Sunday, October 26, 2008

Random and sensual social fun!

So after waiting a mad two months or so ...

I finally got to attend the first official Houston "meet" yesterday.

This is something that myself and a fellow head-fier decided to organize, starting about three months ago (really, he did all the work and he also had the money to put up for the rental space)


Boy howdy was it a fucking hoot!

I swear. If your not into the high end headphone/amp scene already ...

Do yourself a favor and STAY AWAY FROM IT!! LMAO.

It will consume any and all of your excess money. It will quite possibly wreck your home and or marriage and it will devour your mind with it's incessant and constant need for ever more minuscule improvements in sonics.

Oh but it's a fucking hoot. I love it ...

Anyway ... I was proud to be able to demo my own humble equipment at the meet, an MHDT Havana DAC ($900.00), Grado RS1 Headphones ($750.00) and a Stello HP100 headphone amplifier ($600.00).

The prices are listed there to indicate that my system was among the least expensive there and not so much to brag. :-)

Compared to some of the other attendees set ups, though ...

Mine is just a drop in the proverbial head-fi bucket ...

Electrostatic "STAX" systems (at left) will curl your toes with their unbelievably detailed and spatious sound reproduction. That's about a four thousand dollar setup there.

Anyway ...

Met a bunch of nice folks and can't wait for the next one.

Here's me trying to figure out how to get the money for my next upgrade:



Really ...

It's worse than crack.


Sunday, October 19, 2008

FOIPA Law loopholes....

My most recent reply from the U.S. Department of Justice.

Positively *dripping* with irony if you consider the run around I've been submitted too from the FBI Houston Field Office:


As a certain dear friend once said ...

"The Thot Plickens!"


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Friday, October 17, 2008

A lovely little film about bullying, love, vampires and revenge.

I'm a sucker for well made films.

And even more so when it comes to well made vampire films (which are really few and far between).

As a respectable and quite literate friend of mine once said:

"Vampires can be rather interesting literary material as, properly portrayed, they become very complex and troubled characters that can be used to explore some serious and meaningful subject matter."

And even though there hasn't been a truly engaging vamp film since Bram Stoker's take on things (which I found fairly decent but not great) and "Interview with..." (which I also liked but less than the more classic and complex Bram's bit) ...there nonetheless appears to be hope on the horizon in what seems to be somewhat of a unanimously acclaimed gem of a film (unanimous among reviewers).

It's called, strangely enough, "Let the Right One In"

The title of the movie is actually culled from an old Smith's/Morrissey song entitled, "Let the right one slip in" (you do the research) ... and is quite appropriate to the cinematic content once you understand the context of that lyrical bit (and certain of old lores regarding vampires).

And as movies go ... especially those that attempt to explore some humanist landscapes... (and even though I haven't seen it yet) ... I'm pretty sure I already love it.

I mean, the subject of bullying, though not necessarily central to my own legal efforts and circumstances, is, nonetheless very much akin to the tactic model of gang stalking and/or persecution in general.

So I'm quite interested to see how this quirky little drama about adolescent love, trust, bullying and revenge, and of all things, a 200 year old little girl vampire ... could possibly turn out.


Here's the official trailer:



Fairly interesting and arresting possibilities there, huh?


Anyway ... here's a decent review. There's lots of static online and in the film scene about this so I'd encourage you to do some searching of your own, but this one is decent:


A few choice (well chosen) comments from, Mari Sasano @

"The trope of the lonely, bullied sensitive kid that somehow turns that experience into a wonderful adulthood is a romantic idea. But it's not as simple as that. Being the victim of bullying or violence does not automatically teach someone to be kind. In fact, it's usually the opposite: kids who experience violence usually learn violence.

But there is an escape from this cycle -- the loving guidance of family or friends. The Swedish film, "Let the Right One In," balances on the edge of love and violence, and it's not clear if we always get out safely.

It's in this context that we meet Oskar (Kare Hedebrant), a pale wisp of a 12-year-old boy living largely unsupervised in an ugly lower-middle-class apartment complex. His parents are divorced. At school, he is psychologically and physically bullied. The only time he appears happy is exploring the countryside with his dad, or spending time alone studying forensics.

It seems to be a strange hobby for a kid, but in spite of his passivity, it's obvious that he harbours a great deal of anger. While acting out one of his violent scenarios in the playground, he meets Eli (Lina Leandersson), a strange girl who has just moved into the apartment next door. Even though it's winter, she doesn't wear a coat, or even shoes. She smells odd, and there is something not quite right about her father, Hakan (Per Ragnar). In fact, upon their arrival, there begins a strange series of unexplained murders. We learn soon enough that Eli's father or guardian (the relationship is not clear) has been committing these crimes, apparently at Eli's request. She's a vampire. But even though her life depends on inhuman violence, she is still a girl at heart. The isolation is hard on her, and she feels a deep sadness about missing simple human contact and social pleasures like birthday presents.

In Oskar, she finds a friend, and he welcomes a kindred spirit -- he, too, lives in violence. "You have to hit back. Hard," she counsels him, and she should know. They are two sides of the same coin, even visually: Oskar is blond to the point of being colourless, while Eli is dark-haired with huge blue eyes, and her skin often blood-spattered.

Oskar and Eli need each other, and are loyal and tender with each other in a way that no one else is. They fall into a non-sexual, innocent love, probably for the last time in Oskar's life before he grows up. Unfortunately, it's hinted at that Eli has gone through this dynamic before: was Hakan once Eli's childhood love?

Let the Right One In is a strange movie: a Swedish vampire coming-of-age story. But instead of being sentimental, it asks some tough, adult questions, not just about the circulation of violence, but also about the complexities of children's emotional lives and the difficulty of emerging sexuality. It is sweet, and horrifying."


And, just for kicks. Here's a few more quotes from reputable psych/horror thriller review sources:



Opens in the US on October 28th!!



Can't wait.


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Sunday, October 12, 2008

(email to a friend; transcribed here for posterity, if nothing else)


I had a birthday recently.

With cake and beer and seclusion ...

I quietly celebrated my personal ninth year of being under the rather stark and alienating lens of local and federal authorities' concern ... (the most horrible of accusations, btw) ... with everything that such singular honor attributes.


And while certain folks have chosen to call me paranoid and mentally ill ...

All the while knowing the truth of things ...

(and even a few that have stolen from me)

I have, nonetheless, persevered.


Just wanting to say hello to someone who counts.

I'll be wanting to meet with you some time in the next few months.

You've been a big help over the past few years.

And, I've enjoyed and benefited from our past meetings.


Anyway ...

The point of all this drama:

Here's a recent little video I made (including an original song recording) that I have officially dedicated to all my most cherished friends. It's especially dedicated to you and "xxxx".







Thursday, October 9, 2008

Necessary P.S.A. regarding MySpace usage

It's true.

In so many ways I find the abomination that is to be disgusting.

It just reeks of non-existence on so many levels.

I'm of course speaking of the somewhat deleterious affect it has had on the very young.

The way it can lead certain types of personalities to believe that such communities can be viewed as truly social. The dangerous opportunity it allows said types of persons to slip off into a state of nonsensical and often times injurious fantasy.

Said plainly, I'm of the opinion that, for many folks, as opposed to being social at all ... rather, it becomes a hugely anti-social escape from reality.

I mean, portraying yourself as you'd prefer to be seen as opposed to how and who you really are, etc.


Pretend movie stars.

And worse.

But I took out a page anyway....

Mostly to make fun of myspace.

My main page heading reads "Myspace sucks uber ass."

And it's true, I think, for the most part, it's quite tripish and inane.

That said ...

Every one of my family members, both close and distant, have had a page for several years.

And, they use it well I would say: My mom (to talk to her cousins a couple times a month): my sisters (to network for their art/cosmetic/modeling careers); my brother (sadly, to get dates and talk to his old friends) (fuck you, BRO!) :-) .

Point being ... they've all got fairly healthy daily social lives and their activity on myspace, brief as it may be, has an actual personal intention behind it other than escaping from something.

They've also pretty much begged me to get a page of my own.

This, simply, so as to send them gay little messages and videos and what not. Something we do anyway via phone and in person on a daily basis. I mean ... we're a close family ... having daily and weekly contact with each other. I mean both my parents and my brother and sisters.

So thinking I could kill two birds with one stone (equal parts venom + love), I took out a page and decided to use it solely to post my original music and some of my video work ...

Between bouts of cursing at that is.


Actually met some decent folk ...

And what I've found is that there are a few decent folks who host pages on myspace.

Mostly old friends of mine who are above 30 and hold down daily jobs, have vital and active and real social lives,etc.

I've also met and been hailed by similar folks from bands and otherwise (many from other cities) who just happen to share my personal affinity for certain types of music.

We've actually hit it off fairly well. Men and women alike.

I've actually found such daily interaction, brief as it is and shall remain, to be rather fun.

I've also enjoyed making fun of myspace, it's more glaringly disgusting qualities that is, very very much.

How does this intersect my efforts with

First, and foremost ... it opens the door for future set up attempts against my person which might be created to force the impression of stalking or otherwise.

Even those born yesterday have probably heard the terrible side of online communities which is there undeniable proclivity towards allowing stalkers, pedophiles and otherwise sexually demented (or, just lonely) persons the opportunity to obtain new targets.

It's as notorious of an online problem as is pirated software.

That said, there are certain of those I have met from myspace whom I have forged real and physical ties with ...

Person's who have forwarded their mailing address so as to exchange musical mix tapes, etc.

Person's who might have sent me a phone number so as to better confirm the mailing of a package, etc.

Men and women alike.

These persons include those I've known from my Houston social circles and some whose acquaintance was originated wholly on and who may or may not live in cities/states other than my own.

Why post this bit, now?

I haven't heard anything from my long standing friends regarding possible misuse of the above stated situation.

Those who have confinded in me their past knowledge of possible nefarious actions against myself have said nothing, as of yet, regarding such possible attacks.

I'd hope that such never happens.

But I'm still typing this brief and boring bit so as to preemptively head off what, to my mind, and knowing what I know regarding those organizing the winded investigation of myself, could become a very big juicy temptation to them in the way of falsely incriminating myself.

Pardon that run on. Couldn't be helped.

Say for instance, one of the persons (most likely a woman since I'm notoriously hetero) I have interacted with on a physical/mailing basis suddenly finds her cel phone receiving random and unsavory (or even mysterious) regular calls?

What if said calls escalated into something local authorities could describe as problematic or worrisome?

What if said calls were then traced to my cell phone?

The rest should be easy enough to play out.

Just hypothetical, of course ... but necessary since I for one have a unique understanding and knowledge of digital cel phones (courtesy of my many years administering a local computer hacking and phone phreaking group/bbs).

Trust me.

One does not have to physically dial the number one's self to actually make a phone call on his or her cel phone. It can be done quite easily in a remote capacity and by a third party, allowing that said third party has access to the appropriate information.

This same fact holds true for household phones that are a part of a digital network.

Digital phones (having the right knowledge) are *CAKE* to manipulate remotely.

Each and every one of you reading this who are digital cel phone owners, no matter your network or plan or phone, are proud owners of perhaps the most ingenious and effective remote listening/remotely controllable surveillance device ever crafted.

The magnitude of just how effective of a surveillance device the common digital cel phone is is simply staggering.

Any cel phone can be remotely dialed and cued to auto answer without ever giving any indication of such usage to the owner of the cel phone: no lights, no ringing, no vibration, etc. Just a sudden and unheralded and instant audio connection to the phone owner.

Furthermore, any cel phone can be remotely directed to call another phone number; again, without any indication of such usage: no lights, no ringing, no vibration, etc.

And even furthermore (and way more accessible to the average joe) ... there are types of phones that can be used to dial other phones while transmitting any sort of custom manipulated originating caller number and caller ID information (the commonest form of such a device would be the somewhat popular "internet phone").

But I won't type any more and will leave it to you to further investigate such technologies.

I've done my homework (about 20 years worth) on such and know such to be true but am not here to argue the facts.

The point is to simply and preemptively announce certain of my past few months activities which, as with so much of what I've written here and at, could be used against me in further attacks on my person.


Thank you for shopping at Fiesta.


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Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Some words from Allen L. Barker ...

reprinted without permission from one of Allen L. Barker's essays on mind control.

Keep in mind as you read that I do not claim to have ever experienced any of the electromagnetically directed attacks he discusses. Nor have I ever experienced the "voices in your head" type harassment that he discusses.

But this is beside the point.

Allen's thoughts on mind control and harassment are nonetheless quite on point in regards to anybody needing inspiration towards how to personally deal with *any* type of prolonged and constant, unnatural attention.

As Allen himself wrote:

"The focus is on the effects that the victim experiences, not necessarily the particular technology that is used to inflict it"


Living with Constant Harassment

"How do you deal with "ordinary" social interactions with the pigs harassing you constantly in your mind? Do you act "ethically" and warn everyone you interact with that their privacy is also being invaded, by way of you, against your consent? People you interact with either believe you or they don't, but either way the social dynamic is completely changed. The pigs invade the privacy of everyone around you, by using you, even that of your spouse and children. They may also impersonate anyone you see, in your mind, to make it seem as if that person is the one "contacting" you. They try to make it seem like everyone can hear your private thoughts, that you are "broadcasting" to everyone. (Of course some victims might actually be doing that; if they can read your thoughts they could then broadcast them wide-field or local-field...)

What sort of career are you "allowed" to have in a system where your intellectual property is stolen the minute you think it up and where you have to cope with both "regular" harassment as well as harassment in your mind? All this is in addition to the ordinary stresses of the job -- and not to mention that some jobs require actual mental concentration. How sociable are long-term harassment victims with serious cases of Ongoing Traumatic Stress Disorder? In American society there are also plenty of vicious jerks who, while not Nazis or torturers, are quick to sense perceived weaknesses in people and home in on them. The Nazis can often just wound a person and then throw him or her to the sharks, bleeding.

It is natural for humans to think about other people. It is even natural to run a mental simulacrum process to imagine and empathize with other people. Monkey see, monkey do, air guitar, "I was just thinking of you..." etc. The rapist pigs try to turn this against the human beings they torture. Sex is also a natural process, as is farting, masturbation, defecation, burping, spats with people, fantasy, and so forth. The rapist torturers try to turn this against their victims. They constantly attempt to demean their victims. Worrying and anxiety are also normal human emotions. The torturers, though, try to turn all of these human properties against their victims.

One technique the Nazi pigs use is to try to reinforce anything you might worry about or feel anxious about. It is like taking a dynamical system and driving it at its natural frequency in order to purposely destroy it. Of course this is not to say the idiots know anything about dynamical systems. If you ever read Lord of the Flies in junior high school you know about the level that these pig idiots operate at, but when they rape your brain to inflict such ridicule and hatefulness it sets up positive feedback processes in the brain that constitute torture. (If I am teaching these idiots anything by this, then you had better watch out because they have already tortured me.) They will purposely injure you and then pick at your scabs if you start to heal.

This process also happens because you know damn well you are under surveillance and the pig ridicule squad is there to taunt you. Try not thinking about something you are conditioned with "cattle prods" into knowing will result in harassment. You know the torturers will zap you -- that is why they goad you with triggers at times -- but it is like not thinking of a pink elephant on command. Yins produce yangs, so to speak. Transcending the yins and yangs is hard enough without the torture.

The torturers treat your personal, private, internal speech as if it were your public speech. They try to subject you to all the ignorance and "political correctness" and everything else that someone at a podium in a public place might be subjected to. The sadist nanny state is not just concerned with what you say in your own home, they want to regulate what you think inside your head also. That can really cause your "moron anticipator" thought pattern to distract from your normal private thinking, because you cannot even think your private thoughts without knowing they will be "reviewed" for you by rapist morons.


For more reading from this most insightful of fellows ...

See here: Allen L. Barker's Essays





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