social security numbers or credit card info?"

And then suppose the Hottie(tm) ponders on these questions for a while ... and suddenly, after backtracking through her days over the past few weeks/months says:

"You know ... there WAS a time at work where I told a family member my social security number and address over the phone. There just happened to be only one guy in there at the time, but he was just watching the orientation video and ..."

And that would be enough to get what might be called an "interview" with me by those investigating her case.

...

All hypothetical on my part, mind you ... but quite necessary to publish.

Moving On...

In closing, I think it important to reiterate the fact that criminal inclination around sexual issues has been a well known facet of the investigation's tactic model.

Any sort of supposed sexual issues really, as long as the conveyed image carries with it some sort of worrisome stigma or cause for concern.

And here I mean, specifically, wrongful and forced incrimination.

In other words, the investigators wish to lie, plant evidence and employ false witness as a means of realizing an end to the investigations proceedings which satisfy them.

That's been discussed ad nauseum here and even more so at my main website, jbhfile.com.

Anyway ...

I thought it might be beneficial to re post here a bit from my main website wherein I discuss a completely hypothetical suspicion involving a home invasion event which occurred at an old friends house. My concern and comments are hypothetical, but the event really did occur in this friends life.

Here's what I wrote:

...

copied from jbhfile.com, in the section/page titled "Examples of Set-up Attempts":

"As well as the definite, proven and/or witnessed attempts to wrongfully incriminate or otherwise play psychosocial games with me, there have been other events I've caught wind of or have observed that, considering the objectives of the investigation, could have easily been scenarios with which I would later be somehow linked.

One example:

The break-in occurred while they were at home and sleeping!

HoWL! BBS (reason enough)

2008-05-12T20:36:00.002-05:00

To anybody bored enough to actually read this blog and/or my main website, www.jbhfile.com ...

It should be obvious enough that the ultimate goal of all this is to simply prove that I have been a subject of interest to *any* past or ongoing local or federal investigation.

That's all.

It's really quite simple.

...

Anyway ...

To that above stated end, a large part of my ongoing literary efforts have involved writing at length (and quite redundantly) about the various reasons why, over the years, I might have possibly garnered the notably envious title of, "Person of Interest!".

:-)

Keeping it fun and all ...

But really, ...

This is serious.

Howl BBS

The fact that I've made countless FOIPA requests to the FBI/Department of Justice over the past six years not withstanding ...

What's really incredible is that said agency claims ZERO files on record pertaining to my being a person of interest to any closed or ongoing investigations, EVER!

It's actually quite silly.

I mean ...

In the late 80's and early 90's, I was *ONLY* the full time system administrator, owner of all hardware and daily maintainer of one of the most popular hacking/phone phreaking sites on the local intrawebz!

I held that post for well over three years.

The hardware and software necessary for the daily function of site/BBS were all housed at my personal residence.

I built the entire thing.

And, it should be mentioned, my BBS (HoWL!) had over 400 regular and devoted local callers (some of whom, unfortunately, went on to be convicted in federal courts for crimes as varied as the most lame of computer hacking events all the way up to the counterfeiting of USA Treasury Notes; don't hold it against them, they were young, after all :-) ).

I'm not making up a thing, here and the details of the above should be easily obtained by anyone bored enough and driven enough to seek the public records.

And the Feds claim to have not a single file on record regarding myself as a person of interest in ANY closed or ongoing investigations!!?

I don't think so ...

:)

...

Anyway ... here's some more detailed banter regarding my role as administrator of HoWL! BBS, pulled from my main website, www.jbhfile.com:

...

"During the late 1980's and early 1990's, I was the system administrator and owner of Howl BBS, a very popular Houston-based computer bulletin board system (BBS) dedicated to the rapidly expanding (at the time) culture of hacking and computer networking in general.

Furthermore, Howl was in large part dedicated to the discussion of literary matters and we, on a semi-regular basis, published an electronic magazine ('zine) called, Tamer Shrew. You can follow the provided link to see all such zines produced by those involved with Howl.

Some of the most well known and talented hacks and virii creators in the Houston and Texas area called Howl BBS on a regular basis; there were, as well, many out of state calls.

Howl was split in it's content direction, roughly, between the discussion of subjects related to computer hacking and phone phreaking and, because I was in college for creative writing at the time, all things literary, especially poetry.

This is in large part, why it's absurd that now, in my late 30's, the FBI is claiming to have no records of myself as a person of interest, when I knew for a fact, and based on the testimony of others, that in my early 20's such agencies were regularly survielling and participating in Howl BBS due to it's association with such topics as computer hacking and phone phreaking, not to mention the local authorities who, at that time and considering the infancy of the internet and 'cyber-crime' in general, were sort of in a race with the federal agencies to see who could develop enforcement and investigative protocols the quickest.

Suffice it to say, Howl BBS was high on the list of local Houston boards that factored into both ongoing federal and local law enforcement investigations and, since I built the damn thing and owned the hardware it was run on, it goes without saying that I became a member of that list as well.

The point here is that Howl BBS factors into the investigation as a very real kernal of truth in the agencies efforts towards creating computer crime spin within my current circumstances. Howl was not a criminal bulletin board.

Howl was not used to distribute or otherwise make available the tools with which one could hack or phreak, it simply distributed text based information regarding such practices; furthermore, Howl BBS, to my knowledge and since the BBS software and hardware changed ownership on several occasions, was never employed to distribute illegal software or pornographic material of any kind.

Howl BBS was a great thing. I miss it and those that were members of our brief community … Xann, Nils, and even Homer™, (that bastard!).

Pardon me, I'm getting all misty-eyed..."

...

Read the entire bit here: HoWL BBS!!

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Poetic gesticulations...

2008-04-25T22:03:00.003-05:00

This is just a cursory word.

As stated previously ... in earlier posts, etc. ... things have been rather quiet of late but that just means I need to keep writing.

:-)

That said ...

My next main article here at the jbhfile.com blogspot site will be one dealing with the investigations rather fanatical and extreme treatment of certain poetic works that I've been the author of over the past few decades.

This post will also very loosely hint at my long standing awareness of certain local ( and rather academic) university groups who have been involved as commentators of a sort to the local and federal law enforcement officials that originated the same investigation.

Yes. It's true.

Those persons involved in the psycho-freak-out sciences end of the investigation of myself have really taken my personal writings and ran with them in so far as their, rather negative and (frankly, disturbing) interpretations of such.

This, as-of-yet-to-be-published bit will cite exact instances of said past writings that those involved with the investigation of gotten downright masturbatory over and will also cite the real and unaffected origins/meanings of such.

It should be fun ...

;-)

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A Repost .... (Old Dramas) ...

2008-04-19T00:50:00.000-05:00

Since things have been run-of-the-mill around here of late, since no (known) set up attempts have occurred, no covert druggings, no planted evidence (that I'm aware of) ... and no hired operatives coerced into saying I treated them inappropriately in public ... I figure it's time I start writing a bit.

(It really has been exceptionally quiet of late ... going on several months now ... I was starting to feel normal there for a bit)

:-)

Generally ... things being "quiet" means things are brewing and so my mind has again wandered to the point of realizing that I need to start a bit of the old "regurgitation of the past" writings; and, more specifically, writings wherein I must describe certain past, highly interesting events which, although occurring when I had no conscious awareness of being the subject of an investigation, nonetheless now shine a very revealing light on the motives and concerns of the investigators now that I am, and since I have been (for some time), aware of such an investigation of myself.

That will be the first of many near run-on type, far to winded sentances used in an attempt to describe things which are, frankly, difficult to describe.

Moving on ...

The above mentioned 'motives and concerns of the investigators' are best illustrated by discussing the myriad forms taken by the same investigator's very public and past psychosocial explorations which have most often manifested as regular and reoccurring street theatre dramatics, psychosocial skits, "temptation stings" or anything else you might want to call them.

It is my suspicion (being only an arm chair study of psychiatry and psychotherapy) that such psychosocial skits, are meant to induce the observed subject to behave in a specific manner which would buttress or confirm the claims, curiousities or suspicions of the authors of the drama.

A Public Service Announcement

A very careful statement should first be made regarding the fact that I am simply going to describe events and circumstances which are highly suspicious to me as past attempts at psychosocial exploration of myself.

It is not possible for me to matter of factly claim that the following described events were definitely associated with the ongoing investigation of myself.

The following events (simply) and neatly coincide with what I've learned to be the subject matters and very real foundations of the investigation of myself since discussing such with persons who have been involved as participants and even informants.

Click here to read more about the role such persons have played in the past five years in not only helping me to maintain sanity through some of these experiences but who've also offered indispensable support in the way of informing me of ongoing actions against my person.

I'll say again, just to be extra careful of your receiving this correctly:

Not all of the following described events are in any way guaranteed to be investigation related; I hope I've made that clear enough because it's an exceptionally important point.

However, in so far as what I've learned about the investigation to-date, these events are highly suspect. (I mean .. just how many 30 year old males get solicited for sex by pre-teen and teenage girls on a regular basis?) :-)

Witting vs. Unwitting

As I mention above, regarding the past examples of such street theater dramatics, I have not always been aware that such manufactured events were taking place, especially going back to the late 1999 time frame when I had no idea or even a notion that I was the subject of daily attentions associated with an ongoing investigation of myself.

It would only be much later, after becoming undeniably aware of the investigation's movements (including direct contact with those who have acted as participants) that I would, on a given day basis, become able to consciously identify when this type of ruse was being played out at my expense (or, more accurately, to illicit my responses).

For the sake of this writing though, my main focus will be on discussing several key events which I consider very likely and pointed examples of psycho social setups/street theater that occurred when I was completely unwitting of being the subject of an investigation.

I think it's this sort of example that most accurately demonstrates the nature and desired results of such actions; that is, what the drama was intended to explore in the way of my personal choices and behaviors at the time and as well, what my real and natural responses/inclinations actually were.

More specifically, regarding the covert psychosocial exploration of a subject who by design of the experiment should be unaware of the experiment ... and desiring only real and natural responses from the subject ... I would have to say that those past experiments played out around me during the time when I was unaware of being a subject of such, could be seen as the only true set of response patterns that could be argued as scientifically real and valuable (I mean, how can a witting experimentation subject act naturally).

The Coffee House Days

The following all went down around 1998 and 1999.

At that time, as well as holding down a 40 hour a week job with a prominent international banking organization, I was also very active with a local Houston band.

Myself and my fellow band mates were hugely visible and regular members of the inner loop Houston coffee house scene; we frequented two specific coffee houses, both being a mere quarter mile apart, on a rigorously daily basis.

These two coffee houses, one a bit more so than the other, were the literal hub of our respective social lives. Everything we planned and did began and ended at these local shops.

It was great fun, a very social and thriving little community of artists, musicians and self proclaimed arm chair philosophers, all mixed with the expected wanna-be nerdy chic rich folk that also called that area of Houston home.

Looking back now, some 9 years after the fact, certain events/relations which developed around that particular social community were almost certainly associated with the investigation of myself that, again and at the time, I was completely unaware of.

Following, find a short discussion of several of those events which are "red flags," if you will and from the 1999 or so period.

Sophia and Jordan

The first of such suspicious circumstances which I tend to believe as investigation related involves a couple of 17 year old high school students who somewhat adroitly and randomly inserted themselves into our band-related social circles of that time; they had never seen us perform and never would, throughout the length of our friendship and so they were not hangers on or "groupies" of any sort.

I've changed the names of the two girls to "Sophia" and "Jordan" because, well, they do it on television documentaries and so I figured it should be done on my blog. Protecting the innocent and all ... but mostly ... just a bit more respectful since this is, in all technical senses, hypothetical.

Here's how it all began ...

I had been at our favorite coffee house for about 20 minutes; I was waiting to meet my band mate, "Derrick" (of course, throughout all of this I'm changing folks names).

So I'm chilling at a table inside and suddenly Derrick comes up to the table and grabs me and says something to the effect of, "Hey! Hey! You gotta come outside and sit with us! The two cutest, CUTEST girls just walked up and sat down and started talking to us! Get up now and come out here! You've GOTTA meet them! I'm freaking out! I can't believe they just walked up and started talking to us!"

I mean ... in classic fashion of the day, he was doing his jittery as a june bug freak out that we both did when meeting someone we liked.

It was all sort of sudden and all and I of course went with him as I was one, supposed to be meeting him for coffee anyway and two, I didn't mind meeting a couple hotties.

Anyway, when I get to the table, sure enough, there's a couple of really cute girls there, both dark haired, one Hispanic and one Caucasian. But what was more immediately apparent was that they were far beneath my own 30 years of age or so and even Derrick's 27 years of age or so; in fact, they looked fresh out of a high school class room!

After half an hour of conversation, this in fact turned out to be the case.

Both girls were 17 years old and attended a nearby local High School. Derrick had met them earlier and they were now, for whatever reason, choosing to spend an evening at a coffee house with he and I (as well as several other friends, all of us being in the 25 to 30 year old range).

Right off the bat, I thought the whole thing was weird.

I had somewhat recently separated from a long term relationship and it's true I was interested in meeting other women at the time ... but these two girls were obviously not a possibility and nor did it ever register as such a situation; it just seemed off, strange and a tad bothersome.

Like I mentioned earlier, at that time I had no awareness of being the subject of any sort of investigation but still the whole thing bugged me.

I mean, why would these two high school students want to be hanging with a bunch of guys in their thirties?

And, more unbelievably, why would my band mate (Derrick), really my best friend in the world at the time, be vocally expressing interest in possibly becoming romantically involved with one of them? The whole thing was just strange and otherworldly.

In the end and after talking with them for a couple hours, I simply (wanted to) concluded it was a couple of very smart local young ladies (and they were quite that) who simply were branching out and wanting to get to know some other folks in the community.

They were intelligent, very conversant and admittedly bored with being in High School. So go figure, eh?

Anyway, long story a bit shorter but still long...

Over the coming weeks, these two girls would become more and more entwined with mine and Derrick's social circles. It was a matter of a month or two before they would begin to randomly spend time with us at Derrick's inner loop duplex where myself and others from the band circles would congregate on a weekly basis to smoke cigarettes, listen to music and otherwise just chill.

When not working, I think it's safe to say we were somewhat of the professional time wasters, whether we were making music, discussing favorite authors or just sitting around burning incense and trying to be bohemian.

And more and more, as time went by, Sophia and Jordan would just randomly show up wherever we were.

I of course always thought it just a tad odd that my band mate would be inviting two high school girls over to hang out with us but as he said to me on a couple occasions, "They just stopped by!! What am I gonna do? Ask them to leave?! I mean, c'mon! Just look at them!".

If anything, he was always rather vocal in admitting his enjoyment at having a couple very attractive and intelligent nubile young ladies around (and, just speaking in a purely honest/clinical sense, it really was sort of nice).

As I said, the initial impression was of a couple young women who not only liked to talk but who also possessed just enough social prowess to do so without coming across as immature or bothersome; they were tolerable in a social sense and admittedly, as so often recanted by Derrick, quite naturally beautiful and attractive in a no-makeup, pseudo-intellectual-chic sort of way; they were high school students, of course ... but their real or manufactured (very obvious) desire to be beyond that was still quite noticeable and endearing whether it was acting or genuine (I lean towards acting, myself but that's further down the page).

But like I said, Sophia and Jordan became regular members of our weekly gatherings, be it at the coffee houses or at my band mate's duplex.

We all became first-name-basis type friends ...

We bummed smokes off of each other, talked about our families and home lives, gave each other rides to work or elsewhere, and the weird sort of vibe that sat upon me at the outset of my introduction to them quickly faded into the routine of daily life.

I was never on a "call me later" type basis with the girls, never knew where they lived or what their email addresses or phone numbers were; I was never curious about such.

Generally, they would just always already be around whenever I showed up at wherever it might be that we'd be hanging out ... the coffee house or Derrick's house.

Hell, they even stopped by Derrick's flat on the night of their prom, just long enough to leave us some photos of them all dressed up in their outfits and regalia (in retrospect, that is just as strange as it gets).

But it's true that it all became routine: Sophia and Jordan eventually were just two more persons regularly involved in our rather tight knit little group of friends.

As I said before, Derrick was actually on several occasions expressing vocal interest in dating one of the girls, though I thought it odd and even mentioned that to be the case, but nothing of any import (that I know of or that was spoken of) ever happened between them.

In retrospect and entertaining the idea that the whole thing was manufactured as a tool of the investigators, Derrick's ongoing admissions of such desire could have been meant to induce/prompt me into following suit, though that certainly never crossed my mind in even the most fleeting of forms.

I would estimate the entire time of my knowing/associating with Sophia and Jordan to be at or around 1 to 1.5 years.

Over time, as I became less and less a member of the band/coffee house scene (especially after becoming aware of the investigation) our encounters would cease entirely.

Another Teenager Enters the Picture

Around the same time that Sophia and Jordan were becoming regular stand-ins/members of our daily social lives, another guy, a close friend of Derricks, also began hanging out with us more (many times while Sophia and Jordan were present) and this guy would often times show up with his supposed "new girlfriend," ... an "eighteen year old virgin," as described to me by my band mate and as communicated to him by this certain friend of his.

I think a pattern/image should begin to emerge at this point.

This guy with the eighteen year old girl friend (her much discussed lack of experience not withstanding) was another of our regular and long term friends from the Houston band scene. For the sake of this writing, I'll call him "Devin."

Devin had been friends with Derrick for longer than I and was a member of a couple separate Houston bands; historically, they had both worked for the same company for a number of years prior to my meeting Derrick.

In so far as my own relationship with Derrick was concerned and since being in a band together (which really defined the length of our friendship entirely), Devin had not been a frequent attendee to our get-togethers and the extent of my involvement with him usually was relegated to seeing his band play or the rare occasion when he would sit in with us on a recording session. Otherwise ... Devin had never come around, as in joining us for coffee or hanging at our houses with us.

That said, suddenly this guy is showing up with his insanely young "girlfriend" at my band mates house when I'm there (and Sophia and Jordan, mind you).

Devin was around 31 years old at the time; I remember mentioning how strange it was that he would be dating somebody so young but my band mate never seemed to indicate any concerns.

In fact, at that very same time and via phone conversations, Derrick would very dramatically describe supposed conversations he had had with Devin in which Devin had conveyed the details of some of his and his girlfriends sexual encounters.

Across the board, the nature of such discussions as relayed by Devin was that this girl was "totally unexperienced," ... and that, while giving oral sex for instance, she was constantly asking Devin questions like, "am I doing it right? I've never done this before! Are you sure I'm doing it okay?!," etc.

In retrospect, the emphasis as conveyed to me by Derrick and as communicated to him by Devin was the seeming need to highlight this young ladies innocence in regards to "things sexual."

I mean, that's what he was focused on when conveying the experiences to me and as told to him by Devin. That's the point his words were delivered to best communicate, innocence, lack of experience, young and experimental (insert your standard cliche's/taboos).

It was highly unusual in light of Devin's relation to me/us up to that point and the whole thing seemed off kilter some how, especially the fact that Devin's appearance on the scene so neatly coincided with Sophia and Jordan's insertion (pardon the penetration image) into our social circles.

Anyway ...

Devin's involvement in our daily lives at that time didn't last much longer than the time necessary for him and his supposed young girlfriend to stop in occasionally and introduce the above mentioned, much discussed nature of their supposedly exploratory sexual encounters.

But at the same time, the coffee house was still getting ready to offer up yet another willing (sacrificial?) virgin!

And Yet Another Teenager Enters the Scene!

So just when you thought it was safe to find a decently aged girlfriend ...

:-)

Just at the moment when Sophia and Jordan are becoming regular members of our ever more strange social circle and just as Devin and his All Too Innocent but Very Very Curious(tm) young girlfriend start dropping in to the picture ... yet another 17 year old wanna-be grown up, pseudo-intellectual young girl approaches my table at the coffee house and not only introduces herself but inquires if she can sit with me.

(On this particular day, I was simply sitting alone, reading and smoking cigarettes)

She says she just wanted to talk, that she's working on some poetry and wanted to know if I'd listen as she read it.

I was taken aback but simultaneously appreciative of her confidence and the fact that she so casually went about the whole thing. I mean ... just walking up and all ... "Can I sit here?" etc. That's something I'd never be inclined to do....

I said, "Sure, you can sit here. What's up?"

Turns out she wanted me to "critique" some of the poetry she was writing and that since she always saw me at the coffee house reading that she thought, what the hell, and decided to approach me.

I forget her name, maybe Laura or something.

Anyway, so we go through the whole poetry thing, I offer some obligatory comments and that's that. I did seek higher education in the field of literature, after all and so I was rather tickled to comment on her efforts.

A couple more times, later around the same period, she would approach my table and sit with me again.

We only had a few of such conversations.

I was dating a member of the Houston ballet at the time and I clearly remember inviting this girl (and her parents!) to an upcoming Houston Ballet performance; this done on a whim since the girl I was dating could get a set of free tickets if I wanted them.

Anyway, she declined.

For the most part, other than the random head nod/hello ... I had no further discourse with her.

Finally, the Most Dramatic Teen!

And finally, still around the same time as Sophia and Jordan and the "Poetry Girl" were doing their thing ...

One night while sitting with 4 or 5 of my band mates and friends at our favorite coffee house, I was approached at our table by a girl who quite clearly and simply asked me, in the most matter of fact way, in front of all my immediate friends at the table, if I'd like to go somewhere and have sex.

She was obviously a teenager. I said, "Why on earth would you ask me such a thing?"

She replied, "I just want to know, do you want to go find some place to fuck?"

She told me she was from my home neighborhood (clear lake city) and that she went to Clear Lake High School (my own High School, btw from back when I was of that particular age).

She said again, "I just thought I'd ask you cause I'm horny and your cute."

(My band mates were completely dumbfounded by the exchange since they were, of course, listening to every word. I seem to recall Derrick saying something to the effect of "GODDAMN, JOEL!")

I continued with my original tack of declining and otherwise showing quite visible discomfort at being asked such a thing at such a point blank range.

Anyway ... realizing I wasn't going to go along with her ploy/ruse/whatever you want to call it, she eventually left our table.

Never saw her again.

Brief but memorable.

:-)

Concluding

All of the above events happened around the same time (within a year of each other).

Each event originated at and played itself out at our favorite Houston coffee house (and in some cases spread to our respective social lives away from the coffee house).

What could it all mean?

I can only hypothesize...

Sophia and Jordan could have been what I have come to describe as a 'temptation sting,' or the like, a fabricated drama to test a subjects propensity for certain types of actions, in this case ... my supposed (proliferated via rumor) tendency to target very young women as potential romantic partners (which is not nor has ever been the case).

Funny thing ... I seem to recall, though I would have to verify with others from that time frame, that Jordan even once said that her father worked for the FBI. Go figure, eh?

The uber innocent and sexually curious girl who showed up with Devin around the time that Sophia and Jordan were so adroitly infiltrating my daily social circles of the time, what about her?

Perhaps she and others working with her (Devin, etc.) were simply inserted to further accentuate the need to publicize and make visible/present the idea of taboo relations or otherwise the admittedly archetypal situation of an older, more experienced person guiding a younger and less experienced person through some challenge (in this case, SEX!).

In popular terms, think Lolita and 40 Year Old Virgin (only in the latter, the age thing wasn't so important).

:-)

I'm attempting to speak in the language of those who would see fit to orchestrate such psychosocial dramatics (popular psychology, etc.) so bare with my stumbling through these questions.

The poetry girl?

As with Sophia and Jordan ... this could well have been yet another temptation sting or otherwise bait operation intended to possibly dredge up/expose some latent tendency on my part to seek out the affections of the younger, more naive and innocent females around me ... or, it could have been (just maybe) totally random.

The outright solicitaion for sex?

This was either a genuinely playful and interested person (doubtful) or it was possibly some element of the investigation implementing what is referred to among computer hackers as a 'brute force' attack. Maybe just an in-your-face type of long-shot act meant to simply gauge my response or otherwise tempt me.

Regardless ... investigation related or not ... it was still rather a strange thing to me and those others that witnessed the invite.

Otherwise ...

This has been a very lengthy post and one I'm glad is out of the way. It wore me out.

That said, ... I do hope to see Sophia and Jordan again some day; my own circumstances and ongoing story notwithstanding, they were a couple of fine folks to hang out with and I hope they're well (and I hope they eventually graduated!). ;-)

To any of you folks who were players in any of the above, please pardon my decision to so publicly discuss the goings on of those days but it's necessary.

.jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Today's Prophets ...

2008-04-19T00:38:00.009-05:00

This blog covers some rather complex and hard to believe/process material ...

It's stated clearly enough in the footnote of every post here.

But that made obvious enough and all ...

There still exists certain randomly occurring bits of popular diatribe which also (and ironically enough) support, buttress and otherwise describe the sorts of complexities that this blog (and my main website) aim to make public:

Utter strangeness.

Utter love.

Utter mis understandings.

...

Here's Jay Farrar's take on the same sorts of confusions:

(yes, I've bolded the utterly hair raising lines) ;-)

enjoy.

...

Medicine Hat, by Son Vot (Jay Farrar):

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There will be droughts and days inundated
Unveilings free from saturation
Departures raised with no masquerading
There will be teachers that die by their own hand
Pundits that push headlong for atonement
Friends and followers devoted to living
There will be watchers that plot from the confines
Those committed to society's circles
Unwary cogs with no cadence of virtue
There will be right
There will be wrong

Drop of the hat, and it's already started
Just like that, and the deed is done
What I'd give for that hat to be medicine
The time is now to be on the run

There will be machinations unforeseen
Sleepwalking sense from a bad dream
No promenade walk in the parkway
There will be catchwords filled with infection
Circulars to prop up occasion
No golden mean to prop up the footsteps
There will be levels on high hills that are praised
There will be unchanging certainties
Barometers that follow the stampede
There will be right
There will be wrong

There will be signposts of indication
Semaphore go signs and warnings
Hailstone halos and country-blues wailings
There will be strains that break out of straight time
To pave with grace different roads to the same place
No consequence to repay what's been given
There will be layers of means to an end
Drawn-out days before resolution
Dregs will rain down from all directions
There will be right
There will be wrong

...

he didn't even know what he was writing!

;-)

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Hard Candy! (the coffee house days)

2008-03-31T16:06:00.005-06:00

Guns as Vehicle for Incrimination

2008-03-26T18:45:00.004-06:00

During my regular political work today, I had an interesting conversation with a fellow who had just gotten out of prison.

He had been sent to prison for possession of a handgun at his house.

The truth though, as communicated to me by him, was that he had been a known drug dealer at the time and the police kicked his door in to search his house for drugs.

They found no drugs, but they did find a gun that his father had bought for him, tucked away high on a shelf, unloaded, etc; this is the find that sent him to prison.

Turns out, he had a felony charge on his record as a teenager (this home search happened about the time he was 35 years old or so) and because of this charge, apparently he was, for life, forbidden to ever be in possession of a handgun or gun of any kind.

Subsequently, he was sentenced to five years in the state penitentiary for possession of the weapon in his house.

This was highly interesting to me.

How Does this Relate to My Efforts?

For several years now I have mentioned that a possible incrimination attempt of myself by those persons who are investigating me locally could involve the planting of a hand gun on my property, vehicle or person.

This weapon element had been directly conveyed to me by several persons locally who have discussed the investigation with me and was based (as far as we could tell at the time) simply on the known desire of the investigators to cast me in a light that could be viewed as "possibly harmful to himself or others," ... something particularly juicy and necessary when seeking the types of 'alternative' psychiatric sentencing sought by the behavioral science end of the investigation.

But now I can see other aspects that would be valuable to the investigators.

Namely, that it would give them a nice and clean means of binding me to the treatment of the legal system for a number of future years since, like my newly met ex-con acquaintance, I too have a felony charge on my record from my teenage years (17 year old exploits).

I'm not a gun owner but I certainly never new I was unable to own a handgun or such weaponry at my house simply because I was charged (not convicted, mind you) with a felony as a teenager.

Go figure, eh!

Past Discussion of Setups and Guns

As mentioned above, I have made known in several places throughout my main website, the desire of the investigators to wrongfully incriminate me (possibly) around the possession of such weapons as hand guns, etc.

The obvious reason for inclusion as such weapons as handguns, etc. is that it would emphasize the possibility for violence (duh), or at least the much desired objective of creating that as a public impression.

Most importantly, such elements, when combined with a setup attempt that made me look like I had a memory dysfunction of some kind or when paired with some sort of forced impression of chronic alcohol or drug abuse would give the post apprehension dialogue a very definite slant towards apparent worry over future behavior (that is, until the pros could have their requested time to deem me either safe or unsafe for public interaction).

Fun stuff, eh?

Anyway, this newest bit of gained knowledge today is just icing on the ongoing cake.

As I've said already ... I own no such weapons nor have I ever been in the habit of owning such.

But knowing what I know now (after todays conversation) and if such a future incrimination attempt against me is played out, then not only would the investigators have a neat platform from which to argue for mental/neural investigation regarding the likelihood of possible future violence on my part, they'd as well have an iron-clad legal mandate to do so via actual legal system processing and sentencing.

Again, I own no such weapons (redundancy is good in this context!) :-)

But, Ironically Enough ....

I have owned such, very briefly, in the distant past (around 1999 or so) and for one year exactly.

This time-frame wherein I briefly owned a hand gun is, ironically enough, the very time-frame from which much of the subject matter contained in some of the more 'glamorous' pieces of video surveillance I have found the investigators have on record were obtained.

This fact was communicated to me early on in my awareness of the investigation and by several of those from my long term social circles who were close to the investigation at the time.

Apparently, the investigators have several instances of such 'glamorous' surveillance, all being garnered from the one year time period within which I lived at a particular downtown warehouse loft while employed with the bank. 'Glamorous,' in this context is used to indicate something the investigators would love to use as indications of abberance on my part, once some matter of fact and damning incrimination of myself is played out.

Anyway, here's the bit from jbhFILE.com dealing with the bit of surveillance involving use of a weapon:

...

from article, "Known and Existing Video Surviellance," at jbhFILE.com:

"Another bit of surviellance footage, though quite humorous, nonetheless also plays into the investigators desires to somehow build an image of myself as a possible future violent offender; this footage involves handguns.

For the record, I have never owned personal firearms, although such devices have been in and around me, in my family, etc. ... since I can remember. Rifles, shotguns, pistols ... I grew up around such devices as my parent and other immediate family were always into hunting.

Upon moving into the above mentioned warehouse flat, I borrowed a .9mm pistol from my father because I was a bit wary of living alone and in that area of Houston. I had been held up at gun point, twice in the previous two years, in and around certain Houston locales and I was a bit traumatized by the experience. Having handled weapons before, I felt quite comfortable and a bit more safe having a handgun sitting on my bedside bureau at night.

Anyway, long story shot, while hanging out in my flat I would sometimes handle the weapon, pointing here and there, assuming ridiculous defensive postures, etc ... practicing it's usage and more importantly, being quite dramatic about it at times. I've seen my share of Bruce Willis movies ... and I'm sure it shows in this bit of discussed video footage. I was having fun, in other words.

Upon moving from that space, I returned the weapon to my father ... in the end, being more comfortable without a weapon in the house than with one.

As with much of the video surviellance discussed in this article, the investigators, after some sort of set-up event might intend to skew this harmless bit of footage in a manner which would claim such behavior is worrisome or indicative of possible future harmful behavior.

There exists other footage related to personal protection devices but compared to the gun footage is not worth mentioning ..."

...

To read the entire article, follow the link in the above quoted title.

Otherwise, more to come in the near future!

.jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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FOIPA Processes (repost) ....

2008-03-20T13:44:00.002-06:00

(this copied from my main domain and website, www.jbhfile.com)

"For almost three years now, every six months or so, I draft and submit a legally binding, constitutionally protected request to the FBI demanding that that agency provide documents associated with an investigation of myself as a person of interest in past or ongoing investigations.

This is a common process I follow, whereby any US citizen can invoke a constitutional power known as the Freedom of Information and Privacy Act (FOIPA) and thereby obtain data from any Federal Agency (not just the FBI, btw).

The agency in question must provide the data requested unless the request falls under any of the nine constitutional exemptions afforded federal agencies, in making a decision to withhold data; furthermore, federal agencies are not legally bound to create records that are contained within the FOIPA databases, so other than claiming a specific exemption in defense of withholding data, an agency can simply say, we did not include that set of records in that particular FOIPA records system.

In the resources section of this site, I offer pointers to extensive online resources related to understanding and utilization of FOIPA to make your own requests.

Following, find a timeline of my requests to-date...

Read the rest: FOIPA Resources

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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New post in the works ...

2008-03-17T17:49:00.002-06:00

Working on a new article/blog post at the moment ...

Look for it in the next week or so.

It's a long one...

(but juicy!)

:-)

Covert Druggings

2008-02-16T12:13:00.007-06:00

(the following text is copied from the "Harm to Person" section of my main website and domain at http://www.jbhfile.com; this is extremely important reading regarding my ongoing legal efforts but it should also be clearly noted that these rather traumatic experiences occurred around seven years ago; that said, this fact does not, however, negate the need for this information to be made continuously public) -joel

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When I first became aware of being the subject of an investigation, and when I first made some very public statements regarding this, is around the time at which I experienced the first and most severe covert drugging that has been perpetrated against me.

Since that first drugging, which has had no equal in it's severity, I have, literally, been drugged 10's of times, once with the same drug, that I later identified, and on other occasions, with other drugs that I only knew were different because of the physical effects they manifested.

This section discusses in detail the first and second druggings, as well as the period within which I was able to test myself and put a name to the substance which I had previously been unable to identify.

1st and Worst

Around mid to late 2000, after first becoming aware of the gang stalking tactics of the investigation and after suffering a nervous breakdown of sorts related to that attention, I sought council with certain community members on how best to handle the circumstances I was experiencing; these were persons vaguely known to me, not immediate friends, but nevertheless some who I thought could get me in touch with others in the community who might be able to explain the obvious surveillance.

While following a short-lived process suggested by these persons, wherein I was to supposedly seek rest and recovery from my recent and very literal nervous breakdown, I attended a certain social function (in large part attended by the persons I first approached) and was covertly dosed with a drug that, at the time of this first incident, I could not identify from it's effects, but which later I would be able to obtain test results for. More on that, later. The drug was administered via a soda pop; persons at the social event were in various stages of having dinner and drinks and I remember clearly, the drink was from KFC fried chicken, medium sized or so, and I drank the whole thing.

I didn't feel the effects of the drug, whatever it was, until I had begun my journey home, to my mother's house, where I was staying at that time.

(In the early stages of these circumstances I was quite emotionally debilitated by what was transpiring in my community and had decided to stay for a few days with an immediate family member.)

I barely made it home.

It should be stated here, that I have had experience, during my teenage years, with psychedelics and other types of drugs such as various sorts of stimulants, so I know, without a doubt, what a drug feels like when entering my system. This was no anxiety attack or nervous response, this was a chemical hitting my system; it was undeniable, especially to a person who had done his fair share of mind altering chemicals as a young person.

As I drove the 30 or so miles back to my house, I began to feel, what I thought might be cocaine or some such substance beginning to affect me. At least in the beginning of the drugs effects, the first 10 minutes or so of being aware of a substance in my system, it felt like a stimulant of some kind.

The drugs effects grew and grew and grew in intensity until, by the time I got home, I began to become fearful as to not only what had been administered, but how much of it.

By that time, I certainly knew it was not a stimulant, as I was beginning to experience slight hallucinations and my arms and legs were growing numb. Also, and this is absolutely central to something that will be found out later, I attempted to induce vomiting, once home and in the bathroom, by using my finger to gag myself, yet I found that I had absolutely no gag reflex to speak of. Not being able to accomplish anything in the bathroom, I quickly retired to bed and resigned myself to simply ride it out.

Therein began what would be, without question, the most horrifying and painful night of life.

The drugs affects simply kept intensifying until I had become almost completely numb; I couldn't feel my hands or legs and I felt as though their were a block of ice in my chest.

Put plainly, I felt that I was most certainly dieing.

I crawled, literally crawled from the couch where I was sleeping and into my mother and her fiance's living room, around 1am or so, and very gently woke her and whispered, "they drugged me,' and again, trying to not breakdown altogether or otherwise make a ruckus,
"i can't believe they drugged me."

Of course, as with all other of my concerns and observations to date, she said I was probably just having a bad dream or was imagining things and should go back to sleep.

Talk about horrendous.

I returned to the couch and knew I'd have to just ride it out. I was terrified because I knew it was an overdose on something, again, having quite a bit of experience with drug usage from my teenage years. My thought processes were alternately chaotic then coherent, and interspersed, considering the emotional debacle I had already been through over the past couple months, were thoughts of simply committing suicide to stop the pain. Fortunately, reason prevailed and I didn't act on some of the more psychotic options that were occurring to me.

The following morning I was coherent enough to discuss the event again, with my parents; they, of course, reiterated that they thought I was imagining things or had simply made it up.

That time, I was never able to actually prove, via independent drug testing, that I had been drugged; however, upon being drugged the second time, with what perceptually felt like an identical substance, things were different.

2nd Drugging

A year or so after the first, most severe drugging, I was drugged a second time, with what felt like an identical substance. I will not discuss the details of how the drug was transmitted to my system but, suffice it to say, a certain friend of the family sent a plate of food home with my father after he had visited with them one night for dinner, specifying that it was for me; being the naive chap that I was at the time, I dug in. After all, it was friends of the family, right?

Needless to say, 15 to 20 minutes after consuming the meal, or at least a portion thereof, I began to feel the exact preliminary effects of a drug hitting my system that I had experienced before, some year previous. These were the exact same symptoms: very slight hallucinations, clearing of sinus passages, numbing extremeties and an absolute lack of any gag response (I of course tried to induce vomiting after realizing I'd been drugged a second time).

This time, having some experience upon which to establish a more calm reaction to the drugging, I sought the council of a friend who I knew had heard via the rumor mill of the investigation and who I had often times confided in regarding my ongoing circumstances.

This friend suggested we go immediately and have a 5-panel drug screen done to see if we could identify the chemical that had been administered.

I already knew that the drugs effects were not going to intensify to the point of the previous assault and so I agreed to go to the pharmacy to obtain the drug test equipment.

Upon the subsequent testing, the results of the drug test showed a strong positive for PCP.

The next morning, I tested myself twice more in the presence of family members in order to have a witnessed account of the results of the test; each time, the results came up immediately for PCP.

PCP! Phencyclidine! Angel Dust for christ's sake!

I could not believe what I was seeing in the way of the test results. I had no idea PCP could even be bought or that it was something that was real. The only thing I knew about it was the stuff I heard as a kid, back in the 70's, of people jumping off buildings and wrestling 10 cops at one time when they OD'd on the stuff.

The amazing thing here is, even after personally witnessing the drug test showing the presence of PCP in my system, my parents still thought I was crazy or otherwise wanted to rationalize it away as something innocuous! I mean, come on, PCP for crying out loud! Where in the hell does one get PCP, anyway?

Later on ... I'd find out the answer to that last question ...

Why PCP?

That's the question that immediately began to eat at me. For nearly a year prior to that drug test I had walked around wondering how in the world I would ever convince anyone I had been covertly drugged, much less be able to come to know what that drug had been, and suddenly, I had a name.

The first PCP overdose had been an extremely traumatic experience.

During the months after the first drugging, I literally questioned every meal and every drink that I partook of, for an entire year, before being able to, ultimately, lay a name to the drug that was used. In many cases, hundreds really, I somewhat chronically would even have freak outs and not consume meals at all.

The post traumatic stress like symptoms were really that bad.

I would liken it to someone who had been violently assaulted on a regular basis, and whose assailant was always able to escape, suddenly finding themselves able to identify that assailant from a lineup.

Put simply, I was ecstatic that I now had some information to work with for further investigation.

My subsequent investigations into the nature and effects of PCP were the most important beginning steps towards undoing a situation wherein, up until that point, I had been simply a victim; once I began to study PCP and it's hallmark effects, I began to have a degree of control over my circumstances, especially in understanding the investigations tactics and strategies insofar as pushing the myth of mental illness and why they had chosen to use PCP in their assaults on me.

I acquired any and all data from my public library on PCP and spent a full day devouring it; what I found was unbelievable in the sense that it supported all of the operations, to-date, that had been leveled against me, especially the desire to create the illusion of mental illness and memory dysfunction.

PCP, I learned, claims as hallmarks, the causing of severe amnesia and other nervous symptoms "near identical to clinical paranoid schizophrenia." Every book on the subject I read reiterated this.

Every book, without exception.

In fact, just as a window into the prevalence of amnesia as a byproduct of PCP usage, here's a predefined google search:

+PCP, +amnesia

In fact, having poured over the contents of scores of books dedicated to the discussion of Phencyclidine (PCP), I would have to say of utmost importance to each was discussion of the occurences of memory loss and comparisons to clinical schizophrenia.

Whole chapters of certain books were dedicated to discussing the drugs ability to cause amnesia and psychotic symptoms indistinguishable from 'clinical paranoid schizophrenia;' furthermore, every one of my symptoms from the first night, especially the apparent anesthetizing of my extremities and the overwhelming feeling that I were dieing, were cited in most books as common symptoms of severe "PCP psychosis," or overdose. One book even mentioned, specifically, the extreme diminution of gag reflex, due to the drugs anesthetizing effects.

Most important, however, were the bits about memory dysfunction, as it has been known to me that a primary objective of the investigation is to create the illusion of my having a memory impairment of some kind in order to buttress the behavioral science goal of total discretion in extensive psychotherapeutic investigation of my entire personal history.

Another topic discussed in the various books I read on PCP dealt with the protocol followed within hospitals and law enforcement when dealing with PCP overdose cases, that when such cases are admitted to emergency rooms or are apprehended by the authorities, the first action taken is an immediate search of that persons premises and immediate belongings, due to the fact that so many of such persons simply can't remember when or if they took the drug (or perhaps they might, "psychotically" believe they had been drugged by someone else!)

How convenient!

I could almost hear an audible click as certain, if only a few, of the pieces of the investigators puzzle began to make sense.

I'm sure that if I had gone to the authorities that first night, or had fled to an emergency room, the above mentioned (and read) sort of protocol would have been followed and if so, there's no saying what might have been found in the way of planted evidence once such searches were performed.

One other interesting note: PCP was introduced to hospitals as a very real world drug as an anesthesia, it was post this introduction that it hit the streets in the early seventies and thereabouts. The drug was rather quickly discontinued due to it's discovered tendencies to cause psychosis, severe amnesia and often times violent behavior.

Today, the drug is still produced for "special applications," as one book described it, by one source and one source alone: the US Federal Government.

Other Drugs

Suffice it to say, I have not been drugged with PCP since those first two, early druggings and especially since the last instance of such barbarism when I was able to have witnessed tests performed. I have, however, been drugged a number of times with other substances, which, though not tested (it gets expensive after 5 or 10 times) were still quite identifiable to me as either some sort of stimulant such as speed or cocaine.

The reason the covert druggings continue is this:

My estimation is that the most likely means of pulling off a detonation event of some kind, which has as a goal the introduction of myself into the legal system, would most conveniently be built around the use of elicit drugs as this is something that, historically, can be indicated in my true, albeit distant, past.

I talk in great detail of detonation events in another area of this site.

The reason I think PCP was never used again:

Because I tested myself on numerous times in front of witnesses to demonstrate that PCP had indeed been administered to my system and because I made such a vocal stink over what I discovered regarding PCP and it's effects and especially how it factored into building a false case against me.

"To name is to know, to know is to control," as someone once told me.

;-)

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Random Fun

2008-02-15T07:01:00.009-06:00

Since the publishing of this blog, my monthly posts have dropped considerably.

I attribute this for the most part to the fact that I've gained a bit of momentum in my fight to first, stop the harmful tactics of the investigators and two, prove that the investigation exists. The former point being the most responsible for my ever lessening posts.

Posts to this blog are primarily strategic in nature, even though not what I would call factual information; the posts are intended to simply make concerning issues, even what I'd call rumors or 'hints' of things, immediately public so that they might not, over time, become more serious for me.

In essence, I've made my situation so public (and ever increasingly so) that such tactics by the investigators have most likely become not only ineffective at achieving the desired result (mental breakdown, stress, etc.) but as well have become somewhat threatening to the investigators themselves.

I mean think about it! Can you imagine the ruckus I could make if I was ever actually able to prove (with multiple witness' testimony) that the FBI or local law enforcement authorities (or whoever it happened to have been) here in Houston participated in covertly overdosing me on PCP to the point of almost being near death!!?? All so they could soften me up and funnel me into some half-way house or detox facility for more appropriate and quite nazi-esque prodding and testing? I mean, what a scandal that would be! A delicious, well deserved and JUST scandal but a scandal nonetheless. :-)

So yeah ... such tactics could easily play against the perpetrators of such and so my very public efforts have, at least in part, been successful.

That is to say that as more and more personal friends of mine have been involved in my ongoing efforts, as more of such folks either believe or simply write off my claims, it nevertheless does make it more and more difficult for the investigators to attempt staged incrimination attempts and other sorts of traditional actions against my person because to do so would invariably confirm what I've been saying all along.

I mean, the only other alternative, should such actions be taken against me in a way that makes me appear culpable to some crime, would be to simply argue that I'm crazy, an argument which, again, is growing more and more difficult to argue due to the fact that I have a very public daily work and family life, and 'craziness' just doesn't factor into my daily outlook, attitude or mannerisms (other than my long standing claims of being investigated locally here in houston, which, if taken for what it is, is simply no reason to call somebody crazy!).

That said ... I've included plenty of links in the above text if you care to read a bit more about the investigation itself and the types of actions against me that I've experienced in the relatively distant past. That and more is available at my primary domain and website: www.jbhfile.com

Some Random Fun of Late!

So I'm posting this bit as a little gratuitous window into the sorts of things I like to do in my free time.

This particular thing involves hi-fi audio equipment, which I simply adore but seldom have the money to pay for.

Therefore, I rack up a little bit of debt (but keep it very manageable!).

Anyway ... in the past few weeks my ears have been treated to the fine sounds of a couple of lovely bits of new equipment that I just can't remove from my head.

The first, a set of very well known and adored 'inner ear monitors' (IEM) made by Shure, Inc.

Good things really do come in small packages...

This set of inner ear monitors, believe it or not, in all their $500.00 glory, were a gift from Shure Inc. Call it fair testimony to the power of letter writing or call it providence ... whatever.

The fact remains that after penning a rather humorous article outlining a somewhat horrifying experience of getting a set of Shure (much cheaper variety) IEM's rubber tips lodged in my ear and after sending this to Shure, Inc. as a means of getting a new set of tips ($10.00 on average), someone in their service department saw fit to set me up with this set of uber expensive, uber fine sounding set of monitors.

In the inner ear monitor world, these are some of the most loved and sought after IEMs due to their natural sound and incredible bass reproduction capabilities. I find them the perfect companion to my portable media player and headphone amp combo (Creative Zen Vision:M and a Practical Devices XM4 amp).

For those of you not in the know regarding IEM's ... they are called 'inner ear monitors' because unlike typical ear buds, these actually are inserted into the ear canal itself. This sort of headphone is uncomfortable to some at first but after a bit you become accustomed to the invasiveness and are only aware of the really unbelievable sound quality.

The fact that these were a gift from the manufacturer makes the music that much sweeter (especially considering they retail for $500.00 or more!

Further audio bliss...

The final (and lets hope this is really final) addition to my burgeoning yet well dressed step into the land of audiophiles is a delightful, well known full sized set of headphones made by Grado Labs, the RS1's.

This set of headphones, though sounding quite a bit different (but not better) than the Shure IEM's above are much more adroit at classical music offerings... quartets, chamber music and especiallys symphonic pieces where 'sound stage' is of great importance towards shaping the final sound that reaches one's ears.

And don't laugh at the mahagony; it seriously affects the tone and timbre of the delivered music.

The best way to describe listening to classical music through these (again, rather costly) headphones is "audio bliss." The first time I put them on and played some Beethoven, I immediately reached for the power button on my 5.1 surround room speaker system because I thought the sound was coming from there. But it wasn't.

The overall spatiousness of the sound delivered by the RS1's is greatly enhanced by the "open" nature of these headphones; the term "open," when used to describe headphones, means that the outside of the ear pieces is not sealed and is rather open to the air and the room allowing much of the sound to escape out of the non-ear side of the headphone cups; this openness affects the sound in such a way as to make the delivered music "appear" to be coming from a much broader sound stage/sounding element than just two speakers pressed against one's ears.

It's so fun.

Concluding

It's also disgustingly expensive; that said, I am swiftly convincing myself to be satisfied with these two purchases for at least a couple years. :-)

No way in hell does my paltry monthly income allow for much more (granted) borrowing of money to fuel such a gratuitous love as pursuing the finest of home audio.

That said ...

This has simply been a small window into one of the more pleasurable, highly subjective "hobbies" that I take part in on a daily basis.

All the preceding banter about investigations, wrongful incriminations, legal documents and covert druggings aside ... I do, generally, have a great deal of fun with my time and in no way foresee that changing.

(Come hades, come floods)

;-)

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Illegal MP3 Downloading?

2008-01-12T14:54:00.000-06:00

Recent conversations with a few of those who have been aware of the investigation against me for some time now have revealed that as a last ditch effort to somehow involve me in publicly reprimanded internet crime ... the investigators are considering approaching me on supposed illegal MP3 downloading.

This is sort of humorous ... but, technically, it could happen at a stretch (humorous though it may be).

It's humorous because my activity around such issues is extremely infrequent.

Compared to the average internet savvy 17 year old ... my few downloads from open/public directories is sort of akin to a grain of sand on a beach.

Most kids will download, literally, gigabytes a month from file sharing networks and otherwise ... so how come the feds aren't knocking on their doors a thousand times a day?

???

Online Music

I'm not a big music downloader, never have been.

I have, however downloaded some music in the past few months.

The music I download is generally from sites covered by The Fair Use Act ... folks who publish mix cd's for public review, etc.

Also, there are some sites like Glorious Noise which comb the internet for free releases from Indie artists and then make them available for download from their main site.

All perfectly legal to the best of my knowledge.

And lastly, I sometimes will use google to search for open directories containing MP3 files ... again, something I'm pretty sure is acceptable as persons like myself could just as well consider such files free releases as not since they have no accompanying information applied to them or otherwise indication of being copyrighted material.

The practice of searching for music with google however, on my part anyway, is rather limited ... and since the files found in open directories are generally of sub standard quality, I will always purchase the CD in the long run.

More on Using Google to find MP3's

The following is copied from About.com and is a pretty good introduction in how to search for .MP3's with google:

...

There's an easy way to find free MP3 files with Google; actually, there's quite a few easy ways. Here's one (this particular method via Tech-Recipes):

-inurl:htm -inurl:html intitle:"index of" "Last modified" mp3

Okay, so let's break this down. You are attempting to find directories, so you don't want a a Web page (hence the minus sign in front of both the htm and html extensions). You're looking for the root directory, so that's where the "index of" in the title (intitle) comes in. And that mp3 file designation? You can change that to any file you are wanting to look for: wma, pdf, etc.

Now, how about looking for specific artists? Easy:

-inurl:htm -inurl:html intitle:"index of" mp3 "beethoven"

Make sure you put the artist's name in quotes at the end of the search string.

Now, there's another way to do this that might be a little bit easier; you're just changing the order of your search query around.

intitle:index.of + mp3 + "beethoven" -html -htm -txt

Basically, you're doing the same thing that you did in the first search string. You can narrow it down even further if you want to:

"index of" + intitle:mp3 + beethoven

All you're doing here is looking for directories with MP3 in the title and Beethoven.

...

So there you have it from About.com ... an easy way to find MP3's via google searches.

I must say, it's rather effective.

I've downloaded MP3's using this method only a few times in the past three months and since it's searching random public root directories, I can find no reason for why it would be prosecutable to download such content.

Much more likely, in the event that some authority or otherwise were observing a user downloading content in such a way ... and should said authority have issue with such activity ... the norm is for the ISP to contact the individual to request that such activity be halted (or otherwise, even ... to simply inform the user that it is indeed questionable traffic).

Using file sharing networks is another story, however as the intention there is, blatantly, to purposefully make copyrighted works available for download.

That's my own non-professional take on things, however and I could well be wrong.

That said, I use, and would suggest you yourself use some discretion in finding content via such methods; it's a gray area to be sure ... but one that theoretically could be problematic.

The most appropriate use of such activity is to simply demo artists and then purchase the CD.

The Rumors

Yet the rumors 'on the street,' as it were, have indeed indicated that those behind the rather winded, and at this point completely peculiar, investigation of myself (the reputable and supposed internet criminal) do wish to grasp at this particular straw that they see in my downloading of the occasional MP3.

That it would be a foot in the door.

That it would start the ball rolling.

That it would be a gateway event into a more winded, mandated deliberation on any and all past and present actions involving the use of computers, up to and including my decades ago role as administrator of the notoriously 37173 hack board, HoWL! BBS (as well loose discussions around topics like pirated software, internet porn, pedophilia, child stalking, my own sexual history, details of past romantic partners, favorite flavors of ice cream, my racial preferences in partners, where I was on a given night, what my alibi is, what I have to say for myself, bank robbery, home invasions prompted by supposed undieing affections/obsessions with ex-girlfriends, where I keep my supposed stash of drugs and weed, my drinking habits, how often I masturbate, who my first sexual partner was, if I've had a homosexual experience, whether or not I tortured small animals as a child, whether my pupils just dialated or not, what I find frightening, how I feel about my Mother, my relationship with my siblings and what my most recent video rental happened to be.)

Yes. Those topics and more are the end all be all desires of the whackos running the investigation.

And yes ... I've recently heard they want to use MP3 downloading as a potential spark to get the whole party going.

(I mean, lacking anything else, really ... who can blame them?

:-)

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Recent online purchases ...

2008-01-11T22:57:00.001-06:00

As I've reiterated over and over ...

Family members and close friend's credit cards and checking accounts have been a favorite target of the investigators in their attempts to falsely incriminate me.

I've offered plenty of links regarding such in the past.

That said, this post is simply a precursor to a more elaborate break down explaining and making public several online purchase I've made in the past month, on an agreed basis, using family member's credit cards.

As explained in past posts, I don't have a credit card of my own and so it is a normal practice of mine to use a family members established credit card and then reimburse said family member with immediate cash or regular payments.

This is old hat by now.

Anyway, several of such purchase have been made in the past month and once all transactions are complete I will post a detailed account here on my blog citing both products purchased and dates of online activity.

Until we recieve the actual invoices from American Express, I will list briefly here the loose dates and amounts of all such purchases:

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12/28/2007: Purchased Creative X-fi @ $269.53 from Directron.com

12/28/2007: Purchased Sennheiser HD595 @ $222.49 from Audiomidi.com

01/11/2008: Purchased Shure SE530 @ $350.00 from Ebay/Anthony Devo

02/16/2008: Purchased Shure SE530 @ $350.00 from Ebay/Anthony Devo

...

The Sennheiser purchase was a foul up on my part as I had originally intended to return those for a refund/exchange on the Shures but I failed to read the small print which stated that Audiomidi did not accept returns on headphones.

So anyway, ...

That's the rundown.

As is my usual habit, I will post the actual AMEX bill as soon as it arrives.

Otherwise ...

Cheers!

.jbh

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Other Person's Money

2008-01-05T20:08:00.001-06:00

As I've written in the past, one of the longstanding methods employed by the investigators in their ongoing attempts to wrongfully incriminate myself has been to create the illusion of my supposedly stealing from a family member or friends personal bank account.

This, of course, in a way that involved computer use and also most probably a way that would demand/require removal from my current work and home environs. Two requirements which have been on the investigators wish list for a long time.

A past example:

Persons close to my family (fathers side) who have acted as collaborators in the investigation once used my father's bank account to subscribe to several online, questionably legal pay-for-porn sites (think lassie, but much more than just a friend).

Follow the link if you care to read the details of that documented, thoroughly squelched attempt to wrongfully incriminate me some several years ago.

Possible Christmas Incrimination?

Anyway ... tis the season and all ... folks are spending money, dreaming up their most desired gifts and maybe even (as I'm currently employed at) making a bunch of stuff to give to other people as gifts.

That said ... this is the perfect time and seasonal environment for those running the ongoing investigation to attempt to dream up further acts along the lines mentioned above.

Considering the imaginary prospect that such a move against my person were to be made this time of year, the post event comments from the investigators could easily go something like this:

"Well, maybe he was just wanting some new stereo equipment ... you know he doesn't get paid much working in politics ... and you know he's had this new hobby of buying expensive audio gear ... seems his family members (or friend's) credit card account was just a bit too tempting for him to resist ... we see a lot of this around Christmas, you know ... people get depressed ... needy ... that sort of depressive mood, combined with alcohol or drugs ... well, it just added up to a lose this time ... but we'll get him the help he needs"

:-)

Dramatic ... but a fun imaginative romp nonetheless.

So, as a preemptive move ... I thought I'd go ahead and write about it before it actually had a chance to transpire (you know ... just in case and all).

Besides ... it's Friday ... just got home from work ... having a beer and all; I can think of nothing more appealing than writing for an hour or so.

Importance of a Detonation Event

Since publishing the content viewable at www.jbhfile.com, I have made it very public and very clear that a known goal of those behind the investigation is to end it along lines they "approve of" or otherwise that let them publicly justify the amount of time and resources dedicated to the efforts against me.

That being the case ... the investigations goals have been unchanging for almost six years now.

Number one ... a charge and a punishment ... even if that punishment is not jail time but the (known) and much more preferred "alternative" sort of punishment which would include the expected and grotesquely mandated court ordered psychiatric rubbish.

Number two (hinted at in number one) ... a clean entry into some sort of court mandated, supposedly very necessary and longwinded (oh, 3 months or so) psychiatric evaluation that would necessarily include the necessary authority to remove me from my current home and work situation.

I speak at great length regarding these objectives, HERE, at my main website and so won't go in to any more detail than that.

That said ... and considering those very briefly discussed objectives of the ongoing investigation, what do I continuously need to be wary of in so far as possible actions employed to make the above musings a reality?

The sort of set up I refer to here, one which would get the proverbial ball rolling towards the above mentioned goals is what I've termed a "Detonation Event." Meaning ... it's the ignition for the main spectacle, of course.

Meaning ... some sort of criminal setup which incorporates the necessary, er, "qualities" so as to allow a prosecutor (or judge) to say, "Hmmm, these facts are worrisome; I can quite conscientiously say that the defendant may at some point in the future cause possible harm to himself or others and so therefore a court recommended process of ... (blah blah blah)" Etc. Etc.

:-)

Really ... it's that simple.

Detonation Event: the likely types

It will/would involve theft (generally of some other close friend or family members property), computers and possibly even the inclusion of subjects/items of more dangerous nature ... say a planted gun found in my closet or something.

Anything that could be called, even possibly, "harmful to himself or others," would fit the bill towards sending me down the very well known and desired course of alternative sentencing.

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Regarding the term "detonation event" and why I've chosen to introduce that as a necessary and defined term, please read my more detailed comments related to such, at the following address: More on Detonation Events

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Otherwise ...

Have a great Christmas and a kick ass new year!

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Burden of Proof

2007-12-22T20:11:00.000-06:00

(This text copied from my main domain/website at www.jbhfile.com)

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Finally, a few more words on the FBI, after denying me access to the requested data, having what's termed "the burden of proof." Stated plainly, if a federal agency denies a citizen access to requested data regarding a current or past investigation, that agency must legally prove it had the right to withhold the data!

For this purpose, the FOIPA Act includes 9 exemptions via which any federal agency can deny a citizen access to investigation data. In the case of my investigation, the only real applicable exemption would be the one that states that an agency can deny data if the agency feels that provision of such data would prevent them from bringing charges against an individual.

If indeed this is the exemption being employed, then the FBI is legally bound to bring charges against me, simply to justify the withholding of data, whether I've committed a crime or not!

Generally, however, the agencies must cite an exemption when responding to any given FOIPA request; this has not been the case with my requests. I have simply received word from the agencies that no records have shown in response to their search.

Also, it should be noted that the FBI, (as stated ad nausem to me in their replies) is not obligated to keep investigation information as records in the FOIPA system; in other words, that, at their discretion, they can employ a 'do not file' policy on their record keeping insofar as inclusion of data in the FOIPA records database is concerned.

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for more reading, see the "Investigations Objectives" section at jbhfile.com

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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Preporn from the Ether

2007-12-13T20:05:00.000-06:00

Occasionally I get emails from visitors to jbhfile.com (my main domain).

The vast majority of these emails are trivial at best and some are worth reading.

Anyway ... a week ago or so, a person emailed me one of the more interesting sort of 'heads up' emails I've received.

The fellow who emailed explained that he had found my site (jbhfile.com) upon doing some cursory searches related to psychology ... he then went on to explain that, like myself, he also had a background in computing and the late 80's hacking scene (HoWL BBS was a hack board).

The reason he was emailing me was to let me know that when he performed a google search on 'Howl BBS,' he found among the resulting links a particular URL which led to a child pornography website; this site, as indicated by it's URL, seemed to cater to those seeking "preporn" content, as in "pre-teen porn," a popular descriptor for certain types of pornographic content which caters to those wanting to see children in sexually explicit circumstances.

Anyway ... the ramifications of this fellows email are several ... and I'll discuss those possibilities after first listing the actual email received on 12/2/07.

Here is the text of the email; I've changed a few characters in the provided link to make it inoperative as a hyperlink:

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Hello Joel,

I came across your blog after doing a google search looking for information on psychology and happened to see the term "Gangstalking"and looked at that specifically. Read one of your pages and began to read your whole site, mostly I admit because I also was involved in the BBS/Hacking/Phreaking scene in the 80's, ran a couple of BBS's in Seattle and was friends/acquaintances with a couple "hackers" from Texas. I also had a friend from the hacking community from the 80's had some interesting incidences with some government peeps but I blew it off as paranoid fantasies.

Anyway, I wanted to just let you know, when I did a search of your "Howl BBS" on Google I found this at the last site listed:

http://y0urpreporn.c0m/articles/bbs_child_top_dark_collections.html

Thought you might want to know about this. Not cool. When it loaded the first time it displayed some fairly disturbing images. Needless to say, I have not downloaded any of the content that is on there. Sorry to hear about your situation.

xxxx/xxxx (name removed)

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So according to this fellow, when he entered "Howl BBS" into google, among those results returned, there just so happened to be a link to a child porn website.

Pretty intriguing, eh?

I thought so too.

Anyway ... here's a link to the google results when searching on "Howl BBS": RESULTS

I would suggest NOT clicking on any of the resulting links ...

It seems upon a current inspection of those links provided via the google search, there's now another item listed mentioning "lolita" and "preteen bbs" (these being new additions to the results since checking a couple weeks ago); again, these are typical and often occurring terms used to describe child pornography.

Why are these things interesting?

This is of particular interest (and possible connection to the operations against myself) because supposed inclinations towards pedophilia (or sexual deviance in general) on my part have been the NUMBER ONE tool used in the various and past neighborhood rumor campaigns which have been utilized to disastrous effect in my past home locations.

Without a doubt, and according to testimony from trusted and long term friends of mine (even ex-girlfriends), at a certain point around the 2002 time frame ... those agencies (local and federal) who are running the ongoing investigation of myself, did in fact take it upon themselves to seed communities with the claim that I was a consumer of child pornography ...

I mean, at a certain point ... I was followed around everywhere ... to coffee houses, clubs ... around my house and neighborhood ... it was classic gangstalking and, at the time anyway, it worked very well to unsettle me.

But overall, the point was/is, ... sex sells ... and if your goal is to separate a subject from any social and professional opportunities, then pound for pound ... there's nothing better or more effective than whipping up a community frenzy around sexual predation and child porn.

It's better than C-4 in terms of resulting fallout and uproar ... :-)

Anyway ... back to the guys email and what it could mean.

So How to Take the Guy's Email?

There's several different takes on why the fellow emailed me, some benign and some very very possibly malignant (to use disease terms). Which interpretation to treat as fact/truth is anybodies guess ...

I, for one, am happy to have received the information; I found it quite interesting.

But then again, had I chosen to click on any of the provided links, then the very real-world possibilities afforded by law could have been very surprising.

But here I go jumping the gun ...

Anyway ... the most likely and desirable explanation is that this really was, simply, a fellow personally concerned with what he found via Google search and he just wanted me to know.

The more dangerous/malignant explanation is that it could have been a bait operation to entice me to simply click one time on the provided links.

US and European Law Regarding Child Pornography

My own circumstances not withstanding ... the problem of child pornographic content on the internet truly has become a troubling thing.

It's all over the news every night and, despite my own experiences, I have to believe that the vast majority of cases are true; I mean, not everyone who is being hauled in by the feds for child pornography charges are being set up; I'd wager most are authentic. Otherwise ... you'd see a whole hell of a lot more sites like jbhfile.com on the internet.

Under current US and European law, the mere act of simply clicking ONE TIME on a site related to the distribution and display of child pornographic content is, legally enough reason for authorities to serve with a warrant.

Just consider this commentary from an article discussing the case involving Pete Townsend (of The Who fame):

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"Even so much as clicking on a Web site featuring child pornography could result in a jail sentence of up to five years in the United Kingdom.

And if you host a Web site or forward an e-mail containing images of children -- who are or seem to be under the age of 16 -- being abused, you could face imprisonment of up to 10 years.

If you receive and view an unsolicited e-mail -- or spam -- of offensive material and immediately delete it, then that counts as a reasonable explanation, according to Peter Robbins, chief executive of Web campaigners, Internet Watch Foundation (IWF)."

Full article: HERE!

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Point being, United States law is no less lenient.

Therefore, my simply clicking on the link that the guy provided could, thereotically, have resulted in some sort of legal action against myself.

This being a a perfect sort of event to get the ball rolling towards the realization of the investigations very much publicly discussed objectives regarding my personal future.

Anyway ...

Needless to say ... I did NOT click on any of the links ...

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this post is intended to be supplemental to the facts made public in my main website, http://www.jbhfile.com/; it probably will not make much sense to you if you have not already made yourself aware of the legal and personal efforts discussed in that site. please see http://www.jbhfile.com/ for a necessary introduction into why this blog exists. or, if you just like reading weird stuff, then don't. and, enjoy.
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